arghh..this seriously is driving me crazy. i lost one of my favourite top. how can that be?!! i've searched everywhere in the house, including my Mum's wardrobe and brother's. I'VE SEARCHED EVERYWHERE but that top is still unseen. i love that top so much and i wore it very often, but now it's gone. gone gone gone. seriously how can that be? told my Mum about it and she even tried looking for me. well that top is lost for almost a month or more. i was trying to look for it again just now but it is still in the mood to play hide-and-seek with me. come out come out wherever you are, please.. i really love "you" so much. come out please.. already i do not have many clothes and now this favourite top of mine is missing. isn't that annoying??!!

imagine a person smelling like biscuits and sweat - yucks. a bad combination. that's how i smell like now. was helping Mum doing CNY biscuits the whole day and am taking a short break now. couldn't resist the temptation to go online and check my mails. and since i'm already facing the pc, might as well just blog a little. the weather is extremely hot, plus we're baking so it's even hotter. Mum bakes a lot of biscuits this year, her friends wanted to buy biscuits from her because Mum bakes nice biscuits. plus Mum gives biscuits to relatives every year during CNY. so a lot to make. was baking the almond chocolate biscuits yesterday, a friend of Mum wanted 8 tins today. so we were doing it until 3am. terrible... alright time is up. gtg help Mum again. adios..

What's great about good mates?
Friends can always be relied on to:

provide a shoulder to cry on.

take your fears and upsets seriously and offer appropriate advice.

feed your self-esteem with comments about how you're intelligent, attractive or deserving of better treatment.

make you feel special on occasions like birthdays.

provide real-life role models, teaching you how to be a better person, co-worker or friend.

rescue you from Star Wars-obsessed nuts you get stuck talking to at parties.

not even notice that your skin looks blotchy without make-up.

help you shop for hats when your new haircut is a disaster.

enthusiastically coo "I love that film" when you suggest hiring Bridget Jones's Diary on video again.

Friendship is more likely to go the distance if you hang out with pals who:

listen as well as talk.

respect other people's opinions.

take the initiative in keeping in touch.

have a positive attitude to life.

can be intimate without being indiscreet.

have a moral code similar to yours.

If he is the first thing you think of when you wake up,
The only thing you think of when you're awake,
And the last thing you think of when you go to sleep,
Then he is really something special♡.

Wanting him is Hard to Get,
Loving him is Hard to Regret,
Losing him is Hard to Accept,
But of All the Hurt I've felt,
Letting go is Most Painful Yet.

Never give up if you still wanna try,
Never wipe your tears if you still wanna cry,
Never settle for the answer if you still wanna know,
Never say you don't love him if you can't let him go!

it's so sad to know that i'm the only one left in the "Unemployed Society" among all my friends. such a loser. well there's still no news regarding the jobs i applied for and interviewed. so frustrating. no news from job B at all, and i'll take that as i'm rejected. the job that i went for the interview the other day, which according to my friend that the chances are quite high, seems to be not true enough. no news no news no news. it's already 2 weeks and... ah bummer...

i always have the thought to do something that i can't do - to be involved in the entertainment industry. something i wanted to do which i can't do. a singer? nah..i can't sing. act? i can't act, no skills. spokesperson? bla bla bla...whatever. just dream on. live in my own fantasy..

CNY is just around the corner and i notice that i haven't got any new clothes yet. this is the ONE thing i dislike about CNY - getting new clothes. for most gals, shopping seem to be their favourite but not for me. maybe i'm weird but i call myself different. i can't say that i dislike shopping, i love it but i'm not a shopaholic, i'm more like a window-shopper. i have the least clothes among all the gal friends i know. i have the least clothes among all my flatmates (6 guys and 1 gal) when i was in London. even shoes, gals tend to have at least 10 pairs of shoes, but i only have 2 pairs of high heels which i seldom wear them and 2 pairs of sneakers. what about skirts? i only have 2 dresses, a knee length skirt and a miniskirt. i prefer wearing pants especially jeans because it's so comfy and i can just jump around without worrying about...you know. a more funky and casual type of gal rather than elegant and girlish.

so why do i love shopping but dislike buying clothes? let me see...
1. maybe it's because i'm not working yet so i do not have the money to buy clothes, let it be cheap or expensive, no money means nothing..
2. i'm very very choosy with the designs and colours. i'm not trying to say that i have a high taste in fashion. i don't, i know i don't. that's why i always ended up with nothing when i go shopping and just look at the amount of clothes i have for now.
3. it's hard to find clothes that fit me. i don't think i'm too thin but it's hard to find clothes that fit me. sometimes even size "S" and "XS" couldn't fit me. what the heck?! "XS", isn't that extra small?? how can that be too big for me?!
4. adding the first, second and the third point frustrates me a lot and i got fed up. i don't think it's necessary to have so many clothes when people can never finish wearing all the clothes they have, and that sometimes people don't wear them and chuck them aside (what a waste of money).

ok i might be saying all the bad stuff now but maybe i'll be like most gals that shop till they drop in the future. maybe i'll turn to be a shopaholic once i started working and earning money. who knows.. but no matter what, i still need to shop for new clothes for CNY. it's a MUST according to parents. i'm force to do it so i have to do it.

itchy hands i have. i cut my own hair today and now i look like an 'aunty'. couldn't believe that i actually cut my hair that short this time. ok obviously when i said "this time" it shows that this is not the first time i cut my own hair. believe it my friend, i actually cut my own hair several times before. how silly...

finally i'm going to say a little about the Penang trip. i'll make it really short because i'm soooo lazy. the trip to Penang was great, but the weather was so hot, i felt like a burning pig under the hot sun. there's nothing much to do in Penang except going to temples and temples and temples (besides eating of course). so we went to the Burmese Temple, Thai Buddhist Temple and Kek Lok Si Temple. i can actually feel the holiness in me after visiting 3 temples in a day. amazing...
a visit to Batu Ferringhi made the trip worthwhile. that’s my favourite place to be. we were in Grand Plaza Parkroyal and everything there is incredibly beautiful. it was so nice that we went back to the same place again the next day before leaving back to Klang. we were staying in Lee San’s uncle’s house. nice garden he has, with a slight touch of Balinese concept. thanks for the hospitality, Uncle.

some pictures...


Penang bridge


Burmese Temple


Thai Buddhist Temple


Sacred turtle pond


Lanterns....lots of them


Kek Lok Si Temple - The Pagoda


Bronze statue of Goddess of Mercy/Kuan Yin














Grand Plaza Parkroyal





Batu Ferringhi


We found this, don't know what's that




















Uncle's nice garden

"cause you're leaving on a jet plane, don't know when you'll be back again..."
Lee San is going back to Canada soon, real soon, as in few hours time. so fast...she's back for like 3 weeks but it's as if she's back for only a week. oh i'm going to miss her again. and now that she's leaving, i'll be going back to my same old, boring, pathetic life again.

everyone is working now except for me. me, myself and i. Nikki found a job already, some advertising job i think, and she's going to work in ACP Asia Pte Ltd, the company that publishes Cleo and Women's Weekly. that's so nice. Hong Chiang is working too, as an IT Trainee. 3 of us were jobless last year, and now i'm the only one left, holding the title "Jobless" all by myself. lazy lazy lazy me. hopeless, useless, worthless me.

*Lee San, have a safe journey, enjoy your flight and take care. hope to see you again soon*

it's sad to know that i'm not one of the shortlisted candidates for job A, and it's even sadder to know that there is still no news or call regarding job B. for God sake, i couldn't just sit at home and wait for them for the whole year. so i went for another interview just now, which was recommended by a friend. i do not think that i did well just now, but according to my friend, she said that the chances for me to be taken is quite high. let's hope that it's true.

surprisingly, Mum did not mention anything about yesterday. i don't know why. it's good though but somehow it feels weird. guess she thinks that i'm old enough to do whatever i want. phew...

yesterday was Karolina's last night in Malaysia, so we went to Bar Flam in Bangsar. it started out pretty well, the bartender was very nice, Nikki and i called him as Mr.Muscular. good songs, good crowd, when suddenly Lee San and her friends were out of sight, missing in action. they were sitting outside, having an emergency talk. then i was tipsy and it started to be a bad night. i puked for freaking 3 times. man i'm such a terrible drinker. the last time i puked was at home. and how lucky i was, my Mum heard me puking. i know i'll be getting some scolding from her later when she's back, well she's out when i woke up. gosh..


Mr.Muscular - Nice fella

i'm getting lazier and lazier these days. so lazy to blog but i'm trying to force myself to write something here. Lee San's back and that's why i'm always out. her friend from Poland came to Malaysia for holiday and we've been out to places. just got back from Penang yesterday and i'm going to Genting tomorrow till Sunday, and to Malacca on Monday. it is indeed a busy week. i'm tired and exhausted and freaking broke, but i'm happy and it's nice to be out with friends.

i wanted to talk about my trip but i'm just too lazy. going out again soon, so i'm here just to blog a little. anyway i'll just stop right here. might blog about my trip next time, when i'm free.

yesterday was a terribly exhausting day. was walking around KL the whole day, as if i'm a tourist myself. went to the US Embassy, KLCC, KL Tower, Bintang Walk and China Town. can't talk much about it now coz i still have some packing to do; i'm going to Penang. leaving very soon and i'm not done with my packing yet. so why am i here?? no idea.. ok going to continue my packing now.. i hope i have a lot to say when i'm back from the trip.

here are some pics taken..





Petronas Twin Towers


KLCC/Petronas Twin Towers


The view from KL Tower


Nice rooftop


KL Tower

oh it's already a brand new year. Happy New Year. hello 2005, bye 2004. couldn't believe that it's already 2005. time flies... New Year resolutions? none..coz i'm too lazy to make one and i knew that i'll break all the resolutions i'm going to make. so better don't make any.

so restless and exhausted lately. i've been out almost every single day since Lee San was back from Canada. this means, i'm spending more and more while i'm earning nothing. my balance in my account is reaching negative. Mum is going to kill me if she finds out.

i can't remember what i wanted to say. my brain is stuck, still sleeping. there are a lot of things i wanted to say but i couldn't remember. so i'll just stop here then.

Happy New Year to everyone!!