this year's Christmas was not a lonely one. Christmas Eve was spent with the ladies; Tracy, Amy and Sylvia. it was a last minute thingy and it was a good one. otherwise i'll be spending Christmas alone at home, which was my initial plan. last minute plan always works for me and Tracy. advance planning is always a failure and disappointment to us.

i worked till noon on Christmas Eve, rushed home and got ready for dinner with the ladies. table for 4 at Santini@SURIA KLCC. the food were just ok. but, to be really honest, all of us were quite disappointed with everything; the food, the service, the ambiance, the songs they played. no Christmas spirit at all. imagine listening to "Never Had A Dream Come True" by S Club 7, "Beautiful" by Christina Aguilera and "I'm With You" by Avril Lavigne on Christmas Eve. that's sad. we were up at San Francisco for a while and they were much better compared to Santini. we don't know about food wise, but the staff were friendlier and they wished us "Merry Christmas" once we entered. unlike Santini, they didn't even bother to wish us. but i must say that i do love the pasta, only the pasta.

next stop, Poppy Garden. Amy suggested that we went there because her friends were there. so i met up with bro and his friends. they had planned for a loco party in Poppy Garden for Christmas a week in advance. i actually told him that i'll never be there because 1-i don't know all his friends and 2-my original plan was to stay at home. but i went out in the end. hehe.. bro's friends are really loco loco. i was dragged to the dance floor and was surrounded by all his friends, whom i don't even know. *doink* anyhow, it was a great night.

on Christmas day itself, jie had a BBQ party at his crib. however, everyone left quite early because most of us have to work on the following day. Labbit aka Rosh and jie got me a SPONGEBOB!!! \(@_@)/ OMG, I LUV SPONGEBOB!! thanks humans.. and in return, i actually got Rosh 6 Pooh's fridge magnets (got them in November ok). she loves Pooh. darling Nikki and her hubby, Beh got me a pashmina and she baked yummy Christmas Ice Cake or wateva it's called. they're so yummy.. all the above make this year's Christmas a joyful one. =D

New Year's Eve will be spent in Kaohsiung, Taiwan. fun?? OF COZ NOT!! i'll be sleeping in the hotel and no countdown for me because yours truly have to work. yeah, it's fun indeed. anyhow, wishing all you humans out there a Merry Merry Christmas and a Happy Happy New Year!!!


The food at Santini.


My Spongebob...

recently, i came to have a dream and a thought of changing my career. it's something that i never thought that i'll be interested in. something that i never even thought of when i was younger. most importantly, i never even thought that i am qualified to be one. and just recently, it just popped in my head. it all started when a colleague of mine told me that i should give it a try and he really encourages me to go for it. bro has the same dream too and we were talking about it lately, and everything just came. but i knew that it will never happen. i know that i can't do it. don't ask me why but i just knew that i can't. i don't have the confidence in me. people told me that i should try sending in the application letter; trying doesn't mean that i'll get it. however, i do not even have the guts to send in the letter. what a loser.. 4 years of training and an additional of 7 years bonded with the company if i'm selected, that's just too long. 11 YEARS is what we're talking about. i don't think i can. bro told me that i should consider again. but from the start, i already knew the answer...

December is not my month. first, both my lower legs were injured. God knows how i got the wounds. seriously, i don't know how i got them, i didn't even notice that they were there until when i was taking my shower, i felt the pain and there, i saw the wounds. there's not one, not two, but THREE wounds on my left cnemis and one on my right cnemis. damn kanasai!! now both my legs look super ugly. the wounds have healed but they leave scars. jier..i hate scars. how to wear miniskirts now you tell me?!! it's not that i wear them but hey, scars means U-G-L-Y. wanna wear short pants also cannot. aRrGhH!!!

second, i accidently stepped on my glasses and it's crooked now. i just made a pair last week and i haven't collected it yet. shall collect it later and get my glasses fix too. then i'll have 2 pairs. the one i'm wearing now is a titanium frame glasses by Seiko. the new glasses is a plastic frame one by ... i don't remember. i think it's some cheap brand but the whole thing cost me RM300. not too expensive i guess, compared to my Seiko and previous D&G glasses.

and third, i dropped my watch and the glass/screen cracked. aijor...all the expensive stuff.. it's kiling me.

two days ago, a friend told me that another friend of ours dumped/broke up with her bf of 4 years for another guy, who is hell much richer than her ex. we don't know if it's money that she's aftering or love. but she used to tell us that she loves her bf (now ex) and that they'll never be apart. now guess what, they're history. perhaps it's love that brought them (my friend and the new guy) together. perhaps he really cares for her and that catches her heart and she feels like he's the one (gals will really fall for guys who really care and love them, pay lots of attention and stuff). perhaps she thought of settling down soon and wanted a man who can give her the happiness and everything a woman needs. come on la, the new guy has a very good career and loads of cash (bright future and financially stable), while her ex is still studying and young. or perhaps it's something else. wateva it is, we just found that everything happened just too fast. she just met the guy like end of last month, on the 23rd Nov to be exact and according to my friend, they're together for a week already. \(@_@)/ i remembered her calling me on the 28th Nov and told me bout him (you see, at that time i'm the only one among our friends who knows about his existence, i actually met him first on the 24th Nov). she was saying that he's been treating her really nice, very caring and all the shits. and she actually told me that it's so hard to let go a relationship that has lasted for 4 years. bla bla bla...but in the end, she's with the new guy now and bye bye to her ex. i don't know if i should feel sad for her or her ex. wateva it is, it's her life and it's her decision. she has made her choice and since she's happy with it, i should be happy for her too. but i really do hope that the new guy is true and sincere.

on the other hand, my bro was so messed up, he doesn't know if he's doing the right thing; hanging on to this gal, whom turn out to be a close friend of mine. i knew that something isn't right between them, they're like having this on and off kinda thing. i always wanted to pop the question but don't dare. and eventually, the curiousity just ran out. and i decided to let them be. besides, it's their personal thing, so if they don't wanna tell me, i don't wanna bother. until yesterday, bro finally popped the question to me; whether i think that he's doing the right thing hanging on to this gal. seriously, it's very hard for me to say. one is my bro, the other is a friend. one of his friends told him to let go and that it's time for him to open up and discover new things. he thought of the same because at times, he felt like it's a one sided thing and he felt that he's being unfair to himself. i sort of agree with that. and so, i guess he has made his decision. wateva it is, again it's his life, his decision. no matter what i'll support what he has decided.

this is really funny.. i must say that it does makes me laugh and makes me feel better. i'm feeling great these days. i'm feeling stronger. it's good, since he doesn't call lately (as expected) and haven't seen him for couple of days already.

Some quotes again:
~I could never regret loving you because even if you didn't love me anymore, i know that you once did and that is the most wonderful feeling because i never thought that i deserved your love.
~Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.