this year's Christmas was not a lonely one. Christmas Eve was spent with the ladies; Tracy, Amy and Sylvia. it was a last minute thingy and it was a good one. otherwise i'll be spending Christmas alone at home, which was my initial plan. last minute plan always works for me and Tracy. advance planning is always a failure and disappointment to us.

i worked till noon on Christmas Eve, rushed home and got ready for dinner with the ladies. table for 4 at Santini@SURIA KLCC. the food were just ok. but, to be really honest, all of us were quite disappointed with everything; the food, the service, the ambiance, the songs they played. no Christmas spirit at all. imagine listening to "Never Had A Dream Come True" by S Club 7, "Beautiful" by Christina Aguilera and "I'm With You" by Avril Lavigne on Christmas Eve. that's sad. we were up at San Francisco for a while and they were much better compared to Santini. we don't know about food wise, but the staff were friendlier and they wished us "Merry Christmas" once we entered. unlike Santini, they didn't even bother to wish us. but i must say that i do love the pasta, only the pasta.

next stop, Poppy Garden. Amy suggested that we went there because her friends were there. so i met up with bro and his friends. they had planned for a loco party in Poppy Garden for Christmas a week in advance. i actually told him that i'll never be there because 1-i don't know all his friends and 2-my original plan was to stay at home. but i went out in the end. hehe.. bro's friends are really loco loco. i was dragged to the dance floor and was surrounded by all his friends, whom i don't even know. *doink* anyhow, it was a great night.

on Christmas day itself, jie had a BBQ party at his crib. however, everyone left quite early because most of us have to work on the following day. Labbit aka Rosh and jie got me a SPONGEBOB!!! \(@_@)/ OMG, I LUV SPONGEBOB!! thanks humans.. and in return, i actually got Rosh 6 Pooh's fridge magnets (got them in November ok). she loves Pooh. darling Nikki and her hubby, Beh got me a pashmina and she baked yummy Christmas Ice Cake or wateva it's called. they're so yummy.. all the above make this year's Christmas a joyful one. =D

New Year's Eve will be spent in Kaohsiung, Taiwan. fun?? OF COZ NOT!! i'll be sleeping in the hotel and no countdown for me because yours truly have to work. yeah, it's fun indeed. anyhow, wishing all you humans out there a Merry Merry Christmas and a Happy Happy New Year!!!


The food at Santini.


My Spongebob...

recently, i came to have a dream and a thought of changing my career. it's something that i never thought that i'll be interested in. something that i never even thought of when i was younger. most importantly, i never even thought that i am qualified to be one. and just recently, it just popped in my head. it all started when a colleague of mine told me that i should give it a try and he really encourages me to go for it. bro has the same dream too and we were talking about it lately, and everything just came. but i knew that it will never happen. i know that i can't do it. don't ask me why but i just knew that i can't. i don't have the confidence in me. people told me that i should try sending in the application letter; trying doesn't mean that i'll get it. however, i do not even have the guts to send in the letter. what a loser.. 4 years of training and an additional of 7 years bonded with the company if i'm selected, that's just too long. 11 YEARS is what we're talking about. i don't think i can. bro told me that i should consider again. but from the start, i already knew the answer...

December is not my month. first, both my lower legs were injured. God knows how i got the wounds. seriously, i don't know how i got them, i didn't even notice that they were there until when i was taking my shower, i felt the pain and there, i saw the wounds. there's not one, not two, but THREE wounds on my left cnemis and one on my right cnemis. damn kanasai!! now both my legs look super ugly. the wounds have healed but they leave scars. jier..i hate scars. how to wear miniskirts now you tell me?!! it's not that i wear them but hey, scars means U-G-L-Y. wanna wear short pants also cannot. aRrGhH!!!

second, i accidently stepped on my glasses and it's crooked now. i just made a pair last week and i haven't collected it yet. shall collect it later and get my glasses fix too. then i'll have 2 pairs. the one i'm wearing now is a titanium frame glasses by Seiko. the new glasses is a plastic frame one by ... i don't remember. i think it's some cheap brand but the whole thing cost me RM300. not too expensive i guess, compared to my Seiko and previous D&G glasses.

and third, i dropped my watch and the glass/screen cracked. aijor...all the expensive stuff.. it's kiling me.

two days ago, a friend told me that another friend of ours dumped/broke up with her bf of 4 years for another guy, who is hell much richer than her ex. we don't know if it's money that she's aftering or love. but she used to tell us that she loves her bf (now ex) and that they'll never be apart. now guess what, they're history. perhaps it's love that brought them (my friend and the new guy) together. perhaps he really cares for her and that catches her heart and she feels like he's the one (gals will really fall for guys who really care and love them, pay lots of attention and stuff). perhaps she thought of settling down soon and wanted a man who can give her the happiness and everything a woman needs. come on la, the new guy has a very good career and loads of cash (bright future and financially stable), while her ex is still studying and young. or perhaps it's something else. wateva it is, we just found that everything happened just too fast. she just met the guy like end of last month, on the 23rd Nov to be exact and according to my friend, they're together for a week already. \(@_@)/ i remembered her calling me on the 28th Nov and told me bout him (you see, at that time i'm the only one among our friends who knows about his existence, i actually met him first on the 24th Nov). she was saying that he's been treating her really nice, very caring and all the shits. and she actually told me that it's so hard to let go a relationship that has lasted for 4 years. bla bla bla...but in the end, she's with the new guy now and bye bye to her ex. i don't know if i should feel sad for her or her ex. wateva it is, it's her life and it's her decision. she has made her choice and since she's happy with it, i should be happy for her too. but i really do hope that the new guy is true and sincere.

on the other hand, my bro was so messed up, he doesn't know if he's doing the right thing; hanging on to this gal, whom turn out to be a close friend of mine. i knew that something isn't right between them, they're like having this on and off kinda thing. i always wanted to pop the question but don't dare. and eventually, the curiousity just ran out. and i decided to let them be. besides, it's their personal thing, so if they don't wanna tell me, i don't wanna bother. until yesterday, bro finally popped the question to me; whether i think that he's doing the right thing hanging on to this gal. seriously, it's very hard for me to say. one is my bro, the other is a friend. one of his friends told him to let go and that it's time for him to open up and discover new things. he thought of the same because at times, he felt like it's a one sided thing and he felt that he's being unfair to himself. i sort of agree with that. and so, i guess he has made his decision. wateva it is, again it's his life, his decision. no matter what i'll support what he has decided.

this is really funny.. i must say that it does makes me laugh and makes me feel better. i'm feeling great these days. i'm feeling stronger. it's good, since he doesn't call lately (as expected) and haven't seen him for couple of days already.

Some quotes again:
~I could never regret loving you because even if you didn't love me anymore, i know that you once did and that is the most wonderful feeling because i never thought that i deserved your love.
~Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.

WHY IS IT ALWAYS LIKE THIS?!! gosh!! when i'm so determine to forget about that someone, they always seem to know it and somehow they'll appear and make me go weak again. i mean ALWAYS!! previously, when i determined to forget about this guy twice, twice he'll appear out of nowhere after missing in action for so long, and started talking to me, caring for me and stuff. and knowing me, i'll fall for even the tiniest thing he said, doesn't matter if he means it or not. yup, that's me. and now, this current human that i'm determine to forget, is stuck in my head again. yes i know, that's fast. i'm so determine to let him go. even if i see him, i told myself to act cool and try to ignore him. and no matter how hard i tried to avoid from seeing him, we will somehow meet unless i or him quit our job, just as some of you might have known, we work in the same company.

so when i was making the determination to let him go yesterday morning, heck, never did i thought that i'll see him yesterday evening itself. F**K ME!! coincidence?? you tell me. well, i was with a friend at the waiting area when i saw someone whom i thought was another friend of mine. as he came closer, i got a shocked of my life. "HOW COME IT'S YOU?" was what i said to him when he came and sat next to me. i know, what was i thinking. well it just popped out from my mouth. i tried to ignore him when he talked to me and seriously, i did not even look at him when he talked to me. i know i'm being rude. so what! if i look at him, i'm afraid that i'll fall for him again. but now, even without looking at him, i'm already falling over him. I HATE IT MAN!! i hate myself for being so weak. i hate myself for being so stupid. i feel so crappy...

"by now, i think i should give up on you. i think i should erase you from my mind and get you out of my life. i shouldn't have waste my time on you. i know i deserve someone better. i deserve a happier life. with you, i must admit that i'm happy but often, i'm miserable. i spent my time waiting and hoping for something that i know i'll never get in return. it's time to move on. i hope that we'll never ever meet again as everytime i look at you, it makes me want you even more. furthermore, i'm afraid that i'll fall for your sweet words and everything again, and it's back to square one. just like what bro said, "there are moments when you wish to leave everything behind and move on, but when your eyes meet the other's again, your knees become weak and you are back to square one". *sighh...* but it's hard for us not to meet again, as you know, we are working in the same company. gosh!! that's the worst thing ever. but for now, it's time to move on....bye..."

Quotes of the day:
~The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned.
~It's easy to make a person to fall in love, but it's hard to say Goodbye.

Garbage
You Look So Fine

You look so fine

I want to break your heart
And give you mine
You're taking me over

It's so insane
You've got me tethered and chained
I hear your name
And I'm falling over

I'm not like all the other girls
I can't take it like the other girls
I won't share it like the other girls
That you used to know

You look so fine

Knocked down
Cried out
Been down just to find out
I'm through
Bleeding for you

I'm open wide
I want to take you home
We'll waste some time
You're the only one for me

You look so fine
I'm like the desert tonight
Leave her behind
If you want to show me

I'm not like all the other girls
I won't take it like the other girls
I won't fake it like the other girls
That you used to know

You're taking me over
Over and over
I'm falling over
Over and over

You're taking me over
Drown in me one more time
Hide inside me tonight
Do what you want to do
Just pretend happy end
Let me know let it show

Ending with letting go

Let's pretend, happy end

Quote of the day:
~It's hard to pretend that you love someone when you don't, but it's harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.

"i feel so dumb for falling into the trap you've set.
i feel so dumb for believing all the sweet words and lies you've said.
you always said something and did nothing. did you actually mean everything you've said? or did you just said it just for the sake of making me happy, because you know that i'll fall for it and believe it? i do understand your situation, that's why from the start i did not hope for anything much. but when you actually said that you'll do something, it means to me that you'll do it because you said so. and that's when you started giving me hope. i'll keep waiting and hoping, but in the end, i realize that it's always a lie, a falsehood. and that leads to disappointment. i hate you! i hate me! but you always know what to do as a recovery. you'll shower me with sweet words and thoughts and the stupid me will always fall for it and believe it. you know that you're good in that and you know that i'll definitely fall for it. then you'll say something again and everything is back to square one.

you've never done it for real, not even once. i keep falling over and over towards all your lies. i'm dumb. i'm sick of this. it gotta stop. i need to get rid of you, get you out of my life. but can i?

i'm sick of all the lies. i'm tired of being your doormat.
i shouldn't have got myself into this at the very first place.
i shouldn't have liked you at the very beginning.
we shouldn't have started the whole thing.
we shouldn't have met.
i should have stayed away from you.
i should have stayed away from ALL THIS!!
if i'm given a chance to turn back time, i'll choose not to know you at all.

whenever i needed someone to talk to, someone to listen to me, someone to console me when i'm down, i know that i can never turn to you because i know that you're too busy, you have something more important in mind. therefore, i'm always trying to be considerate and understanding.
i don't wish for you to be there for me whenever i needed you.
i don't wish for you to call me everyday.
all i hope for is some care and perhaps some love from you. is that too much to ask??
if you really do mean all the words you've said, can't you take some initiatives to proof to me that you're for real? at least for once. but you did not, not even once."

i shouldn't have got myself into this when i already know that it's wrong at the beginning. and yet, i'm stubborn and stupid to get myself into this. i'm torturing myself. but it is not of my will. the feeling just came, i can't control it. why must humans have feelings? why??!

whee...yours truly got a new phone already. bought it on the 1st November and i bought the Samsung SGH-D900, one of the 3 Ultra Edition phones. wanted to get the E900 at first, but after listening to what bro's said, i finally decided to get the D900. it has better features (of course, it's later than E900) and they only differ by RM200. so why not, right? so happy but i'm poorer by a thousand plus now. poor as a church mouse. =( i still have so many things to buy. hopefully i'll be able to get maybe not all, but most of them by the end of the year. so what am i getting?

1 - a new wallet (must have, current wallet looks so horrible, seriously horrible. perhaps i should take a pic of it just to prove how bad it is)
2 - a new pair of spectacles
3 - facial products; cleanser, toner and moisturizer finishing soon


Look at my wallet..

recently, i've done something that's terribly wrong. so wrong that i don't know why am i still doing it. it's something that i used to advise a friend not to fall for it, not to step into it, not to do it. but now, i myself am falling for it, stepping into it, doing it. that friend is going to think that i'm evil, she might think that i'm doing everything for my own good. she's so gonna kill me and hates me. how can she likes a friend who plays fast and loose? but it's always easier to advise people and it's always harder for ourselves to follow it. don't you agree?

i don't know if i should hate myself for what i've done, but i must say that i'm not proud either. i realize that my action might hurt someone else's heart, but at times it doesn't really bothers me. yes i know, i'm mean. all these while, i always thought that my willpower is strong enough. until yesterday, i found out that i'm wrong. i've lost my willpower, my self-control. i've gone further, i've crossed the line; the line that i always tell myself not to cross, as a single step over the line may ruin not only other people's life, but also mine. i'm jeopardizing my own life, how terrible can it sound?! i do know that my action might cause people to hate me, talking behind my back, labeling me with names..i should have known; those are the few consequences that i must be ready to take. but will i be strong enough to take them all?? do i regret for the things i've done? do i feel stupid for my action? wouldn't i feel shy when meeting them, the people who have seen and heard about me? gosh...i really don't know. but to be honest, deep down inside, i do feel a lil happy bout it. omg...what the HELL am i thinking!!!

Trey said that i'm old enough to take care of myself. i'm old enough to make my own judgement. i'm old enough to know what i want and what i'm doing. but i think i disappoint her, i just proved to her that she's wrong. regret or not, guess it doesn't matter now, for everything has happened...already.

the other day i noticed that my place in Bukit Jalil is infested with hundreds and thousands of six-legged crawling insects; ANTS!! i F**CKING hate ants!! God knows where does this creature come from. it's like all of a sudden, everywhere i look i'll see them. they're really driving me crazy and soon i'll go insane. they're like...EVERYWHERE! first, i spotted some on the table in my room. as i was looking for more of them (i believe there'll be more), i saw an army of them happily feeding on a granola bar that Rosh brought. i wanted to kill them all but i do not have Shieldtox. so guess what i did. i took the whole bar and threw it out the window. whee...there goes all the ants, flying like a superman, i mean superants. haha... sorry la, i'm left with no choice but to throw them out the window. i started looking for the trail of the ants, see where they came from. but i still don't know where they're from. arghh...driving me crazy. they're like everywhere, even in my bag which i left on the floor where there's nothing sweet in the bag at all. i even spotted a couple of them on the bed. MY BED!! darn, i tell you they're so gonna die. no wonder lately i spotted some tiny red dots on my body and they itch. i bet it's those ants that bit me. i'm so gonna kill all of them. but how? burn all of them to hell?? i can't burn the house down. i wish that there's this poisonous smoke grenade that is harmless to us, the human and is so toxic to the ants. all i need to do is to throw one in the house - fire in the hole and close all the doors and windows and send all the ants straight to hell. but is there such thing?? i'm thinking too much again. gotta get an aerosol spray quick.

Kit Kat from Japan

From top to bottom: Fruit Parfait Kit Kat, Almond Kit Kat, The Universal Studios Japan 5 Years Anniversary Kit Kat (i guess it's just plain milk and white chocolate Kit Kat).





Fruit Parfait Kit Kat (yummy...)


Almond Kit Kat (tasted like cough medicine. no good..)


The Universal Studios Japan 5 Years Anniversary Kit Kat.

p/s: sorry for the crappy pictures. no skills la..

yours truly decided to get a new phone. not that i don't appreciate the new casing from HC, but i think it's time for me to change a new one, since almost everyone i know got a new phone lately. and besides, i think Mum needed a phone too, so i think this is a good opportunity and a good excuse for me to get a new phone for myself, and my old phone will be handed over to Mum. haha..so much for being a good daughter. hey, my phone is still new ok, currently am using Nokia 6610 (though it's a lil outdated la). so what phone am i getting, you asked? i'm looking at Samsung SGH-E900 now. i know, you must be wondering why Samsung? and i'll say, why not?! when i told jie that i might be getting a Samsung, he went like, "WHAT?!!!" wateva it is, it's up to me la, i like it so what. so i saw the E900 when i was in New Castle and the design is so sleek and nice. i fell in love with it right then and there and i told myself that i'll be getting that phone soon. however, my bro told me that i might wanna consider getting SGH-D900, which is not out in Malaysia yet. so if i'm to get D900, then i need to wait. war lau eh, money flowing out again. DIEEE.....

there are still many things that i wanted to get, but due to my current condition, i try to postpone as many as i can. to name a few, i wanted to get a pair of new glasses (postpone it for months already, the one i'm currently wearing, very old already leh, since 2003 ok), a new phone (still considering), a pair of new sneakers (my Adidas also very long already, since 2003 too). omg...where is my "Choy San Yeh" la???


SGH-E900


SGH-D900

[Source: http://www.samsungmobile.co.uk]

weeks ago, i was talking about trust and being unfaithful in a relationship, as in gf and bf. but now, i've been thinking (yes i think a lot), what about those who are already committed in a relationship, as in married couple? if one is married and committed, shouldn't he/she be loyal and faithful to his/her wife/husband? till death do us part?? yeah my a**. how can some come out and find someone else still?! that's like ber-scandaling. don't they feel sorry and guilty? don't they think about their wife and kids? sad to say, i've seen and know a lot of "this kind" of people.

but for now, who are we to blame? the husband/wife or the new gal/guy (third party)? most of the time, people tends to blame on the third party, for being a family ruiner. but is it like totally the third party's fault? i mean somehow he or she is wrong also la, since you know that fella is married, why do you still wanna get involve in something like that? i know, sometimes we just can't help it. feelings just came like THAT!! then how? blame on that fella for having such feelings?? dunno la. but then, sometimes it's not like totally the third party's fault. the husband/wife should be responsible too, don't you think? alright, i know what you're thinking now. so stop wondering. i sounded like i'm talking bout me right now, don't i? what if i'm to tell you that i'm in this situation now?? you're going to think that i'm a horrible person, don't you? but what if i tell you that i'm not in the situation. will you still believe me? i believe not, right? so WHATEVA..

New Castle Baybeh

so i'm in New Castle now and i must say that i hate all the memories that keep flashing back to me once i've step my foot into Heathrow Airport. it makes me wonder if i should be happy or sad to be back here again. all the feelings turn upside down, they're making me crazy. i think i'm thinking and feeling too much. these should stop.

so from Heathrow, we (Mum, Dad and i) headed straight to Victoria Coach Station to catch a coach to New Castle. i tell you, 13hours flight + 6 hours coach ride killed us all. already my bum is flat, after more than 20 hours sitting (19 hours + a couple of hours sitting at the station), i swear my bum is getting flatter by 2 inches now. serious shit!! we'll be spending most of our time in New Castle. we'll only be back to London on the 24th noon. at least we still have the whole evening and the whole noon on the 25th to spend before catching our flight back to Malaysia.

sighh..and once again, i don't know if i should be glad to be back here. being here again, it brought back many many things. things that i shouldn't remember but i'm remembering them still. i can never tell how much i miss London, how much i miss every little single moment that i've been thru, be it alone or with my friends. sometimes i just wished that i'm never here at the first place. at least i wouldn't be so nostalgic like now. whatever it is, we can never deny the fact that, i was here before...

alright, i'm going to Hong Kong or Taiwan no more. instead, i'm going to London bay beh... so office approved my leave application and the thought of going to Hong Kong or Taiwan has been changed to London. we've got our tickets already; Mum, Dad and i will be leaving for London on the 19th and be back on the 25th. so why changed to London all of a sudden?? i mean good la, i always wanted to go back there and now it's the time. well we're going to New Castle first, Mum and Dad wanted to visit bro first. we'll be there for a couple of days and then back to London for another couple of days before coming back here again. can't wait to go back to London.

~~LoNdOn BaY bEh...HeRe I cOmE...~~

p/s: i'm gonna be so FARKIN' broke man...darn.. but luckily Daddy will sponsor some money. hahaha...

June's Baby

You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around (really??). You love to make new friends and be outgoing (quite true). You are a great flirt (you've gotta be kiddin' me) and more than likely have a very attractive partner (where is he then?). A wicked hottie (rofl). It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! (this is really funny) In the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.

[Source: from a forwarded mail]

dinner at SOULed OUT with jie and Nikki yesterday evening (to celebrate jie's birthday which was on the 8th August). fish and chips for me, chicken chop for Nikki and curry laksa and dunno what beef stew for jie, and 3 of us shared an 8 inch pizza. 4 other friends came later and they had 3 jugs of beer while me, i had a glass of ice lemon tea (don't really like beer). after dinner, jie, Nikki, Beh and i headed to Matrix at Phileo Damansara for pool. it's been quite some time since we, the "Sam Chi Mui" hung out together. "ah ne, although you're not one of the "Sam Chi Mui" but you're always with us, but you la, balik Segamat dunno for what. dinner's on you when you're back. hehe..." =P

::~*HaPpY bElAtEd BiRtHdAy, JiE!!*~::

check this video out, super hilarious. *roflmao* saw it from xes' blog.

Japanese's English

i don't understand, how can a human be so unfaithful in a relationship? how can he/she be so disloyal and cheats behind his/her partner's back? being in a relationship, i believe TRUST is very very important. however, some of them do not understand the meaning of the word "TRUST". how can some betrayed the trust and go having fun with someone else and acted as if it's a very normal thing?! wouldn't they feel guilty? if they are SINGLE, i wouldn't even care if they go flirt around 24/7. but when you're attached, that i really don't understand.

last Sunday, a friend asked me and Rosh out for a drink at Cafe Flam. he brought two of his friends (a gal and a guy) along and one of them (the gal) turns out to be someone i knew. my impression of her was good until that night, the whole good impression was gone. all went down the drain. she has a bf but she can still go all around touchy with my friend and the other guy. it's normal if you dance with guys but she was too over; dirty dancing with both of them (this i don't really mind), but she went hugging this one guy, went all over him then changed to my friend and did the same thing. omg...i just couldn't stand looking at her. there's this time when Rosh told me that she saw that gal kissing the other guy. OMG!! best thing is she's staying with her bf. so that night, we don't know whether she went back to her bf or went home with the other guy coz Rosh and i left quite early. i mean if she's single, i wouldn't give a damn, but she's in a RELATIONSHIP. doesn't she feels guilty?

ok i've been talking too much that it makes me wonder, will i be doing the same thing like her? go flirting around even when i'm attached? i mean i know it's wrong (for now), but what if i'm to do the same thing one day, when i'm attached? gosh...too much thinking. better stop now..

i've never felt this way towards a guy his age before. i don't know what's wrong with me. i think i'm going crazy. i know this is not real. i know the feelings that i'm having now won't last long; it's just an infatuation. i know. guess it all happens just because of the way he treated me; very very sweet, he made me feels like a princess. of course he's not the only one, many have been treating me really nice, but somehow, he's different. the whole thing lasted for more than a week already, i hope it'll be gone soon.

life in Bukit Jalil = no internet + no astro = mental suicide...

whee..Fukuoka was fun though i did nothing much there except spending lotsa money on food (i spent more than ¥10000 just on food \(O_O)/). oh and please bare in mind that food in Japan is NOT cheap at all. bah...

i managed to contact Ami and we did met. she stole some time from work to come to my place in the evening. Japanese are real crazy hardworking homo sapiens. in another word, they're WORKAHOLIC. according to her, she works from 9:30am till 10pm and sometimes till midnight. WTF!! and you know, they don't have specific time for lunch unlike Malaysians, lunch time is probably 12noon-1pm or 1pm-2pm. for them, they'll eat when they're free. *faint* since she's so busy with her work, she only managed to drop by for 30 minutes and then back to her office again. i walked her to her office though it's raining outside. i lied to her that i wanted to get something from 7-11 instead. *wink* when i came back, my jeans, shoes and socks were soaking wet BUT it's all worth. =)

off to Fukuoka again, STD 0050 tomorrow morning. can't wait to meet Ami again. sent her an email but sad to say, there's no reply from her. guess she must be extremely busy. am going to call her when i'm there, hopefully she did not change her number. otherwise, what's the point for me to be there??

just sent my leave application to the office. applied for a week leave next month. don't really know why i applied it and not sure if they'll approve my application. if they approve it, probably i'll go for a holiday with parents. Mum said we could either go to Hong Kong or Taiwan. my bro, Kenneth has to eat Maggi and bread because he just got a new phone, Sony Ericsson W810i. while i have to eat Maggi and bread for spending too much money traveling.

Sam and i went to Mid Valley yesterday and we indulged ourselves with one of the most sinful treats ever; ice cream. first, we had the McDonald's sundae cone and continued walking around when suddenly we saw this banner saying that there's a newly open Haagen-Dazs. so is it newly open or what? we don't know coz it's been ages since the last time we went to Mid Valley. then and there, we know that we must have it and so we went for it, ice cream time again. Sam had the ... can't remember what and i had the waffle set. however, i was very disappointed with the Belgian waffle. *sucks* the best Belgian waffle i had was from the Haagen-Dazs in London. sweet and super yummy. *saliva drooling* ah..miss the waffle so much.

so birthday was on the 19th and it was supposed to be my off day too. but office called me on the 18th and told me to work on 18th evening till 19th. what a bummer i must say. so i thought i'll be going back home on the 19th morning or perhaps noon, at least i still have the time to celebrate my birthday, BUT NO, my working hour was till late. sigh..

on the way back to my place in Bukit Jalil, a friend called (around 11:25pm)and chatted with me till i reached home. he was asking me if i've cut a cake on my birthday this year and i said no. he said that he'll get a cake for me and told me to wait for him. he was asking me bout cakes and stuff, what kind of cakes i like and bla bla bla. when i reached my place, i told him that i gotta hang up coz i need to take stuff, couldn't talk on the phone. when i reached my place, it was dark and everything looked normal. proceeded to our room (Rosh and i share the same room), but it's lock. knocked on the door and Rosh came to unlock the door, but she did not open it for me. when i opened the door i noticed...aiks, there were candles everywhere and OMG....a cake in the middle of the room. and before i knew it, everyone was right behind me. SURPRISE!!! yay...it was a surprise for my birthday. so happy...i've never had a surprised birthday celebration before. Thanks guys. indeed, it will be one of the most memorable birthdays in my life. Thanks Rosh for the surprise you've plan. Thanks QX for the call and the yummy cake (tiramisu from alexis. *yum yum*). Thanks to others for being there; hc, jie, Andres, Eric and blur blur.

birthday is here again and this time we celebrated earlier. since my birthday is on the 19th which is on Monday, frens and i decided to celebrate it on the 17th which was Saturday. just thinking of where to go gave me a terrible headache. some like the place some dislike. so, from Maison to Loft to Zouk to Flam to Velvet, in the end we ended up at Poppy Garden. it was like the best night ever. first time ever in my life there were so many people celebrating my birthday with me. very happy i must say. and i can never deny that i'm getting old. last time i can party like crazy, lotsa stamina and energy to party all night. but yesterday, i was exhausted and was tired after a few dance. what a bummer...

i'm very happy with my birthday celebration this year. 2006's birthday is like the best one ever. received lotsa gifts from humanz. Thanks people. i've never received so many wonderful gifts in my entire life before. this year is the first time ever. i still remember how misery my previous birthdays' presents were, especially during my childhood and high school period. THEY'RE ALL VERY PATHETIC!! "hate you people who treated me like a junk. just because you people treated me like a junk doesn't mean that you people should give me junks."

anyhow thanks again everyone for the pressie. thanks SueZen for the top (it's very nice and most importantly it's BLACK), thanks Nikki for the beautiful handmade earrings, thanks hc for the new phone casing (finally you got one for me, hehe), thanks Andres and jie for the notty notty stuff (>.<), and last but not least, thanks Rosh, Sam and my bro, Kenneth for the Momoe bag (thought of buying it months ago, almost bought it and luckily did not get it in the end). and to others, thanks for the enjoyable moment and thanks for all the wonderful wishes. luv you guys so much...

falling in love is like a dream for every gal in the world. to be in love is like a fantasy to everyone of us. but that is if the love turns out to be a beautiful one. when it turns ugly, one get hurts and some might get over it and find another new love again, while some will keep love a distance, afraid to be hurt and to be disappointed again. sometimes i wish to be in love again. the feeling of being loved and pampered, being taken care of, being the special one; it's simply wonderful. but it seems a lil hard for me to be in a relationship now. not that i've got hurt real badly in my previous relationship, i guess i'm just not ready and am still waiting for mr.right to appear at the right time. or perhaps i'm just not bless with one now. i guess i'll just stay idle until someone perfect has eyes on me.

went to Maison last Saturday with Tracy and her colleagues. the ambience is cool and the crowd is nice but the songs kinda sucks. kinda like the idea of the couch/bed. once you're tired or drunk, you can just sleep there. haha... one of the gals was drunk, super drunk. a drunk fella will either be super quiet or super noisy. unfortunately, she's the noisy type, very noisy. i'm the quiet type when i'm drunk. what i'll probably be saying is, "don't touch me". that was what i used to say when i was drunk in UK. hehe...

the other day when i came back to my Klang's house and entered my room, i noticed there's something different. my Mum gave my room a makeover. she removed all the stuff i sticked on the wall (my wallpaper la) and painted the whole room. well i guess it's time to repaint the room becoz the last time we painted it was...i dunno maybe 4 years ago? anyhow, for those of you who have seen my wallpaper, you might be wondering "what happened to it?" (well i was asking myself that too when i entered the room and saw nothing on the wall). well fret not. Mum did not throw the stuff away (phew...thank God). she removed everything from the wall and changed from this...


(luckily i took a picture of my wallpaper 2 years ago)

to this...


(well of course she threw away most of the posters becoz they were too old)

yup, my Mum did this. how amazing.. i mean whose Mum will do this man? whose Mum will be so free la? i find this so cool.. my Mum is the coolest Mum ever. ROCK ON MUMMY..

2 weeks ago, Sam told me that a friend of ours went to Hong Kong. the first thing that came to my mind when she told me that was "wife biscuits", also known as "sweet heart cake". that's because when i was in Hong Kong, i never got the chance to eat it and i've been thinking about it whenever someone talks about Hong Kong. the last time i had "wife biscuits" was ages ago, i think 4 years ago. i told Sam to text that friend to get us some "wife biscuits" when he's back and i never thought that he really bought it. but the funny thing was, he only gave the cake to us 1 week after he's back. -_-! and when i looked at the best before date, it's written best before 16th May 2006. he gave us the cake on the 15th. damn zhar dou.. but it's better than nothing. so thanks Doug for the cake. it's yummy...

Dearest Sam,

::~*HaPpY bIrThDaY tO yOu!!*~::

May your birthday be as wonderful as you are and hope you'll have a great year ahead!!

weeks ago, a friend and i were dining in The Manhattan Fish Market in Sunway Pyramid when i came across this picture frame on the wall.


a good one. so good that i know i couldn't leave that place without taking a pic of it. ya, lame i know.

Dubai, United Arab Emirates

i went to Dubai on the 14th April 2006 for work for 5 days. we were given 2 days off there, so it wasn't that bad afterall. the hotel my company arranged for (Al Bustan Residence Hotel & Apartment) is great; all rooms are fully equip with cooking facilities, but i don't cook. was supposed to go for the desert tour on one of the off days, but because of ONE human, the whole plan was canceled. everyone was so frustrated. so there's nothing much we can do there during our off days, besides eating, shopping and... sight-seeing?? there's nothing much to see also la. but it's a BIG waste for not going to the desert tour. arghh... talking bout eating, you MUST go to the Generous Visitors Restaurant (situated along Naif Road) if you're visiting Dubai because they serve superb biryani and everything is nice there...*saliva drooling*. let the pics do the talking...


Taxis..Toyota Camry wei..here mostly Proton Iswara..*boo..


Generous Visitors Restaurant.


Buildings.


Buildings..


Buildings...


A big and nice house.


...


Dubai Police Headquarters...so nice right?


Fly Emirates..


Al Bustan Centre; that's where the hotel is. There's a mall and a food court downstairs.


Alien Global (cost DHS18000 \(O_O)/).


Alien again..


And again..


AND again..


City Centre Shopping Mall.


Sheesha/Hookah.


Lots of them.


Fried Chicken Biryani..very very yummy (although it doesn't look so appealing)


Poori baji..sedap gila (crazily delicious??).

months ago, i mentioned about getting a tattoo done before my birthday this year. i wanted to have one on my ankle, but my work doesn't permit me to do so. therefore, i decided to have one done on my lower back. you see, i have this SUPER sensitive back, it gets really ticklish. imagine, whenever i get a haircut i'll be jumping like crazy. so what do you think tattooing on my lower back will do to me then? so worry that i'll never get one done. BUT NOW, worry no more coz I DID IT!!!

yes, i've finally got a tattoo after years of contemplating, and 1 1/2 hours of contemplating again when i was in the studio before i made up my mind to go for it. had it done at Borneo Ink Tattoos in Desa Sri Hartamas. yup, indeed i jumped/shaked/moved a lot at the beginning (i think Simon was a lil irritated), but towards the end, i think i was doing quite well.

a Million thanks to Sam for accompanying me there and to Simon for the great job. Thankx guys!!


Trish & Simon


My Tattoo...Whee...

you know i really hate it when someone whom i trusted betrayed the trust and acted as if there's nothing happening, as if he's not doing anything wrong, as if i'm the one with the problem. F**K IT MAN!! you know, after this particular incident, i begin to like him less and hate him more (when i actually doesn't fancy him much already). he really disappoint me and i am pissed. he thought i'm so dumb that i don't know what he has done, but too bad...i found out, i know what you did!!

so who is he? no name to be revealed.
what he did? don't know where to start, and you don't wanna know.
how do i know bout the recent thing which he has done that triggered my anger? from a close friend of mine.
can i trust the source? absolutely, coz he told her bout the thing.
what thing? you don't wanna know.
and why am i complaining it over here? cannot ar, i like ar!! coz it's my blog and i'm pissed and this is where i can bitch about anything, anyway i like.

alright, it might be a small thing and some of you might be wondering, hey what is there to be mad about? but ever heard that gals can be very unreasonable at times? well yeah, that's me now. i might sound ridiculous but hey, i'm a GAL for God sake. besides, TRUST is one big big thing to me okay..
phew...feeling a lil better now.

feel so dead. life is getting more boring day after day. i feel so dead. there's nothing much happening in my life, only work and work and work, and meeting up with friends once a while. i am very lucky this week. i'm off for 3 days and got to meet up with Tracy for 4 nights straight after soooo long. yeah it's been a while.

one thing i don't understand. is there a law or something which stated that thin/petite gals couldn't go to the gym for workout?? Rosh is a member of Celebrity Fitness and she brought me in by using the 14 days free workout pass or whateva it's called. so when i told a friend that i went to the gym, that friend was SHOCKED!! "WHAT?!! YOU ACTUALLY GO TO THE GYM?!!" duh, what's so wrong with that. then i told another friend bout it and i got the same thing back plus "you know you don't have to go to the gym. you're like so thin and you still wanna go to the gym!! i don't see what's the point for you to be there." aiyo, why la thin people cannot go to the gym one meh? thin doesn't mean i look good leh. i have flabby arms one ok. i have tummy and i have flabby thighs. even if i don't have those, thin people still can tone up the abdomen part one ma, right? *shakehead* and this stupid guy from the gym keeps persuading (more like forcing) me to join the gym to be a full time member. omg, just hate it man.

it was Rosh's birthday on the 22nd March and so we headed downtown to party. party on Wednesday night, well it was her idea. guess she can't wait to flash her id proudly to the bouncer (if they are to ask for it) as she turned 21 that day (ok it's not as if she hasn't been to a club before). 21, the perfect age that legalizes most of the things we do. ^^ congrats Rosh, you've just reached the perfect age!! we ended up in Thai Club because that's like the only place with people around besides Beach Club, and Sam has a friend working there. i arranged a surprise for her, i called my so-called bro, Kenneth to come over without her knowing that he'll be coming (Rosh and Kenneth knows each other and they are quite close). yay, she was surprised indeed and very very happy. i'm happy that she's happy. we then fed her with a Flaming Lamborghini. everything went on quite well and it's all good.

~*~Rosh, Happy Belated Birthday to YOU!! love you babe...~*~

i hate it when you go missing in action and suddenly pop out with some nice messages
i hate it when you sound so sweet and caring which i don't know if you're for real
i hate it when you still make me feel so special even after so long we've been apart
i hate it when you make me feel like i'm still special and important in your heart.
BUT do you know what i hate the most? -----> MYSELF...

whee..i burned my left thumb by accidently touching the iron's metal plate. wahahaha... how dumb. but it's PAINFUL.. :(

life's so bored...

NEW DIGI CAM - SONY DSC-T9

(pics taken by using my old cam - Canon Digital IXUS V3)

isn't it fun to start your day with horrible shits that happened one after another? first, my transport came 15 minutes earlier (you must be thinking, earlier is better than late), and by the time i reached the airport, i was like 1 blardy hour earlier (and what can i do in the airport la). then, i received a notice stating that my claim for the transport was rejected due to some missing details (f**k the details) and last but not least, i don't know which stupid monkey mistakenly took my bag and i went around looking for it for 20 minutes before i finally found my bag. THANK GOD!! earlier i thought i was going to look like a lost soul wandering around the building because i was 1 hour earlier, but i ended up looking like a crazy gal, looking for my bag. then off i went to Colombo. when we reached Colombo, one of my colleagues' check-in bag went missing. we were told that his bag was sent to Amsterdam instead of Colombo. poor guy, he doesn't have any piece of clothing with him except the one he's wearing. then, all of us got screwed up-down-left-right by our supervisor, just because of ONE same mistake done by two of my colleagues. it is indeed a lesson to learn by all of us and there you have it, my hell day to Colombo.

so it was Nikki's birthday on the 28th Feb, the day i came back from Colombo. i was invited for dinner at her place and ... *sigh* long story. conclusion was, i think she wasn't very happy. she was mad, sad and disappointed at me. i think she is STILL mad and disappointed at me. first i turned up late, second i turned up empty handed (ok that i must admit it's my fault, i could have got her a pressie earlier before i left for Colombo but i did not *self slapping*) and third, i was there for only 1 hour. i'm like the worst friend/chi mui she has ever had. seriously, i feel so bad. then jie didn't even turn up, he called and told us that he'll be late because he'll be having dinner with his colleagues first (f**ker, he even dare to call me earlier to scold me for turning up late when he himself is going to turn up later than i do). but it was so late that Nikki has to call jie not to come on that night, instead they'll meet some other day. the whole thing was like out of the frying pan into the fire. if it's on normal days, she'll be alright, BUT on her BIRTHDAY, even i'll get mad and disappointed if it happens to me.

~Nikki, i know this will never make any difference, but i'm terribly SORRY for whateva that i've done. Sorry and Happy Belated Birthday to you!!~

Karen just came back from Dhaka and she was complaining about how dirty everything is in Dhaka; the food, the water, the air, everything. and best of all, she was there for 10 torturing days (there's an exhibition going on in Dhaka, some machinery show). and as for me, i'll be going to Colombo end of the month. but lucky for me, i'll only be there for 4 suffering days. i'm not trying to sound crazy but i'll be bringing 2 big bottles of water on that day. dare not drink their water, it's DIRTY. you should know how dirty their water is. well Karen brought her own water to Dhaka too, and she bought some bottled water from there. and guess what, she suffered from diarrhoea. ouch.. i don't wanna spend my day in the toilet, doing "business" too. therefore, i'm so gonna bring my own water. *sigh.. my bag is going to be darn heavy.

got the link to this video from this blog. take a look, it's funny. it's about why Asian gals date white guys.

i came across this post few weeks ago about the lemon cheesecake flavour Kit Kat. went to Giant and got it like 2 weeks ago and i just tasted it just now (yes i know, you must be wondering why i got it like 2 weeks ago and just ate it today, but don't ask me). tasted quite ok, but i don't really like it though. prefer the white Kit Kat instead. the packaging, yup it looks too plain. somehow it looks more like a "cetak rompak" (couldn't think of the right English word for it) kinda thing. i mean, just see it for yourself.

Mum booked the tickets to London this morning, since it's MAS fair or whateva fair it is. Mum and 2 of my sisters are going to London next month, WITHOUT ME!! :[ they can go anywhere without me BUT NOT LONDON. and they'll be there for 2 WEEKS!! so unfair! they'll be going to London and then to New Castle to visit my bro. i wanna go too...but stupid la, how can i go when i have no leave to take, my company hasn't give us any leave yet. arghh...i couldn't believe this is happening.

so CNY is over and what's the highest amount of money you have got from an ang pau? RM100, RM200 or probably RM500? every year, my sister's company will be having a CNY dinner and that's when she'll get her big ang pau from her boss. last year, she received a super thick ang pau from her boss and since it's considered rude to open your ang pau in front of people, she waited till she's at home before opening the red packet. to her surprise, there were 8 pieces of RM100 notes in that ang pau. damn, an ang pau worth of RM800!! that's like something i'll never get in my entire life. so what about this year's ang pau? well as usual, they had the dinner and she received an ang pau from her boss just like any other year. but this year's ang pau was a lil too thin compared to last year's. so she thought maybe there's only a RM50 note or RM100 note in there. and again, she waited till she's at home before opening the ang pau. guess what is in the red packet? a cheque worth of RM1700!! *eyes wide opened and jaw dropped!! WHAT THE HELL MAN, AN ANG PAU WORTH OF RM1700!! that's like one super huge amount. that's so crazy and i'm so jealous.

last Friday, something huge happened to me at work. it's so traumatizing that it will haunt me till the day i die. it all happened just because of this stupid bitch. i'm not trying to lay the blame on her, but if it's not because of her, the whole thing will never happen.

Peeping

click here and run your mouse over the people standing at the bus stop.

me just came back from New Delhi yesterday. was there with my colleagues and we were there for only 2 days. the journey to New Delhi was a hell. i actually decided not to go out, but i finally went to this place called Janpath Market which takes approximately 10-15 minutes walk from the hotel we were staying in. honestly, i was quite scared to go out alone, but somehow i managed to gather some guts and proceeded. bumped into my colleagues in Janpath Market and some of them thought that i'm nuts for going out alone. i know, i couldn't believe it myself either. if you are to ask me how's New Delhi, i would say no good. no offence but i don't wish to go back there again in the future. it's so dusty and musty and it's freaking dirty. and the people there, they're not so friendly. oh and you can easily catch people peeing by the roadside, a very common sight and of course, i don't wanna see. when i came back from Janpath Market, i wiped my face with a facial tissue and it's DIRTY. i cleaned my nose and it's BLACK. eww.. well fortunately, i have a bunch of nice people to spend my day with.

it was supposed to be a fun night, but it ended up with disappointment. jie called me yesterday afternoon and said that we're going to meet up tonight, probably around 11:30pm. when i was having my dinner, another friend of mine called and asked me to go to Genting with them. but i rejected them because i told them that i'm going out with jie, for he's the one who asked me out first. around 10:30pm, jie called and told me to get ready. took a quick shower, spent some hard time looking for something new to wear (CNY ma, must wear new clothes and i didn't buy any for this year, so must find something new or quite new to wear), got myself ready and started waiting for jie. time's ticking away, 11:15pm to 11:30pm. 11:45pm, 12:00am. 12:30am and he's still not here yet. gave him a buzz and guess what, he said a lil while. at around 12:50am, i text him and he's still in Subang. WTH!! he kept me waiting for almost 2 hours. told him to cancel the plan and here i am, blogging with disappointment and anger. frankly speaking, i'm disappointed and a lil mad. should have followed the others to Genting. sigh.. alright, going to bed now. Happy Chinese New Year!! it's Dog's Year, my year!! woof woof..

How To Avoid The FLU

Eat right!

Make sure you get your daily dose of fruits and veggies.

Take your vitamins and bump up your Vitamin C.

Get plenty of exercise because exercise helps build your immune system.

Walk for at least an hour a day, go for a swim, take the stairs instead of the elevator, etc.

Wash your hands often. If you can't wash them, keep a bottle of antibacterial stuff around.

Get lots of fresh air. Open doors and windows whenever possible.

Try to eliminate as much stress from your life as you can.

Get plenty of rest.

OR

Take the doctor's approach. Think about it...
When you go for a shot, what do they do first?
They clean your arm with alcohol...
Why?
Because alcohol KILLS GERMS.
So.....

I walk to the liquor store. (exercise)
I put lime in my Corona...(fruit)
Celery in my Bloody Mary (veggies)
Drink outdoors on the bar patio..(fresh air)
Tell jokes, laugh....(eliminate stress)
Then pass out. (rest)
The way I see it...

If you keep your alcohol levels up, flu germs can't get you!

p/s: hc, i think you should follow these GREAT ways on how to avoid flu. DRINK MORE!! forget about the rashes, they will go away eventually. practice makes perfect. haha...

just so you know, i'm not going back to Penang and Kedah for CNY this year. my family is going back but not me coz i have to work on the 3rd day of CNY. how sad. alright, i did mention that i'm not looking forward to this. but honestly, i'm so gonna miss the food. *saliva drooling* it's ok, i already told Mum to bring back some nice food for me. :D

i had the most terrifying dream ever on Sunday morning. the one dream that i fear the most, the one dream which we do not wish it would happen, but we know eventually it will. it was a real tragic, so tragic that i woke up feeling so down, so sad, so solemn. my day was as gloomy as night. the dream was about my beloved baby, Hailie. couldn't really remember what happened, all i can remember was i rushed back home, and someone told me that Hailie is gone, forever. she was sick, so sick that she couldn't make it, they have to let her go. i was shocked, i felt as if everything just came crashing down on me. and the saddest part was when i never got the chance to see her for the very last time. so sad..

all of us love our baby, Hailie. she's so cute, so adorable and she's always there to cheer us up. if one day she is to leave us forever, i believe it will be extremely hard for us to accept it. no any other dogs could ever replace her, for she is our one and only baby, Hailie.

yes i'm talking about my dog. i'm not being crazy or ridiculous, ok. animals deserve to be loved, so does Hailie. she's part of the family. if you wanna laugh at me, go on.

whee...i'm off on the 1st and 2nd day of Chinese New Year!! so happy!! i thought we're not going to Penang and Kedah this year (we "balik kampung" every year during CNY), but i was wrong. Mum told me today that Dad wanted to go back. *suckz..* i never ever look forward to this. those relatives of mine (especially Dad's side, stupid aunts, uncles and cousins and EVERYONE) are mean mean humans. don't like them at all, ok ok i know no matter what, they still are my relatives but who cares, i hate them.

nothing much to say except that i was so so sick 3 days ago. it was HELL!! i had food poisoning. diarrhoea and vomiting..eww.. i vomited for freaking 3 times and the last time i vomited, it's as if i was going to throw up all my intestines, lungs and all the internal organs. i went to see the doctor of course, but unfortunately i left my medical book in my Bukit Jalil's place and therefore, i couldn't consult the panel doctor and no medical cert for me. :( i ended up going to work the following day, looking like a sick zombie. but no worries, i'm all good now.