Christmas

so happy that i was off on Christmas Day just like last year. i was working on Christmas Eve but it's all good since i finished work early. went back and was hoping to get some sleep before Rosie comes to fetch me for dinner with the guys. but while i was on my way back, she called and said that she'll be early. there goes my sleep. i looked so dreadful as i was pretty tired because i didn't get enough sleep on the day before.

we were suppose to have dinner at Chilli's in KLCC. Chris actually went there at 3pm just to get us a table (well they don't take reservation for Christmas, what the toot!!). but the queue was so damn long, luckily Chris came out with plan B, dinner at Manhattan Fish Market.

after dinner we hopped over to Velvet. entered for free, thanks to Chris and Wong. love going 'jeng jeng' with you guys. hehe.. Wong then hopped over to Poppy to meet his friends and i was supposed to join him as my friends were in Rum Jungle. but thanks to my super-killer-high heels (ai sui ma), i decided to say sorry to my friends in Rum Jungle, i'm not going. kaka... we had 2 different groupies in Velvet, super happening night. had fun..

bro aka Patrick is back. ya he told me that he's coming back but he didn't mention like exactly when. then he appeared in Velvet. KNS!! such a failure leh, how to be your sister?? he got me pressies, well of course i got him stuff too. i got him a Patrick (Spongebob's friend leh) and a 'ciplak' aircraft model, B777 1:425.


Spongebob and Patrick.





he got me a bear with candies for Christmas, a keyring from Harrods when he was in London before coming back here, a pack of ciggies (he knows i keep ciggies boxes but he got me soft pack -_-! but nvm..hehe), a box of chocolate liqueurs and a postcard from Denmark which he was supposed to give them to me when he was back in August. whee...i loves receiving gifts. thanks Patrick.

Christmas Prezzie...

Christmas comes early this year. The Santa came with a surprise gift on 17th morning. it’s a fragrance by Hugo Boss; Hugo XX Woman EDT. though it’s not what i've always wanted (been eyeing on this one particular EDT for so long. well that’s because The Santa doesn’t know), i really do love it as it’s a gift from Santa. although the scent doesn't compliment me much (it's more like a sophisticated career women kinda scent), but hey, at least i know that Santa has put on some efforts thinking of what kind of perfume to get for me, which i really really appreciate, and i'm flattered and touched.

when i got home, i found out that my sister actually has the perfume that i've always wanted; the Blue Ralph EDT by Ralph Lauren. o_O wheee...so now i think it's lucky that Santa did not get me the Ralph EDT. otherwise, we'll have 2 of the same fragrances at home. what's the fun eh? oh and now, i'm starting to love the scent (Hugo XX). it's not that bad after all.






THANK YOU SO MUCH DEAR SANTA!!!
p/s: please do shower me with more gifts, not only on Christmas Day (even when i said i dun wanna. hehe..) *grin*

Paracetamoxyfrusebendroneomycin

OMG!! this is freaking funny i tell you. saw this from a friend's friend's friend's blog. (wah seh...so complicated -_-!). this is really addictive and can really drives you nuts after a while.



all together now...
paracetamoxyfrusebendroneomycin...
paracetamoxyfrusebendroneomycin...
it can cure the common cold, and being struck by lightning...
paracetamoxyfrusebendroneomycin...

"don’t you think that we should stop now, before we fall any deeper and ended up having hard time letting go by then? we both know that it’s hard to let go now (or is it just me), since we’ve already chose to start it. but it’ll be much harder later.

of all the gals in the world, why must you choose me to be your victim? from the start i know that i shouldn’t have let you in to my life. but i wasn’t strong enough, i let you in. i should have been strong, but i’m weak. now that you never choose to go, i’m suppose to be very happy. but confusion strikes. i’m living in confusion, frustration and heartache. you see through me. you know that part of me wanted you to stay, and you know that the bigger part of me wanted you to go. my heart aches every time i think about this. now that i’ve let you in, you do bring joy to my life but you brought pain along as well. i already have trouble bearing the pain now. imagine how hard will it be for me to bear the pain and the lost later? it’s disturbing. therefore, it’s better if i choose to let you go now. it’ll be easier too. yet i’m selfish, i wanted you to be around me. perhaps you showed up at the right time. i was sad and lonely, and you came in. and you assured me that everything will be good and it's worth giving it a try. but i’m lost and doom now. should i go on with this; relax, enjoy and have fun and worry later, or should i worry about the consequences now and just end it quick? please...tell me."

yes, life is short and i’m messing it up.

so i actually went to Singapore. took the last flight on 1st Dec evening and came back on 3rd Dec noon. couldn't stay any longer because all my friends are working on weekdays and i'll be all alone, very boring one leh. plus i was staying at one of my friend's place together with her aunt, and her bro, and her sister-in-law, and her niece. dah la i don't really know them, very hard to communicate and felt so awkward. that's why i decided to come back on 3rd. otherwise could have stayed longer since i've already paid so much for the air ticket. bah...

went to Vivo City with Jia Ling and her aunt on 2nd noon. had nasi padang for the very first time in my life. i've been to Jakarta and Medan but never try it before. Jia Ling recommended it so decided to give it a try. it's their food, fyi Jia Ling is an Indonesian. it turned out to be yummy. had cendol too. kuat makan gila. such a glutton.

we then went to City Hall, met up with 2 other friends; Chardy and Ferina. eh...come to think of it, those whom i met are all Indonesians. was supposed to meet Ganesh too, but guess he must be really busy that he didn't even reply the 2 sms-es that i sent. well the Indonesians and i, we were classmates when we were studying in Inti College Subang Jaya in 2000. Ferina left us in 2001 and went to Inti College Nilai. i left for UK in 2003 while Ferina left for Australia. the others stayed in Malaysia. after graduating, most of the Indonesians went to Singapore to work. same goes to Ferina after she graduated from Aussie. i'm the only one living in Malaysia now. glad that we're still in touch. anyhow, we only managed to chat for 1 hour as Chardy has a wedding dinner to attend, Ferina has appointment with her bf and we (Jia Ling, her aunt and i) have to meet up with Santi and her husband for dinner.

so what's for dinner? we were supposed to have hawker food at the kopitiam nearby, but the place was full gila babi. we couldn't move to another kopitiam as Santi is heavily pregnant, expecting her baby boy in January next year. btw, congratulations to you and your hubby. so we ended up having McDonald's which is just next to the full-gila-babi punya kopitiam.

although the trip wasn't that interesting, but meeting up with the guys again, after soooooo long was great. of course, it'll be much better if we could have spent more time together. perhaps next time, when you guys come over to Malaysia for a visit. take care my dear friends...

here goes, a picture of Nikki's tattoo.



i told you before that this is like an addiction. yup, Nikki Mah has a new addiction now. she's already decided to get the next (second) tattoo done next year, around March. "bravo woman!!" and as for me, i think i can only get mine done if i'm to quit this job of mine. wait la, cakap je wanna quit, but don't even know when.

at last, they approved my leave. 5 days, from 2nd Dec to 6th Dec. but i'll be staying at home. -_-" not going anywhere, going to Australia no more. why? the flight is like full all the way, we are put in waiting list. but parents don't wanna take the risk so the whole holiday plan is cancelled, yet again. since we're not going to Australia, i might want to go to Singapore, visit some old friends. ya, guess i should plan on this.

Miss Nikki Mah had her body inked today.
"welcome to the club, Nikki. finally you had it done after years of deciding. wohooo..."
you know, i actually thought of following her to the tattoo parlour. but then i thought to myself, better not. i’m so afraid that if i were there with her, i could not resist the temptation to get another one inked on me. seriously, it’s like an addiction. once you’ve got yourself inked, you would love to get more than one. my target; at least 5, not more...hopefully. *fingers crossed* she’s going back there again 3 weeks later to see if she needs a touch-up. i’m so gonna follow her there, that is if i’m off. i don’t care if i ended up having one by then.

I WANT MY LEAVE BACK!!!

you know what really makes me angry? stupid and lazy people who don’t know how to work efficiently and smartly (not that i’m very good but at least i’m hell better than these people). see, i’m entitle for 21 days of annual leave this year and i have a backlog of 7 days annual leave from last year. my first leave application for this year was rejected and that was in September. i tried applying for the second time for December and guess what, it was rejected again. WTF MAN!! i’ve been thinking, it’s almost the end of the year and i’ve never taken even a day of leave. so why are these people rejecting my applications?! so the furious me went to the office to inquire about this and you know what, this lady whom i spoke to told me that they bought my annual leave together with my backlog leave, and they left me with a remaining of 5 days leave, which expire on 31st December 2007. WHAT THE CRAP??!! so you’re saying that i should be happy because i get extra $$$ from that? NO! i’m not. for crying out loud, i want my annual leave. i want to go holidaying. i don’t care if you take the money back, i want my annual leave. but no, the lady said that i can never return them the money because they’ve had the money banked into our account. CRAP!!

well, what i really don’t understand is how can they be so stupid? i mean come on, if i do not want my annual leave, then why am i sending you the leave applications at the very first place? (after the first application was rejected, i sent 2 more applications for December and for CNY next year). it does make sense, doesn’t it? if i don’t want the leave, then why am i applying them for? and since i’ve applied for December and CNY next year, why are you touching the leave i applied for and bought them all and left me with a pathetic 5 days? come on la, use some common sense and think. USE YOUR BRAIN PEOPLE. God gives you a brain to think. make full use of it please. so i told the lady that no matter what, i want that 5 days leave in December. my family and i planned to go to Australia for holiday in December. we were planning for it since June ok. the lady told me that it can be done, and she wants me to see her again a week later to remind her about it.

tadaa....a week later, i happily walked to the office and guess what she told me? she’s no longer in charge. company moved her to another division. \(@_@)/ ARE YOU KIDDING ME??!!! i’m so freaking pissed that seriously, i feel like pulling out a rifle and shoot her. OMG!! *breathe breathe* she directed me to another lady and that lady told me that i’ll be able to know about the status of my leave application by 1st November. blardy hell, it’s already 14th November and the status is still pending. FUCK MAN!! you tell me, will you be angry about all these? so unsystematic leh. wanna go holiday also susah, wanna apply leave also susah. i’ve been working for them like mad dogs for the entire year, with NO LEAVE taken (not even 1 fucking day), NO MCs, and is this how i’ve been treated in return? SO FUCK!!

I can’t get you out of my mind. I keep thinking about how much I enjoy talking with you, how great you look when you smile, and how much I like your laugh. I daydream about you off and on all day, replaying pieces of our conversation...laughing again about funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way you look at me...it melts my heart everytime I think about it. And I catch myself smiling when I imagine what will happen the next time we’re together. You must be something really special, because I can’t remember the last time I felt so strongly about someone. Even though neither of us knows what the future holds, I know one thing for sure – you’re one of the very best things that’s happened to me in a longtime.

[Source: from a greeting card]

Roxette
A Thing About You

I pick up the phone
I'm dialing your number
While I pray you're at home
At home and alone
'Cuz I can't function on my own
And I'll never stop believing...

The reaping is done
You are the one
The radio is on but the sound is all gone
And I wanna walk out in the sun
But lately that's been very hard to do

I've got a thing about you
And I don't really know what to do
'Cuz I've got a thing about you

I pick up the phone
I'm dialing that number
And my heart like a stone
Waits for the tone
Oh I can't make it on my own
And I'll never stop believing...

I know what is right and this is so wrong
Alone in my bed, better off on my own
The TV is on but the colors are gone
And lately you've been painting my world blue

I've got a thing about you
And I don't really care what you do
I've got a thing about you
Yeah, you...

YAY!!! it’s time to celebrate. so what are we celebrating? me, recovering from tonsillitis. hip hip hurray *jump for joy*. i think it’s getting better and it’ll be A-OK soon. Augmentin really works, though i did suffered from minor diarrhoea. bah.. so since i’m getting better, i started to crave for lotsa lotsa stuff. you know la, i have to jaga makan like kau kau for the past 2-3 weeks ok. a real torture indeed. so i’m craving for...
~deep fried food, especially McDonald's fried chicken and french fries...yum yum
~spicy food especially nasi lemak, chicken curry and asam laksa...wooooo
~cold drinks with lotsa lotsa ice...ahhhhh
~seafood - crabs, calamari, prawns...heaven
~coffee...depriving for one real badly
~ice cream...Haagen Dazs' tiramisu and green tea ice cream...OMG
*saliva drooling*

yesterday i finished all the medicines given by the doc but my right tonsil is still swollen with more whitish/yellowish thingy. creepy... and i started having trouble swallowing as it began to hurt real bad since yesterday morning. thus, i went back to the doc again this morning. since the previous 2 types of antibiotics she prescribed weren’t affective, she gave me another type of antibiotic which is more concentrated with higher dosage of amoxycillin and clavulanate potassium; it's called Augmentin. anyhow, since I’m so thin, she advised me to take half a tablet a day, twice a day with 12 hours gap in between. worst part was when she told me that MOST but not all (duh..) who took the pill will have diarrhoea. aijor jor...this is not good man. plus, that antibiotic is so expensive because it’s imported. 5 tablets for RM40. *suck blood*. but i don’t care about the price as long as it cures my tonsillitis.

Tonsillitis

since two weeks ago, i've been having this funny off and on sore throat, which i thought it's gonna be ok if i am to drink more water. well it did turned out to be ok AT FIRST. then last week, i felt funny whenever i tried swallowing my saliva, it's as if there's something at the back of my throat. and thus, i decided to look into the mirror and see what's inside. to my horror, i was (am still) in awe when i saw my right tonsil was swollen and red and there's white/yellowish thingy on it. grrrRRRR...so scary leh. and so, i started taking lozenges hoping that it'll get better but no, it got worse. i began to have trouble swallowing my saliva a few days later, as it hurts more from day to day and there's more phlegm and it's painful la.

on Monday i decided to visit my company's panel clinic near my place after work, as the whole thing is scaring me more and more. and why i chose that panel clinic? because ONE)it's one of the two panel clinics around my area. i've been to the other one and it's no good, therefore i decided to try this one. TWO)it's FREE ma. BUT, it is going to be my FIRST AND LAST time visiting the clinic because....ONE)the nurse/reception lady is super rude - she never made any eye contact whenever she talks. the way she talks is as if she is totally not happy working there and is extremely rude. TWO)she's so SO SO LAZY, it's like after the consultation i need to collect my medication, she just pushed all the medicines to me and handed me a plastic bag, telling me to put everything into the plastic bag myself, in short it means self service. WTF!!! THREE)the doctor doesn't look like a doctor at all. his desk is SO SIMPLE, i've never seen a doctor's desk like his. serious, it's like he only has a few files on the desk, no pc (pc is on this other table behind him), he only has a stethoscope and no blood pressure cuff, and there's a beaker with disgusting yellow water (i'm sure it's for sterilization) with a thermometer and metal tongue depressor in it. seriously, it looks disgusting and so unhygenic. FOUR)the doctor doesn't seems to be very professional. he consulted me for LESS THAN 2 MINUTE. YES!! i'm for real. i went in, told him about my condition. he asked if i have fever, i said no. next, he took his flashlight, looked into my mouth then started writing something on the medical card. then i guess he must be wondering why was i still there, he stopped writing and looked at me and said, "OK". huh?? what do you mean by "OK"??! so i asked, "Done?", he said yes. WTF MAN!! so fast?? fine. he didn't even bother explaining what's wrong with me. bah, so i walked out and promised never to return again.

i didn't take the medication given by the 'paria' doctor. instead, i went to consult my family's doctor. and i finally got to know what's wrong with me. i have tonsillitis. the doctor gave me 2 types of antibiotics and i have to 'jaga makan'. =( no seafood, no cold drinks, no ice cream, no fried food... eat congee all day?? canot la...

it's her birthday today. it took me quite some time to forget about the feud between us and finally, i sent her a text wishing her a happy birthday. i mean after all, she was a best friend and she still is a friend. it's been what...around 2 months and 3 weeks since the incident happened? and there's not even a word nor a text from her. but me sending her a text wishing her a happy birthday; does that makes me the winner or the loser now?

this year's Mooncake Festival was the saddest one ever. i think it will keep going like this for all the years ahead, for me. =( i remember how eager my siblings and i are looking forward to this festival every year since we were younger. we'll light lotsa lotsa lanterns and our house looks incredibly bright and beautiful. we'll have mooncakes and teas and jump for joy. it's simply fun. it's different this year. my schedule was so hectic, i wasn't given a chance to light even a lantern at home, as in Klang's home. so i brought 2 lanterns and some candles along to the house in Bukit Jalil. still have the spirit to light lanterns even being alone. not bad eh? never had any mooncakes either, not until after the Mooncake Festival, that was yesterday. sigh...



it was somewhere around last week when Nikki, jie and i had Carl's Jr.. i remembered how bro used to tell me that i should try Carl's Jr. someday when i got the chance. it was mine and jie's first time having Carl's Jr. and let me tell you something, first time is always the best. agree? once we were there, GOD!! we were spoilt with so many choices to choose from. spent some hard time deciding what to have and in the end, jie and Nikki both had the Double Western Bacon Cheeseburger, while i had the Charbroiled Chicken Club Sandwich. the portion was huge and they're very generous with the fillings. trust me, you will be sated. besides, drinks are refillable, thus the hefty price. so stop comparing..

i don't know what is in my mind again. i don't know what am i thinking. something is blinding me. something is blocking my ability to think. i'm doing the wrong thing again. i don't know how to stop it still. keep doing the wrong thing over and over again. no one can help me. no one except for me, myself and i. gosh, i hate this.

"when you said that you do like me, i wasn't convinced because you people are the same. you and your people always treat us, the gals like toys; you'll get excited and fun when it's new, you enjoy playing with it and when you're bored one day, you chuck it aside like a trash. but somehow, from all the things that you've said and done, you seem to be different compared to the others, which i hope i'm right...at least for this one time. i'm happy and flattered. you do make me feel so special and i enjoy feeling this way. i feel so lucky to be cared by you. seriously, i've never felt like this before towards someone, someone like you. but we both know, things will never work between us. it never will, will it? we're just SO different in everyway. you know what i mean? so why are we still doing this and go on? we'll both ended up hurting each other someday. or will it be just me, the only one who will feel the pain?

i wanna know, do you really mean everything that you've said? or do you actually said it just to catch my heart and attention? i wanna know, are you serious about all these? or are you doing it just to have fun and to fool around? i hope that you are different from your kind. i hope that you do not have the intention to treat me like a toy. if your intention is to treat me like a toy, please just stop and go away. leave me alone. i hope that you will never hurt me. please, have sympathy on my freaking soul..."

IF ONLY...

it's not that i do not appreciate my current job nor do i not enjoy it, but i guess it's time to seriously plan for my future. i have 2 choices in hand; job A or job B. both jobs are not base in Malaysia and both jobs are similarly good. IF ONLY my current job could be a lil' more promising, i would not have to squeeze the juice out of my brain just to figure which job to go for. i wouldn't even want to look for one at the very first place. IF ONLY my pay was enough for me to have my own saving (ya i have none even after working for 2 years. can you believe this?!), i would not even want to think about leaving the company (as for now la).

decisions, decisions, decisions... sometimes making a decision can be so easy that you can tell what you actually wanted without even have to think for a second. however, at times it can be so hard, you don't know which to choose, you think and think and think...your head feel so heavy, the pressure in your brain seems unbearable as if it's gonna explode, you feel like banging your head on the wall. that's the challenge in life. that's what that makes life so interesting and fun. but it's not that fun afterall. once you've made the decision, it can either be right or wrong. if it's right, then good for you. if not, you'll be shadowed with regrets and disappointment and bla bla bla...IF ONLY making a decision could be so easy, no one will ever make a mistake, and without making a mistake, no one will ever learn from the lesson. what a life.

bro has always been dreaming of becoming a pilot since he was a boy. he was then offered a job in Denmark and Dad told him to take the offer. he still dreams.. IF ONLY he wasn't offered the job in Denmark, he would have fulfilled his childhood dream of becoming a pilot. i was told before that i should try becoming a pilot by my bro of course and a couple of friends, but...IF ONLY it's that easy. IF ONLY i knew that a female can be a pilot too (i didn't know this until 2 years ago, i know i'm slow), i would have chose not to further my studies in UK but to use the money to take up flying course. IF ONLY...

IF ONLY i knew what i actually wanted in my life, i would not have to struggle now to sustain a promising future. now, my future looks so bleak.

there are so many things to do yet so little time. can't even decide which one comes first as everything seems similarly important. life has never been better. still leading the same old boring life. i think some of the cells in my brain are dying. can't seems to remember much lately, been so forgetful. memory is getting bad. can never deny the fact that i'm getting old, but never wiser.

thought of quitting this job of mine. but don't even know what can i do if i'm to quit this seems-to-be-the-best-job-in-the-world, as quoted by a huge number of the colleagues. the degree that i once owned has been left aside like a piece of junk paper. never make a good use out of it. how sad.. i'd wasted so much time, effort and money just to pursue a degree, and now look where my degree and i ended up at....NO WHERE. imagine how disappointed could my parents be, especially my Dad.

"sorry for letting you guys down".

few weeks ago, i accidently sprained my lower back and developed a fever. today, i sprained my shoulder's muscles, tendons, veins or wateva it is and it hurts badly. DAMN! i hope Yoko Yoko will help this time coz i'm having minor fever now. it's either i slept on the wrong side or it's a sign that i've been working way too much. first time ever, i think i seriously need a massage real badly.

just so you know, i'm not the kind who fancies stupid things like massage, manicure and pedicure, visiting the salon twice every month to get your hair style and up-to-date, buying the must have shoes and bags and clothes of the season and yadda yadda yadda. some say that i do not know how to pamper myself nor enjoy my life, but i would say that i do not want to spoil myself. well different people have different doings and different taste on what they like and dislike. doing none of the above doesn't proof nor show that i do not know how to enjoy my life, neither do i not know how to pamper or reward myself. i think one should just do it moderately and not massively unless you're loaded with $$$. unlike me, i'm a poor fuck with more important things to spend on with my hard-earned money. i do not have the money to spend on massage or manicure and pedicure which i think is unnecessary for now. a gal who dislikes massage, manicure and pedicure, shopping...weird eh? no this is what i call SPECIAL. different in my own way. =)

SERIOUSLY I NEED A BREAK!! I WANT TO GO HOLIDAYING!!!

i was assigned to go to Beijing on Merdeka's day by my company for a 2 days trip. it was indeed a very short and tiring one. touched down at Beijing International Airport at around 3:10pm and my flight back to KL was in the morning on the following day. the actual plan was to stay in the hotel. but how can i not call my friend out when i actually have a friend in Beijing? i mean you don't always get this; having friends in different part of the world. so i text Andy Wong who's in Beijing (he came here 2 months ago to work), and thus he brought me and another friend out 'kai kai'.

we came along this street called Gourmet Street along WangFuJing Street. OMG...you can find all sorts of exotic food there; maggots, scorpions, seahorse, even starfish, all skewered nicely with a skewer. they have different kinds of meat skewer; from beef, to pork, to lamb, cow's and pig's 'spare part', even dog meat. \(@_@)/ choose wateva you like and they'll barbeque them nicely for you. *blek* seriously i can throw up if i'm to stay there longer, the smell....really disgusting. all the stalls are selling the same thing. yucks... went to another street, OMG..saw the same thing again. we tried the 'fried fresh milk with condensed milk'. tasteless, they should put more condensed milk.

had our dinner in a restaurant in a mall along WangFuJing Street. the mall is something like our KLCC, where you can find top designers labels. went into Coach to check out my bags. =D so nice leh...but no money to buy. we then had Haagen-Dazs for dessert before heading back to hotel and sleep. my fren and i each bought a box of peaches for RMB25, that's approximately RM12. there are approx 23 huge peaches in a box. super cheap right?

although i'm a BANANA, i can speak Mandarin quite fluently, with the Beijing accent if you want me to. seriously, people will think that i'm from Beijing if i'm to speak to them. Awong can never stop laughing when i speak in Mandarin with the Beijing accent. STOP LAUGHING WEI!! even my family especially my Mum will laugh too. 'wo hui jiang hua yu, ke shi wo bu shi Beijing ren'. ka KA KA...siao already.

"Awong, thanks for bringing us out 'kai kai' and spending time with us. and i know, you must be very happy because i'm your first friend from Malaysia to visit you in Beijing. hehe... take care."





\(@_@)/





Chinese opera. so high up wei, neck pain la like that.


So big eh, slightly bigger than DKNY BE DELICIOUS 100ml.

i'm in love. ♡ i'm so in love with these handbags by Coach. >.<



i'm not the kind of gal that goes for designers stuff, yet it'll be GREAT if i can own one, at least ONE. genuine one of course, not fake one. please..i would rather not own one than getting a fake one. as for now, i'll just dream about it. what can i do? i'm a poor fuck. i can never even afford to possess a Guess bag, what more a Coach. you know, the most branded bag i have in possession now is one by MNG. got it when i was in London for a whooping £5. yup, it's a steal. oh and i adore this bracelet by Montblanc.



who's willing to buy them all one for me?? i promise i'll love you forever. -_-! *bite lip and eye-rollin'*

~Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting~ - Dixie Chicks

you know what, i think i'm ready to let go of this long friendship of mine with my best friend. i don't see the point that we should patch things up since she's ready to let go of this friendship too. yeah, it's sad indeed. but even if we've saved this friendship, it WILL never be the same. it will be awkward, weird and simply different. having to secure such a long friendship with someone who's so close to you for years, someone who used to be a part of yourself, and then in a minute, it all just went pfft like that, well it's hard. yet life goes on. there's no point agonizing about something that brings us nowhere (although it's worth agonizing about it for the first few weeks). as for now, i don't wanna care about anything else but to go on with my life (hopefully i can). life is just too short for me to waste time in this. i was told that life is just so unpredictable. yes it's true. and i was told to enjoy every second in life and do whatever that makes me happy. so i'm trying to not to grieve about this too much since it'll bring me to nowhere. i'll learn to accept it and go on with my life. perhaps this is what God wanted it to be, perhaps it's a learning path that God has created. i think...it's the end of it. take care, my good old friend..

"sorry guys for being sandwiched in between us two. i know it's very hard for you people, but...sorry."

lately the weather has gone crazy and everyone is falling sick. so was i. i was sick from 27th July (my off day ar) for 1 whole week. INSANE!! but the i-think-i'm-a-superwoman ME did not go to the doctor because i thought it's nothing big. it first started with the pain i had on my back. i think i accidently sprained my back when i sneezed. so 'keng' right? i tried using Yoko Yoko but it did not work. it then developed into fever due to the pain and i kinda lost my appetite too. =(

on the 30th July, i had to force myself up and go to work with all the pain and headache i had. it's torturing but luckily, it was a short day (very short shift). however, i was on standby from 31st July till 2nd August and i was called up to work on 31st July. fortunately it was another short day and my fellow colleagues were so nice that they kept making me laughed and eventually, i forgot about the pain i had. people said that laughter is the best medicine, i kinda believe in that because once i got home, i fell terribly sick again. luckily a friend came to the rescue. "thanks for all the sms-es you sent. really helps a lot." thank God they did not called me up on 1st August or i'll die straight away. i knew i should see the doctor by now and so i decided to go home on the 2nd August after my standby (hoping that office will not call me and i can go home and visit the doctor). but no, stupid officer called me in the end and i've got to work. bah....what a life.

the thing is i've never been so sick for so long in my entire life (i guess). and losing my appetite altogether, that's crazy. so from 45kg (i know i'm underweight, so what), i shed 2kg in a week and that makes me 43kg. (@_@) BUT once i recovered since 2 days ago, i gained my appetite back and now i'm back to 45kg!! extra 2kg in just 2 days?!! that's amazing!!

it has been exactly 2 weeks since my bestie friend and i had an argument. 2 weeks of silence, no sms-es, no calls, no messages, NOTHING. recovery should be done quick if we wanted this friendship to last. but i don't think she's going to take the first action, so am i. i know we're both wrong. there's this saying, "when there is an argument, no one can say whether one is right or wrong. both parties are wrong. the one who is right is the one who apologize first". however, this time, i do not want to be the one who's right. i'm tired of making the apology first everytime. being stubborn will not bring me anywhere, but i'll just stick to it and wait. sad to say, i'm having this strong instinct telling me that she's willing to let go of this friendship. hope that i'm wrong.

there are too many bad things happening lately. last month, a friend's friend past away due to cancer. 2 weeks ago, i had a huge argument with my best friend. then, another friend's friend past away. then Sam's cars were hit by a drunk driver. last week Karen was admitted to the hospital due to appendicitis. the very next day i accidently tripped and fell, had minor injuries of course. and yesterday, i accidently (don't even know how) sprain my lower back. it's aching badly and the pain causes my entire body to ache as well and i'm developing fever due to that. i hope it'll gets better as i do not want to get MC. but if it never gets any better, i think i should see the doctor soon. lets pray that August will be a start to better days.

it was supposed to be a fun night out, but in the end, it turned out to be a nightmare, a disaster. an incident that i have never ever thought that it could have happened to me, an incident that i know will haunt me forever, an incident that i wish it was just a dream. i had my first and worst argument with my best friend, a friend whom i've known for years. she used to be a part of me, and now it seems like she's slowly slipping away. we've known each other for years, we've shared our ups and downs together, sadness and laughter, we've had misunderstandings, disagreements but we've never had an argument, not until today; our first and largest one ever.

shits happened that night, lots of factors contributed to the start of the bitter argument, it's too long of a story. then i've been thinking, what triggered her emotion that causes her to lose her temper just like that, all of a sudden as i've NEVER seen her acting like that before. i tried to listen and keep my mouth shut because i do not want to make things worst, but i have my limits too. in the end, i kinda lost my patience and tolerance, that i couldn't take her shouting and blaming any longer and that's when i burst out as well. i couldn't take it already, that it's as if EVERYTIME and EVERYTHING was my fault and she's being unreasonable and ridiculous. it was HORRENDOUS.

i do wish that it is just a dream, that when i wake up from the dream, everything is back to normal again, as if nothing has happened. but as i woke up and opened my eyes, i know that everything is real and i'm still in disbelief. i have to accept the fact that it does happened. time is all i need to heal the wound. whatever it is, i know that our so-called lifetime friendship will never be the same again, and it never will. i'm losing my very one and true best friend. it's indescribable. i'll never forget 15th July 2007.

"Wong, i'm extremely sorry for getting you into this and please don't feel bad and start blaming on yourself because it's not your fault. i'm so embarrass that you and the guys have to see all these. thank you so much for the concern and words of encouragement. and Andy Wong, thanks for the call and concern. all the best to you in Beijing."

bro has left for Denmark to work yesterday evening. it was sad that i couldn't send him off. however, i'll be seeing him in August, he's coming back for his graduation. he was supposed to leave for Denmark around August but he got a call on Sunday telling him that he should be there soon. what a sudden notice. just so you know, he was supposed to be a pilot (his childhood dream) with Singapore Airlines after graduating with a degree in electrical engineering, but then he was offered a job in Denmark at the same time, that was like in November last year. "Dad" told him to take the job offer in Denmark as it is a very rare opportunity and that he shouldn't miss it. and so he chose to let go of his childhood dream.

it was indeed a very tough decision for him to make, and choosing to let go of his own childhood dream, it must be really hard for him and he must be really sad about it. and so, being a sis, i got him an aircraft model for his birthday. since he couldn't fulfil his dream to become a pilot, getting him an aircraft model is the least i can do. and i know, he loves it very much and i'm glad he does.





That Lego represents himself. cute..

[Source: pictures were taken by bro himself]

"although we've just got reunited, although i don't really know you well, you're really like a bro to me. somehow it feels like it, like you're part of the family (we really are family, in a way right?). it doesn't matter what you feel, as for me, you'll always be my notty bro, the notty Patrick and i'll always be the notty Spongebob. wishing you all the best and take care!!"

i've watched another movie, no it's not Transformers. was supposed to watch that but the tickets were all sold out. what a bummer! and so, we watched something else, and i LOVE it so much. Dead Silence that is. you scream, you DIEee...

why can't these people open their eyes widely and see clearly that I'M A FREAKING CHINESE!! i thought that it's over since i've never heard anything about this for months. but no, it will never stop, it will never come to an end. it's inevitable. huhuu....i'm so pissed that i can curse the whole world. grrrRR....

i finished work pretty late yesterday and took a cab back home. the cab driver decided to stop by the gas station to pump some fuel. since there's a drive-thru McD and i was so hungry, i decided to go grab something for myself. when i was walking out from the restaurant and heading towards the cab, a man approached me and handed me a book. i shook my head and walked away. but that man doesn't give up, he followed me and insisted that i should take the book and he said that it's FREE. to stop him from annoying me, i decided to take the book and ciao. just as i was about to take the book, that man said that i should give him some money, for donation. WTF MAN!! didn't you just mentioned that the book is for FREE?! crazy fella still asked for money, for donation. what's the point saying that it's free then, you tell me. so out of curiousity, i was wondering what's so special about the book that i was holding. had a look at it and the front page itself is written in Jawi. -_-"" felt insulted and offended, i seriously feel like throwing the book right at his face. and of course, i did not. handed it back to him and said "saya orang Cina la" (i'm a Chinese). 'pengsan' ok.

then this morning, while i was waiting for my cab to work, another stupid guy came to me just to ask, "you Melayu kah?". war lau eh...*vomit blood* i replied, "CHINESE LA, YOU STUPID!!" no offence to others, (i'm the one who got offended leh), but it's plain stupid lor. just because i was wearing kebaya at that time, that doesn't mean that i'm a Malay. it's like if you're wearing a cheongsam, it doesn't mean that you're a Chinese, and same goes to wearing a saree or punjabi salwar suit, that doesn't mean that you're an Indian. so open your eyes and see nicely people. i'm very fair and i look so Chinese ok.

time has gone by so quickly and everything seems to change. people changed and so do i. some people just couldn't accept it, neither do i. but i'm slowly accepting it. some people like the changes, some don't. some love the old Trish whom i used to be, some like the new Trish, who i am now. whatever it is, Trish will always be Trish. i've changed, i believe everyone does. so let's embrace it.

yet it's still another ordinary day. NO IT'S NOT! it's my birthday ok. but still, it's just another ordinary day, ain't it? it's not like you're going to get a day off from work just because it's your birthday. but guess what, i was off on my birthday. hah...how lucky. what? you're jealous? you don't give a damn? it doesn't matter because it's my BIRTHDAY!! well birthday is the day when you'll be pampered with gifts, free meal and yadda yadda yadda. so it's a special day right? honestly, i don't think it's special. it's just another ordinary day. bah i'm going nuts..

~Happy Belated Birthday To Me~~

food foOD FOOD..time for some pictures of food. yummy, delicious and keep craving for more..

Chopstik Noodle House

Dim sum.


And another one.


Set lunch; prawn noodle in superior soup, a hot dessert (peanut butter) and sugar cane drink.

Taipei, Taiwan

Fresh fruits from Shi Lin night market.


A closer look, the fruits are all so fresh and sweet. yum yum..


One big, juicy and sweet strawberry.


Trust me, this is really good; shaved ice with mangoes, strawberries and condensed milk. *slurp slurp*

Haagen Dazs Fondue




Uh...what a sinful treat.

it's nothing huge, yet it's something rather unbelieveable; i've watched my third movie of the year. what a WOW indeed!! seriously, i know it's not a big thing, but to my friends who know me, it is something big to them. i told jie about it and the look that he gave me was this ---> \(O.O)/ and the first thing he said was, "ARE YOU TRISH?!! YOU WATCH MOVIES?!! SINCE WHEN?!!". -_-" anyhow, back to the topic. watched Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer yesterday.



thanks to Jo, we had free tickets to catch the exclusive premiere screening at GSC, Mid Valley. the movie was ok, not too bad and not that good. but Silver Surfer is cool.

my second movie of the year; Blades of Glory.. highly recommended by Shi Han. it's a hilarious movie. was laughing my ass out the entire time. though all of us were suffering from neck pain (we were seated at the second row from the front), we had a great laugh and enjoyed it very much.

Lee San is in town again!! she's back for a month before leaving for Canada..again. so yesterday i was forced to follow her and Nikki to the airport to welcome some of her Canadian friends, who are here for internship. i was so tired because i was working till late on the day before. but i've been thinking, since we don't get to hang out together that often and she's leaving for Canada and God knows when will she be back here again, i decided why not. for Lee San, this time. see, i'm so nice to you, Lee San. ngek ngek.. oh and just so you know, Lee San has got a job offer in Canada. that's awesome.

we left home quite early yesterday, went to pick Nikki up and went for brunch before heading to the airport. then wonderful Lee San forgot to bring her Canadian flags with her, and she actually decided to go all the way home, from PJ back to Klang again, just to get the flags. CRAZEEE!!! that's what best describe us. :D Nikki and i were assigned to hold the flags and swing them when we see the Canadians coming thru the arrival hall. it's stupid and we both looked like retards yet it's hilarious.

we had a long, tiring and sweaty day. from the airport, we followed the bus fetching the Canadians to where they're staying (Lee San wanted to know where are they staying), then from there, we brought the Canadians around to Petaling Street by foot under scorching sun, to Central Market onwards to the LRT station opposite Central Market. from there, the Canadians got themselves a ticket each to KLCC and three of us adjourned to Sunway, meeting the rest for dinner.

the most embarrassing moment of the day was, travelling with two Canadian flags sticking out of the car, all the way from the airport to the Canadians' place in KL. EVERYONE WAS LOOKING AT US!! so embarrassing...

this is a random one, mainly about insects. couple of days ago, i was goin to close the sliding window in my bro's room when something caught my eyes. i saw, right in front of me, 2 flies having an intimate moment together. \(@_@)/ wasn't i amazed? i was!! it's not like i'm this one crazy maniac but i just think that it's amazing. i mean it's not easy to see one like live right in front of you and it's not like you get to see it everyday or whenever you wanna. right? so it's more like this Discovery Channel thingy about flies. so, crazy me finds it so funny and excited that i actually took a picture of them. WHAT?!! yes, i took a picture of them. so have you seen flies doin stuff? there you have it.



then a few days after that, my younger sis was goin to take her shower and she closed the window in the bathroom. after closing the window, she saw some weird stuff on the window, but she couldn't see clearly what's there because she is short-sighted and she's not wearing her glasses. being curious, she went and took her glasses and she started laughing but felt disgusted and pity. she called for me and i went to have a look at what's that. OMG!! she accidently squashed a lizard (is lizard an insect? nvm), not like totally squashed till flat but it got trapped. eeEWWW...so disgusting leh. neither of us dare to open the window and let it go because both of us are afraid of lizards, and the others were sleeping. eeeEEEE...I HATE LIZARDS!! so till the next morning, my bro saw it and when he opened the window, it was dead. a lesson to be learnt by all other lizards. don't come into my house. hahaha.... and yes, being the crazy me again, i took a picture of it.


Tadaaaa

went karaoke-ing with Tracy and Shi Han aka Sambrat at Redbox, The Curve yesterday. i've never 'cheong k' for years and never will i actually think of going because i sing like a crow. yes i can't sing, though i was in a choir when i was in primary school. and hello, i used to be a soprano. (@_@) i'm darn serious. but after the transition from childhood to maturity, my voice changed and now i sounds like a crow. ^^

so it was Shi Han's idea that we should go 'cheong k' and he was there an hour earlier because Tracy and i were stucked in the traffic. it was actually very fun, both Tracy and i were singing like crazy, more like screaming at the top of our lungs. on the other hand, Mr.Sambrat sings very very well. but most of the songs he sings, we youngsters cannot 'tahan punya'; oldies leh, like really classic kinda songs. moreover, they're in Chinese!! *faint* he's like this one old man who got trap in a young man's body. yet no doubt, he is GOOD.

after screaming for hours, we went to meet Jo who came over to have dinner with us. and after dinner, Jo left home and 3 of us went over to Mystery Pub and Cafe. the live band sucks big time. they can't sing, they can't dance. they should pack their bags and go home. Sambrat said i can sing better than them. they sing not just like crows, but like toads too. really bad. boo boo to them.

we left soon after we finished our drinks and went over to Royale Bintang Hotel. Nikki came and joined us later and we had great times chatting for hours, with only a bottle of water (my bottle of water) for the 4 of us. to quench our thirst within that few hours, a bottle is obviously not enough. so we filled the bottle with tap water for a few times. it's crazy yet fun. all in all, it was a wonderful time spent with my beloved friends.

22nd March was Rosh's birthday. we had dinner together (Sam, Andres, Rosh & myself) at Swensen's on 21st March right after work. after dinner, Andres fetched Sam home and Rosh and i headed to Sunway Pyramid. her friends, together with my bro celebrated her birthday later at night at Kim Gary. unfortunately, i wasn't there because i left for home early. it's not that i don't wanna, i just can't because i was the only one who has to work on the following day. but before i left, i got her a cake. though it's a small one (there's no bigger one there), she's happy and i know, she loves it. and as for her birthday present, Sam and i both shared and got her a lingerie with roses from La Senza. and of coz, she loves it too. that's because she's CRAZY about roses and strawberries.
~Rosh my lovely lou poh, Happy Belated Birthday!~


Rosh's birthday cake that is.

i had my hair chopped yesterday at Thomas & Guys. HE (my hair stylist) doesn't seem to understand English well i suppose. first, i told him that i wanted my hair cut till my armpit length, and i pointed it to him too, which later makes me wonder, is he blind? secondly, i told him that i wanted some layer which in the end turn out to be...i don't know what. then i'm wondering again, is he deaf as well? the end result turned out to be SO U-G-L-Y. Rosh and JuenLim were saying that i look good in my new hair, which i think it was at first. not until i washed my hair later that i notice that it's so ugly. i think it looked good at first because they blow my hair after the haircut (you know, they can really blow your hair real nice). when i had a proper look at my hair after i washed it this morning, it looks not even close to layer and it's so damn short, it's until my shoulder length. how am i suppose to tie my hair now?! i must tie my hair to work. now when i tie my hair, it looks like Tweety Bird's tail. "hi my name is Tweety, and i tawt i taw a puddy tat! i did, i did taw a puddy tat!". *faints* and when i let my hair down, it seriously looks like a broom. A BROOM!! bah, i hate my hair. i hope it'll look better when it's longer. let's give it a month or two. i think i'm not going back there again.

it has been quite some time since i last went to the cinema. the last movie i've ever watched was The Exorcism of Emily Rose and that was on 11th November 2005. \(@_@)/ that's long right? yes i know, it's crazy. unbelievable!! so on the 7th February 2007, i went for my first movie of the year with my bro. honestly i don't even know about the movie until my bro sent me the trailer. thought it was funny but it turned out to be stupid. damn L-A-M-E!! bah... Epic Movie that is. but i did have a couple of good laughs, yet i still find it stupid.

on the way back, bro's car was being a lil notty. his car stalled. guess the car 'merajuk' after he pimped his ride couple of days ago. haha...a pimp wannabe but 'tak jadi'. luckily his friend, Wong was somewhere around and he came to the rescue. i've never pushed a car before until that night, my first time. i know, i'm crazy for being all excited about it. but it's fun. i've always seen it but never done it before, but now i have. *wink*

Xian, China

i was supposed to write about this trip of mine since last year, but it turns out that yours truly here is VERY lazy that she postpone it until now. *wink* so here goes... basically, i couldn't really remember what happened or what i've done throughout the whole trip (this is what happens when you postpone everything, duh.. yours truly doesn't have a very good memory, suffering from short-term memory loss ok) but i'll try to recall them back.

so this time i went to Xian, China (16th May 2006). it's a 4 days 3 nights trip and we stayed in Hyatt Regency, Xian. our hotel is situated along the Dongda Jie, and we were told that the road is a NO SMOKING ROAD. -_-! those who were caught fagging along the road will be fined, couldn't really remember how much but i guess it's RMB100, equivalent to approximately RM50. \(@_@)/!!

we followed a tour on our 2nd day in Xian, visiting places of course. the whole tour cost us RMB328 per person, including the entrance tickets plus a lunch. it covered 4 Xian's attractions; Xian City Wall, Huaqing Pool/Hot Spring, Mausoleum of Emperor Qin Shi Huang and of course, the most important of all, Museum of Qin Terra Cotta Warriors And Horses.

on the 3rd day, we went to the Muslim Street. i got myself a name stamp there (in Chinese characters) that cost me RMB30. cheap right? we then went for a whole body massage, RMB30 for a 45 minutes massage. and since i seriously couldn't remember much, let's just let the pictures do the talking then.

Xian City Wall

Our bus.











Wicked!!




Huaqing Pool

Lady Yang.








Beautiful, aint' it?

Mausoleum of Emperor Qin Shi Huang






Museum of Qin Terra Cotta Warriors and Horses
Pit 1

It's soOO AMAZZZZING!!













Pit 3











Pit 2










There's some colour left on the armor and look at the shoe sole. So real...\(@_@)/!!

















My very own Terra Cotta Warriors and Horse. =)