finally there's a progress. finally i'm making use of the jobstreet's services. finally i applied for a job yesterday as an Event Executive in KL. not sure if i'll get it, but at least there's something. finally...

i just took my bath and came out from the bathroom when my mobile suddenly rang.

me: hello...
that someone: hello, Mani??
me: ermm...sorry, i think you got the wrong number
that someone: wrong number??? are you sure?
me: ermm..yes... *pause for a while* oh sorry, who are you looking for again?
that someone: YOU!!
me: huh?? do you....*screams....* ahhh it's you..oh fucker...

ahhhhh.....it's my friend...haha...surprised surprised. i was about to say, "do you got the right number" when i suddenly think again, hey that voice is so familiar. my friend from Canada called. this friend of mine lives in Alberta. gosh...it was a real surprise. at first i thought i heard "Mani" when she actually said, "mandi". i don't know why, but i get a lot of calls looking for an Indian when the number they called actually belongs to a Chinese, and that's ME. duh... therefore, when i heard "Mani", i thought it's a wrong number again. she was saying, "mandi" because before i took my bath, i was online and was talking to her. then i left a message and told her that i'm going to take my bath. it's so stupid and humiliating yet funny. we talked for exactly 2 hours 1 minute. fuh...that's gonna cost her a lot. but she said no worries, it's quite cheap, maybe it's gonna cost her around 6 bucks. i believe we can talk longer, it's just that my phone was running out of battery. in fact, it's totally out of battery and we got disconnected. haha...
"anyhow Lee San, i appreciate your call. very very surprised and shocked and happy. take care and i'll see you real soon."

Lee San is coming back to Malaysia on 23th December 2004 for 3 weeks. a lot of things to do then; lepaking, mamaking, clubbing, and travelling if possible. wohoo...quickly bring your frozen ass back and defrost it here in Malaysia. hahaha...

i had a long chat with Him today. i think our conversation was quite weird. seems like He's trying to find out if i'm still into Him or not. i'm sure He knew the answer, but guess He wanted me to tell Him myself. feel as if there's something really wrong. yes i know, i'm making my own assumption here. and i know that assumption is the mother of all fucked ups. assumptions are created by false perceptions leading to wrong conclusions. before He left, He said that He misses me. but i say nothing to Him.

Nikki is working already. she found a job and started yesterday. everyone is working now, earning money except for me. such a loser. it's been a month since we came back and Nikki's working already when she actually said she wanted to rest for 2 months. and as for me, i told myself to start looking for a job on the 1st October, but look at me now. gosh...suddenly i feel so useless when i'm actually very useless already.

the Korean drama, Stairway To Heaven isn't that bad afterall. however i haven't cry nor drop a tear yet like what 'jie' said i will. he told me that the drama is so sad that his Mum and sisters cried. and even a box of tissue isn't enough for them. i don't know is he exaggerating or what. i've never cried while watching movies/drama series. never ever..no matter how sad it is, i will never cry. not to say that i'm cold-hearted, but i just can't. of course at times i can feel that my eyes were wet, but the tears will never drop. last week 'jie' asked me is the main actor good-looking? honestly i don't find him good-looking, but that was last week. now i realized that i'm so into him. he's so good-looking. hahaha.. the more i see him, the more i like him. gorgeous..


Kwon Sang Woo, the main actor in Stairway To Heaven.


Kwon Sang Woo again.





Choi Ji-Woo and Kwon Sang Woo..love this picture

Lee San went for a trip again. man that bitch is such a lucky devil. i was talking to her last week or two weeks ago about this place called Icefield. saw that from tv, find it very interesting and nice. told her that she should go there one day. guess what. she just went there last week with her friends. cool.. of course i'm not that powerful to influence her or to talk her into this; going to Icefield. it's just a sudden plan, if i'm not mistaken. well i would love to go there one day, i will...but not sure when. how can i go when i'm not earning any income..gee this is bad.

guess what, i started to watch this Korean drama series called Stairway To Heaven. i never watch any Korean drama series at all, like Winter Sonata or Piano or what-so-ever. but now, i'm watching a Korean drama series. i couldn't believe it myself, not even my sisters. well 'jie' did told me about that drama before, he loves it and he got all the vcds for that drama. he even told me that he has watched it for 7 times. 7 TIMES!! that's crazy. as for me, i watch it from tv, it's showing on 8tv and just started 2 days ago. what i dislike about the drama is that they translated everything into Mandarin. so disappointed. i decided to ask 'jie' to burn the vcds for me because i believe it's nicer to watch the original version in Korean and not Mandarin.

for the past 2 months, i've been cracking my head, thinking of the proper words and phrases to fit into my article. i wanted to write an article about fat people; why people look down on them, why are they being treated so badly and unfairly, why some people love to talk bad about them, tease them and make fun of them, showing no respect to them, being mean...it's sort of like discrimination against fat people. but unfortunately, i couldn't write even a proper paragraph. i really wanted to write this but i can't. why do i want to write this? that's because i've seen and heard people including my own friends, teasing and laughing at fat people. as for me, i don't think that is a good or proper thing to do. afterall, we're all humans with feelings. but too bad, i'm not articulate with vocabs. so i'll just dropped the pen and forget about it then.

wow, it's been a while since i update. duh..as if people actually read my blog. haha..well it's not surprising though, that no one reads my blog, coz i tell no one about this, not even my best friends. besides, my blog sucks. it's full with crap, shitty, boring, stupid and lame stories, and seriously there's nothing interesting at all. i kinda created this for myself to read and write, a place for me to bitch, sulk and complain about everything.

so what have i been doing lately? you can guess it for sure, yes..nothing. nothing meaningful at all. staying at home doing nothing as usual, jobless, lonesome and pathetic. have not started looking for a job yet, although i did said that i'll do it on the 1st Oct. it's now 9th Oct and i'm still lazing at home. i'm leading a very unhealthy lifestyle. look at me, still awake at this hour. i'll only be sleeping at the wee hours of the morning and by the time i wake up, the sun is already shining on my ass. ouch.. so how can i work, i wonder? that's what lazy people like me will think about. gosh.. but not to worry, at least i did some homework. i registered in jobstreet.com and posted my resume. that's it. not something to be proud of though, but for such a lazy person like me, it's considered alright, i mean at least i did something, right? ah well i'm off to bed now.

what a weird and funny dream i had today. i dreamt that i'm pregnant. YES, I'M PREGNANT. it's quite big, maybe 4 or 5 months. how can that be? who's the father? i seriously have no idea. i knew that i have a husband in that dream but i don't know who he is. i couldn't see his face, how he looks like but i knew i have a husband. though it's just a dream, it actually feels quite real. i can feel that i'm carrying another life in me. it feels so nice. gosh..what the hell is wrong with me? is this dream trying to tell me that i'm desperate to be a mother, or that i'm going to be a mother soon? talking about desperation, i don't think i'm desperate to be a mother at this age. of course i do want to be a mother one day, but not at this age definitely not at this age. too young to be one.

went to Bangsar last Saturday, 2 Oct. it's my best friend's birthday on the 3 Oct so we went to Bangsar to celebrate with her. had dinner in Telawi Street Bistro. it's a nice place, they serve nice food but the prices are quite costly. we had 1 starter and 5 main courses that cost us RM228 in total. well that's the price to expect if you are dining in places like this. we then went to the Pharmacy in Telawi 2. we opened a bottle of Chivas and we got a bottle of Absolut Vodka for free. that's because there were 8 of us, all gals. they said that if there are 8 gals, they'll give a bottle of Absolut Vodka for free, but only on Wednesday and Saturday. well that's a good one. we finished all the vodka and 1/3 of the Chivas. it's considered a pub not a club so basically it's quite small. not a very nice place though. but it was my first time hanging out with my best friend's friends. we were studying in the same secondary school but we are not close and we rarely talk to each other. i actually decided not to go. but i've been thinking, since i've known Tracy for so long, i'd never celebrated her birthday with her before. so finally i chose to go and it was quite ok though i felt quite awkward at times. anyhow Happy Belated Birthday to you, Tracy.

i'm so blank and empty, my life is totally dead. i've been doing nothing except staying at home, sleeping, eating, watching tv, going online. sometimes out on weekends, then i'll be spending money. nothing else. i'm not earning anything but i'm spending everything. parents are making noises already, wanting me to look for a job fast. recently i've been looking through the newspapers and JobStreet, trying to look for a job. but seriously speaking, i really don't know what i'm into, what can i choose to work, what is suitable for me, what is what, what is this, what is that..there are just too many WHATs. i don't know what can i be or what i'm good at besides being lazy. gosh..this is so horrible. studying life is still the best. how i wish i'm rich. then i can continue studying again. if i have the money, this time i'm going to choose something i'm really into. like what? i don't know. cooking and baking might be good for me, or maybe mass communication. maybe business or teacher, Maths teacher. or i should try pharmacist. argh..see, i don't even know what i want. how can this be?!