it has been exactly 2 weeks since my bestie friend and i had an argument. 2 weeks of silence, no sms-es, no calls, no messages, NOTHING. recovery should be done quick if we wanted this friendship to last. but i don't think she's going to take the first action, so am i. i know we're both wrong. there's this saying, "when there is an argument, no one can say whether one is right or wrong. both parties are wrong. the one who is right is the one who apologize first". however, this time, i do not want to be the one who's right. i'm tired of making the apology first everytime. being stubborn will not bring me anywhere, but i'll just stick to it and wait. sad to say, i'm having this strong instinct telling me that she's willing to let go of this friendship. hope that i'm wrong.

there are too many bad things happening lately. last month, a friend's friend past away due to cancer. 2 weeks ago, i had a huge argument with my best friend. then, another friend's friend past away. then Sam's cars were hit by a drunk driver. last week Karen was admitted to the hospital due to appendicitis. the very next day i accidently tripped and fell, had minor injuries of course. and yesterday, i accidently (don't even know how) sprain my lower back. it's aching badly and the pain causes my entire body to ache as well and i'm developing fever due to that. i hope it'll gets better as i do not want to get MC. but if it never gets any better, i think i should see the doctor soon. lets pray that August will be a start to better days.