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it's Christmas Eve today and sad to say, i'm not going out. spending my time with no one, all alone. it is indeed a lonely Christmas for me. sigh...

yesterday was a terribly exhausting day. i went for the interview and it's the longest interview i've ever had. there were so many people and most of them looked so qualified for that job. i was like a tiny ant around them. there were times when i wanted to leave that place and just go home. but since i was already there and i've waited for so long, it's going to be a waste if i didn't stick around and give it a try. surprisingly i managed to pass through all the phases, and most of the candidates whom i thought were qualified weren't selected. so it's actually worth waiting for so freaking long. however, i do not know will i be getting that job or not yet. there's another test for all the selected candidates and later we still need to wait for the result. somehow i have this feeling telling me that i'll fail the test.

i'm not going to stay up late today. i'm going to sleep after this. need to get up early in the morning because there's a job interview. it's for job B. but i don't think i can sleep soundly later. coz i knew i'll be thinking about the interview all night. that's just me, i think too much, way too much. i hate this thing about me. sucks.. i tend to think too much, either it's a small matter or big. i will think and think and think and think and think....ah anyhow i hope everything will be fine. i hope that i can answer them well. no nervous breakdown please. ah God bless me please and wish me luck..

life is so sickening. i've decided to apply for both of the jobs few days ago. i sent my application for job A and there is an interview for job B this Saturday. should i go or should i not go? i wanted to give it a try because the chances for me to get job A is kinda low. couldn't made up my mind and it's messing in my head, disturing me all the time. i toss upon my sleepless bed almost every night. once i'm asleep, i'll start dreaming about it. i'm so sick with this. my head is going to explode soon. give me a break, will ya..

life has been pretty fucked up lately. i'm stuck with these 2 choices; should i apply for job A or job B? both are good, but i can only choose one. however, someone told me to try both. i've been told that trying means i just got the chance but doesn't mean that i'll be in. that's so true. so now i'm telling myself to try both but somehow, something inside me keeps telling me to choose only one. headache...headache..

guess what? i shaped my own eyebrows just now. turned out to be so shitty. look so weird and imbalance. thanks to my own itchy hand. i'm going to look like an alien with funny eyebrows. so stupid of me.

these are the list of things that i wanted to do/get:
1. a pair of black pants
2. few working tops
3. colour my hair to black
4. trim my hair, if possible might straighten or perm
5. contact lens (using the last pair that can last me for 2 more weeks)
6. new shoes, a pair or two
7. shape my eyebrows, they are so bushy and untidy
8. a watch
9. invest in some makeup and facial products

i think that's enough, not going to "10". guess how much do i need for all that? 1K? maybe more. sign... i'm jobless and there's an extremely big hole in my pocket. yet i still need money to do and buy all the things listed. maybe not all but most of it.

Mum went to Penang with sis and bro just now. they left around 11am, right after i woke up. i was having trouble sleeping and that's why i woke up so "early". Mum wanted to go to Penang for some prayers reason, as well as visiting her sis (my aunt) and some other relatives. now there are only me, my younger sis, Dad and our lovely Hailie at home. all the house chores are directed to me of course. hate it. well i can avoid all those house chores, that is IF i'm going to Penang with them. but i chose not to go. not in the mood.

we (Nikki, jie and i) went to Malacca yesterday, finally...after 3 weeks of planning and cancelling the trip. however, we did nothing much there. we went to Malacca just to send jie's cousin home. had lots of food there, 'Chicken Rice Ball' for lunch and for dinner we had the 'Satay Celup'. it was good. we then went to the famous Jonker Walk and had 'Cendol'. my friend told me that the cendol there is so damn good. the best cendol ever. but i was quite disappointed when i tried it. it wasn't as good as what she had said. tasted the same as the normal, common cendol. well the 'gula melaka' was great, very thick unlike the one they have in Klang Valley. that's the only nice thing about the cendol.


Satay Celup


Yummy Doraemon Pancakes

attended my very first interview today morning. position applied for: admin assistant. company's profile: it's a company that deals with Proton & Toyota automobiles. the lady who interviewed me is nice. however, she thinks that my qualification is way too high and was curious why do i choose this job. she seems to be quite happy and satisfied with me though. one good thing about this job is that we get to do some roadshows once a while besides all those paper works and get stuck in the office forever. that's what i wanted, a job that does not require me to stay in the office, in my cubicle, facing the same people all year long. the bad thing is that they are looking for someone who is interested to work for a long term and not a person who comes to gain experiences and leave after a few months. well she told me that and wanted me to consider about it. "please be honest" is what she's trying to tell me, indirectly. honestly, i'm only interested to work for 1 month. yes 1 month. Lee San is coming back in 3 weeks time and i need money to go out with her. ok 1 month's pay isn't enough but at least it does help a little. i need a job, a part-time job will do. anyone who's willing to hire me for a month? anyone?

Mum kinda dragged me to Klang yesterday. we went to the job agency to get some help, to help me to get a job. a friend told me to look for this Chinese lady but she wasn't around, so an Indian lady helped me with everything. i told her i wanted something connected to IT or events. she couldn't find anything related to events and for IT, i need to have programming knowledge which i don't. so i ended up with 1 job on customer service and 3 on admin clerk/asst/exec. customer service is out because it's way too far from my place. so i got no other choices besides the admin jobs. i'm sure you know how much does an admin asst usually get paid. sometimes it could be less than 1K. that's so freaking sad. but what can i say, i'm just too choosy. so this is what i get. darn..