recently, i've done something that's terribly wrong. so wrong that i don't know why am i still doing it. it's something that i used to advise a friend not to fall for it, not to step into it, not to do it. but now, i myself am falling for it, stepping into it, doing it. that friend is going to think that i'm evil, she might think that i'm doing everything for my own good. she's so gonna kill me and hates me. how can she likes a friend who plays fast and loose? but it's always easier to advise people and it's always harder for ourselves to follow it. don't you agree?

i don't know if i should hate myself for what i've done, but i must say that i'm not proud either. i realize that my action might hurt someone else's heart, but at times it doesn't really bothers me. yes i know, i'm mean. all these while, i always thought that my willpower is strong enough. until yesterday, i found out that i'm wrong. i've lost my willpower, my self-control. i've gone further, i've crossed the line; the line that i always tell myself not to cross, as a single step over the line may ruin not only other people's life, but also mine. i'm jeopardizing my own life, how terrible can it sound?! i do know that my action might cause people to hate me, talking behind my back, labeling me with names..i should have known; those are the few consequences that i must be ready to take. but will i be strong enough to take them all?? do i regret for the things i've done? do i feel stupid for my action? wouldn't i feel shy when meeting them, the people who have seen and heard about me? gosh...i really don't know. but to be honest, deep down inside, i do feel a lil happy bout it. omg...what the HELL am i thinking!!!

Trey said that i'm old enough to take care of myself. i'm old enough to make my own judgement. i'm old enough to know what i want and what i'm doing. but i think i disappoint her, i just proved to her that she's wrong. regret or not, guess it doesn't matter now, for everything has happened...already.

the other day i noticed that my place in Bukit Jalil is infested with hundreds and thousands of six-legged crawling insects; ANTS!! i F**CKING hate ants!! God knows where does this creature come from. it's like all of a sudden, everywhere i look i'll see them. they're really driving me crazy and soon i'll go insane. they're like...EVERYWHERE! first, i spotted some on the table in my room. as i was looking for more of them (i believe there'll be more), i saw an army of them happily feeding on a granola bar that Rosh brought. i wanted to kill them all but i do not have Shieldtox. so guess what i did. i took the whole bar and threw it out the window. whee...there goes all the ants, flying like a superman, i mean superants. haha... sorry la, i'm left with no choice but to throw them out the window. i started looking for the trail of the ants, see where they came from. but i still don't know where they're from. arghh...driving me crazy. they're like everywhere, even in my bag which i left on the floor where there's nothing sweet in the bag at all. i even spotted a couple of them on the bed. MY BED!! darn, i tell you they're so gonna die. no wonder lately i spotted some tiny red dots on my body and they itch. i bet it's those ants that bit me. i'm so gonna kill all of them. but how? burn all of them to hell?? i can't burn the house down. i wish that there's this poisonous smoke grenade that is harmless to us, the human and is so toxic to the ants. all i need to do is to throw one in the house - fire in the hole and close all the doors and windows and send all the ants straight to hell. but is there such thing?? i'm thinking too much again. gotta get an aerosol spray quick.

Kit Kat from Japan

From top to bottom: Fruit Parfait Kit Kat, Almond Kit Kat, The Universal Studios Japan 5 Years Anniversary Kit Kat (i guess it's just plain milk and white chocolate Kit Kat).





Fruit Parfait Kit Kat (yummy...)


Almond Kit Kat (tasted like cough medicine. no good..)


The Universal Studios Japan 5 Years Anniversary Kit Kat.

p/s: sorry for the crappy pictures. no skills la..