went to the bank this morning and opened my account. finally the system is working. came back, had my breakfast and went online. checked my mail and at last a friend replied my mail. i mailed her twice few days ago regarding my graduation photos. FUCK HER!! i'm so mad at her. i'm so freaking piss!! she's the worst human i've ever known. she's the most selfish human on earth. SHE'S A FREAKING HORRIBLE BITCH. no i think the term "bitch" is too good for her, she's just indescribable. and i think she deserves to be named here, her name is Ashley. yup, i talked about her before in my earlier posts.

the story goes like this. my graduation photos were addressed to her address in London. i was staying with her and another friend before i came back to Malaysia. unfortunately, there were some problems with the delivery and i have to come back here without my graduation photos. few months later, the photos arrived and i told her to keep them for me. 2 weeks ago my cousin told me that her husband, who is in London is coming back to Malaysia next month. thought that he could bring the photos back for me. that's why i mailed Ashley, but somehow she told me to contact this other friend and asked her about this. so i asked the other girl, Nikki and she told me everything. and you know what, i can never have my photos back. that bloody Ashley took my photos and Nikki's luggage to the train station and left them in the left luggage office. she left everything there for more than 3 months already. how do you expect me and Nikki to pay for the deposits and other charges?!! ARGGHHH..... i really feel like punching her on the face. Nikki was pissed about this when she knew that Ashley left all her luggage in the left luggage office in the train station. she did not know that Ashley put my photos in there too. STUPID BITCH!! i paid freaking £42.95 for the photos and now they're all gone. you know what Ashley, THANKS FOR THIS...

yesterday's dinner was terrible. the food suck. and they knew about my job. i saw them laughing and whispering to each other and laughing again. go on, laugh as much as you like, go on and laugh your ass out. it doesn't matter to me.
i don't like them, i don't like them for being such a terrible relatives. it was my cousin's son's birthday last night. all my other relatives got their share of cakes except for us. they were giving it away to others right in front of us (Mum and i) and we got none. it's alright if they did not give us any (we don't eat "cheap" spongecakes too). but giving the others right in front of us without giving us anything, that's not a very good thing to be done. you call that a big happy family? i doubt it. it's ok, i believe in karma.

this is going to be the stupidest thing ever. to open an account in this particular bank, you need to make an appointment. what the... i went to two different branch of "this bank" in Klang yesterday and they did not allow me to open an account without an appointment. it's a new policy according to them. i was like...ok. there's nothing i can do because the company i'm going to work for requires us to have an account in this bank. went to another branch in Bayu Perdana this morning and thank God, they are still using the old policy. BUT the system is down. went back there again later, and it's still down. STUPID SYSTEM!! so i need to go there again tomorrow morning. please please please, i hope it's working tomorrow morning.


New hair colour. Paid RM140 for both colouring and treatment.

i've decided to take the offer, FINALLY. just made up my mind yesterday. it's going to be a brand new life from next week onwards. couldn't even imagine what's awaiting for me in front. i hope that i can cope with everything. i hope that i'll never regret taking the offer. i hope that i'll like this job. i hope that everything will go on smoothly. i hope and i hope and i hope. everyone will be so damn shocked and surprised to know about this job of mine, especially my relatives. they'll call me stupid, they'll call me dumb. i'm a graduate from a university in London and what i'm going to do has nothing to do with what i've studied. totally not related. they'll say that i'm so stupid for wasting so much money to study abroad. but i don't care. this is my life and this is what i've chosen. if i'll ever regret taking the job, then it's my fault, my problem. so if you're going to say something about my stupidity, please bug off and i think it's better for you to remain silent. all i need are some words of encouragement and not some criticism. thank you so much. there's a dinner tonight, family dinner with relatives in Klang. i wonder if they knew about my job or not. we'll see...

going out later to colour my hair to black again. but i need to go to the bank first to open a new account. i wish i have more time but i don't. sigh...

so many things to do yet so little time. i thought that i have a few more weeks before the training started but just realized that i only have a week. goodness.. i have not decide whether to take the offer or not yet. part of me said yes and part of me said no. this is so frustrating. argghhh....

hey hey, it's my friend's birthday today. just dropped him a message in his homepage.

Happy Birthday to "You"! wishing you all the best on your special day and everything good in the year ahead...

listen to this - The Egg Song. so damn cute...

Gemini - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

Your lively, outgoing attitude attracts people to you everywhere you go.
You can talk your way into - and out of - any situation you desire.
You're adaptable enough to flirt with anyone - and people tend to fight over you.

Your negative traits:

You get easily bored in relationships, and tend to jump from person to person.
You tend to be a bit of a player - and have a high tolerance for drama in relationships.
Not the most emphathetic person, you tend to tell lovers to "get over" their problems.

Your ideal partner:

Is intelligent and quick witted enough to keep you interested.
Is a bit of a shape shifter, providing you with the variety you crave.
An open minded person, who's willling to have a non-traditional relationship.

Your dating style:

Exciting. If your date shows you a new experience (like Egyptian food or scuba diving), you're very happy.

Your seduction style:

Experimental: it's rare that you try the same thing twice.
Ultra kinky - you do stuff that's not even in books yet.
Hot and cold... sometimes you're just not into the whole sex thing.

Tips for the future:

Settle down a little. Sometimes good things come with time - so don't let people go so fast.
Acknowledge that you're a player and flirt. If your mate can't live with this, find someone who can.
Give your partner a little more attention. You don't have to be a social butterfly all the time.

Best place to meet someone online:

Match.com - enough sexy singles for you to find a new playmate when you get restless

Best color to attract mate: Sunny yellow

Best day for a date: Wednesday

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what a day.. was chatting with Tracy at around 1am and she was so damn pissed. a friend of hers called from Malacca and told her that there's a seminar later at 8am. it's a very important one where attendants will be taken and marks are given. she was pissed because all her friends are being selfish and did not tell her earlier about this seminar. she came back on Wednesday night for the prayers and she doesn't know about the seminar at all, when all her friends knew and did not tell her about it. then we went out to mamak at around 2am with her cousin sister. Tracy was so mad, she wanted to cry. she knew she can't make it for the seminar unless someone fetch her back to Malacca. the earliest bus departs at 8:30am, so there's no way she can make it. her cousin is so nice, she decided to fetch Tracy to Malacca. so all of us went to Malacca at 4am. reached there at around 6am, slept for 4 hours and came back to Klang again at around 11:30am. reached home at around 1:30pm, took a quick shower, get dressed and went out again to collect my agreement forms. came back at around 5:15pm, ate a plate of noodles and had a 2 hours nap. i'm going out again soon, to a friend's house. ah..i'm so sleepy. i better go take another quick shower then have my dinner and get ready to leave. ciaoz...

received a very shocking phone call just now. it's regarding job B. they're offering me the job!! surprise surprise!! i was surprised. never thought that this will be happening to me but it's happening now. however, that call made me got stuck in the state of confusion. should i take the offer or not? thought that this is what i've wanted but now that i've got it, i kinda doubt and unsure about it. this is madness. then i was told that i need to go to the HR department tomorrow to get the agreement forms. that's freaking fast. told my parents about it and Dad said that he'll fetch me there. guess my parents are being supportive here, so i'll just take the offer. if the worst comes to the worst, i'll either regret taking the offer or vice versa.

i don't like the way i'm feeling right now. i have this feeling since yesterday and it's not a good thing. i'm so green with envy. i'm full with jealousies and envies. not a good thing but i can't help myself. i'm mad and furious. feel so stupid and useless and being used all the time. why are people taking me for granted?! i'm not asking for more, all i want is some appreciation and care that shows how true you are as a friend. damn.. i don't know why am i feeling this way. guess the older i get the more sensitive i've become. sigh..

Quote of the day:
~Do not overrate what you have received, nor envy others. He who envies others does not obtain peace of mind - Buddha

yup i'm not obtaining any peace right now. shall try to forget about it.

we'll be having a prayer later at 12am. it's a very big day for all the Hokkiens.
Click here to learn about The Spring Festival

shame to say that i actually went for the movie yesterday. 'jie' called and asked me to go. and since 'jie' is fetching another gal to Klang as well, i've finally made up my mind to go. however, we were late for the movie and we missed the front part. but overall it's not a very bad movie. quite good - opinion from a person who doesn't fancy romance movie and that's ME

When I saw you I was afraid to meet you
Now that I've met you I'm afraid to kiss you
Now that I've kissed you I'm afraid to love you
And now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you

The way I feel for you I can't describe
It's almost too intense to verbalize
Essentially you're all I'm living for
Basically each day I need you more

I'm NOT supposed to love you
I'm NOT supposed to care
I'm NOT supposed to live my life
wishing you were there
I'm NOT supposed to wonder
where you are or what you do
BUT I'm sorry I can't help myself
I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU♡

Frustrated cuz I can't tell if it's Real
Mad cuz I don't know how you Feel
Upset cuz we can't make it Right
Sad cuz I need you Day and Night
Angry cuz you won't hold my Hand
Aggravated cuz you don't Understand
Disappointed cuz we can't be Together
But still I'll Love You Forever

I cry for the times you were almost mine
I cry for the memories I've left behind
I cry for the pain, the lost, the old and the new
I cry for the times I thought I had you

Don't underestimate the love in me
It's obvious these feelings run so deep
I fall and fall for you day after day
Nobody else could ever take your place
So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

i'm back!! home sweet home..was back on Saturday night, went out yesterday and today i'm back to the same old routine again; staying at home doing nothing. need to start my job hunting soon although i'm so lazy to do it. nothing much to say, nothing much happened during CNY except that i ate a lot, extremely a lot and gained a few kilos and yes, a few inches on my waistline too. blerghh..

my hdd crashed again. DARN!! for the freaking second time my hdd crashed. the first time was in London, lost all my documents of course and most importantly, ALL THE PICTURES!! and now the same thing happened again. yes, lost all the documents again and of course all the pictures too. thank God i burned most of the pictures 2 weeks ago, but how stupid of me, i only burned pictures taken on 2003 and 2004. did not burn the pictures taken on 2005. STUPID STUPID DUMB DUMB!! arghh...so mad. oh and all my mp3s too. ARGHHH!!!

yes it's Valentine's Day today and i've decided not to go out with anyone at all. i've rejected 2 invitations for dinner tonight. Nikki got free tickets for the movie "Shall We Dance" tonight at KLCC but i've decided not to go as well. why??
1. not really into romance movie. although it's free but i don't think i'll enjoy watching it. it's better to stay at home and watch astro. haha...
2. if i'm going, 'jie' need to fetch me back again. he just fetched me back yesterday and i feel so guilty. well everytime when i'm out with them, 'jie' is the one who need to fetch me back. how can i not feel guilty??!!
so it's a lot better for me to stay at home. you guys enjoy the movie then.
Happy Valentine's Day to everyone!!

it's the first day of Chinese New Year. Gong Xi Fa Chai!! and it's also the beginning of my doomsday. i can't imagine how am i going to face all my relatives again, with the very same old questions "are you working now? NO!! why? when are you going to look for a job?" and bla bla bla.. so sick and tired with all these. bleh..

we'll be leaving later early in the morning, probably 7am. going to the temple first before heading to Kedah, my uncle's place where we usually spend our first day of CNY there. 7am is early, very early. not sure should i sleep or not. i can never have a good sleep in the car. come to think of it, i don't really sleep throughout the whole journey. well maybe a very short nap in between, but to sum them up, it's never more than 1 hour. i remembered last year my younger sis and i stayed awake until the next morning, and i suffered from a headache when we reached my uncle's house. well like what i've just said, i can never really sleep in the car. so to avoid that incident to happen again, maybe i should just take a nap after i'm done with this post. actually i'm quite sleepy now, plus i can barely open my eyes. guess i should just sleep, although i might be having some trouble waking up later at 6am. alright i better go now and sleep. nites.. and Happy Chinese New Year again..

WATER DOG Horoscope
Jan 28, 1922 to Feb 15, 1923
Jan 25, 1982 to Feb 12, 1983

Dog people are loyal and honest and obedient, guardians of the house at night. They can be counted on to keep secrets and for always doing the right thing. They can be emotionally distant and do not mix well in social gatherings where they are often seen as wallflowers. They do better with one-on-one relationships and find happiness in the happiness they bring to others, such as finding the most perfect gifts for their friends. While it is true that they have sharp tongues and are a bit stubborn and eccentric, in a work situation they tend to work very well with other people. What is more, they always seem to have money and make excellent leaders. Because of their high moral stance, they are inspiring beyond measure.

Sizzling Rice Soup and Chinese Cabbage are among the keys to good health!!

Water Dogs are real charmers, easily attracting friends and colleagues into their inner circle. Handling the ins and outs of human relations is so easy for them! They know how to smooth over any personal situation with their kind, honest, easy-going nature. Always empathetic, always rational, their ability to play Devil's Advocate helps open up whole new ways of approaching problems and finding solutions. Their views on life are expansive because of an ingrained wanderlust which has taken and will continue to take them to exotic locales about the globe. They adapt like chameleons to new environments and new people and their lives are all-encompassing, full of rich adventure. Financial and career success comes to the Water Dogs later in life -- just watch these late bloomers burst open! Regarding their love life, when it comes to dating and romance, their temperature ranges from hot to cold, from one extreme to another. Sometimes they want a commitment, other times they run Geronimo. But, when true love finally comes, and it will, they have it made. Their relationships are filled with good honest communication and genuine kindness and total caring for their partner. Marriage will be as firm as the Rock of Gibraltar.

Click here to learn about your Chinese Zodiac

A relaxed MIND;
A peaceful SOUL;
A joyful SPIRIT;
A healthy BODY;
A HEART full of love;
And a POCKET always full of cash...
THESE are my sincere wishes for everyone this CHINESE NEW YEAR!
Gong Xi Fa Chai and may 2005 be your best year yet...

aiks i'm at home. not going out today. Tracy did not call or anything, and when i called her, there's no answer. so i suppose she's busy. it's alright, new year without new clothes. totally fine for me, but not for my parents i guess.

my face is getting better, so do my lips. but lips are still rough and feel so dry. hate this allergic reaction. i still cough like a Grandma. can't eat mandarin oranges at all, no cold drinks as well. sucks... i want to get well soon, real soon. don't want to miss all the nice CNY goodies. i want to drink coffee real bad. haven't been drinking coffee for days, since i was sick. i love coffee. can't wait to get well soon and indulge myself with a nice cup of coffee. *wink..

i feel so weak. my throat is feeling better but i started to cough like a Grandma. lost my voice yesterday. sigh.. my face is still rough like a sandpaper but i think my lips are getting better because i can see some skins are peeling now. it's a good sign i suppose, meaning they're renewing the skins but i still feel the discomfort.

hope i'll get better tomorrow. decided to do last minute shopping with Tracy. she just came back from Malacca yesterday night for CNY. Mum's urging me to get at least a new top for CNY. well i'll try my best to get one if my condition is good enough to allow me to go out tomorrow.

went to the clinic yesterday. i went in for only 3 minutes. that's fast but not as fast as the person before me, she went in for only 2 minutes. yes i'm too free that i actually timed the time taken to consult the doctor. the doctor gave me 5 different type of medicines - 3 in tablets form for my allergy, flu and fever (yes i developed fever yesterday too), 1 row of lozenges for my throat and cream for my face and lips. it's a real torture to get sick and having this allergic reaction on my face and lips. i can't really talk much and can't really laugh a lot because it feels so uncomfy and kinda hurts. face started to itch too. more tiny bumps popping out on my lips today and my face feels like a sandpaper. urghh...annoying.. when i told my Dad that i wanted to go to the clinic because of the allergic reaction caused by the facial, he burst out laughing. yes my Dad was laughing at me. that's my Dad, he's a really funny guy although he looks damn serious.

not going out today. all plans are canceled. stay at home and suffer...

NO MORE FACIAL WITH CLINIQUE!! even if i'm going to have one in the future, i'm going to tell them not to simply put stuff on my face. the allergy/rash on my lips seems to be spreading and it's getting worse today. there are rough tiny white bumps on my lips and around the outer lips as well. it's not itchy at all but my lips are inflamed. i've had that kind of reaction before, and that was like...3 or 4 years ago. my face tends to be sensitive to certain products. i was a frequent visitor to the clinic last time because of the allergy. and now it's happening again. DARN!! this means i will not be able to go out tomorrow. i'm suppose to meet up with a friend during the noon, and will be meeting up with Nikki and the others during the night. it's been a while since we last met but now i don't think i'll be able to go. how can i go out with swollen lips?? ewww...looks like hotdog lips. besides, i think i'm falling sick. i woke up with a sore throat and flu. bummer..

You Are 20 Years Old

20 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

yesterday's facial was great. it's so relaxing but somehow i did not feel comfortable. everyone there was quite surprised to know that that was my first time for facial. i was like..is there anything wrong with that? i mean what's so wrong with the "first time"? overall i spent RM220 like i've expected, an eye cream and my facial cleanser. RM220 for an eye cream, a facial cleanser, a free bag and free facial - not bad, right? i also had my brows trimmed but they're not as nice as the one i had them done 1 1/2 years ago at the SK-II counter. all in all, i'm quite happy and satisfied. however when i woke up this morning, my lips are slightly swollen, and it's quite painful. i also noticed a few pimples break out on my face. arghh...guess some of the products used for the facial weren't suitable for my skin. bummer..

headed home straight after the facial. the weather was scorching hot that my face was so oily and i sweated like crazy. yucks.. then i had lunch with Mum at a coffee shop in Klang while waiting to fetch bro from the KTM station later. there was this man in the coffee shop, he kept talking and talking and his voice was so loud. i couldn't really get what he was talking about but he's damn noisy. headaches.. after fetching bro from the station, we headed back home and Mum wanted to go to Pasar Malam, which i think they should rename it to Pasar Petang. so i accompanied her there. i've never been to a Pasar Malam for almost 2 years. it's so crowded and under the scorching hot sun, people started sweating and you touch me, i touch you..ewww.. don't like to go there.

Mum is baking pineapple tarts today which does not require my help at all. so i cleaned my room and wiped my white but no totally white sneakers. couldn't seem to get rid of the stubborn stains at first. then i added some bleach to the water and voila...nice and clean. but doesn't look brandnew though. it's ok as long as it's clean. washed the aquarium, my last fish died. opss...sorry. one of them suffocated to death, i think a month ago due to the power failure. we have the air pump but it did not survived anyhow. the other one survived but it was swimming upside down all these while until this morning, it left the world.

i'm going to pamper myself tomorrow. i've made an appointment for a free facial, brow trimming and hand massage. yes i mentioned "FREE" but it's not really free. i need to purchase RM120 worth of their products and then only will i be getting free facial. it's like a bonus for me because my facial cleanser is finishing soon and free brow trimming, meaning i get to trim my bushy eyebrows. the problem is, i do not know what should i buy. yes i wanted to get my facial cleanser, but that only cost RM95. i wanted to get the eye cream which cost RM125 as well. if i get both, i need to fork out RM220. well where can i get the money when i'm not earning any cash yet? i told my Mum about this and she's willing to lend me the money. yeah..


Nice watch by DKNY.

found this watch that i loved, i think 2 years ago. well i still like it, and i would love to get it if possible although it's sort of outdated already.