you know what, i think i'm ready to let go of this long friendship of mine with my best friend. i don't see the point that we should patch things up since she's ready to let go of this friendship too. yeah, it's sad indeed. but even if we've saved this friendship, it WILL never be the same. it will be awkward, weird and simply different. having to secure such a long friendship with someone who's so close to you for years, someone who used to be a part of yourself, and then in a minute, it all just went pfft like that, well it's hard. yet life goes on. there's no point agonizing about something that brings us nowhere (although it's worth agonizing about it for the first few weeks). as for now, i don't wanna care about anything else but to go on with my life (hopefully i can). life is just too short for me to waste time in this. i was told that life is just so unpredictable. yes it's true. and i was told to enjoy every second in life and do whatever that makes me happy. so i'm trying to not to grieve about this too much since it'll bring me to nowhere. i'll learn to accept it and go on with my life. perhaps this is what God wanted it to be, perhaps it's a learning path that God has created. i think...it's the end of it. take care, my good old friend..

"sorry guys for being sandwiched in between us two. i know it's very hard for you people, but...sorry."