you know what, i think i'm ready to let go of this long friendship of mine with my best friend. i don't see the point that we should patch things up since she's ready to let go of this friendship too. yeah, it's sad indeed. but even if we've saved this friendship, it WILL never be the same. it will be awkward, weird and simply different. having to secure such a long friendship with someone who's so close to you for years, someone who used to be a part of yourself, and then in a minute, it all just went pfft like that, well it's hard. yet life goes on. there's no point agonizing about something that brings us nowhere (although it's worth agonizing about it for the first few weeks). as for now, i don't wanna care about anything else but to go on with my life (hopefully i can). life is just too short for me to waste time in this. i was told that life is just so unpredictable. yes it's true. and i was told to enjoy every second in life and do whatever that makes me happy. so i'm trying to not to grieve about this too much since it'll bring me to nowhere. i'll learn to accept it and go on with my life. perhaps this is what God wanted it to be, perhaps it's a learning path that God has created. i think...it's the end of it. take care, my good old friend..

"sorry guys for being sandwiched in between us two. i know it's very hard for you people, but...sorry."

lately the weather has gone crazy and everyone is falling sick. so was i. i was sick from 27th July (my off day ar) for 1 whole week. INSANE!! but the i-think-i'm-a-superwoman ME did not go to the doctor because i thought it's nothing big. it first started with the pain i had on my back. i think i accidently sprained my back when i sneezed. so 'keng' right? i tried using Yoko Yoko but it did not work. it then developed into fever due to the pain and i kinda lost my appetite too. =(

on the 30th July, i had to force myself up and go to work with all the pain and headache i had. it's torturing but luckily, it was a short day (very short shift). however, i was on standby from 31st July till 2nd August and i was called up to work on 31st July. fortunately it was another short day and my fellow colleagues were so nice that they kept making me laughed and eventually, i forgot about the pain i had. people said that laughter is the best medicine, i kinda believe in that because once i got home, i fell terribly sick again. luckily a friend came to the rescue. "thanks for all the sms-es you sent. really helps a lot." thank God they did not called me up on 1st August or i'll die straight away. i knew i should see the doctor by now and so i decided to go home on the 2nd August after my standby (hoping that office will not call me and i can go home and visit the doctor). but no, stupid officer called me in the end and i've got to work. bah....what a life.

the thing is i've never been so sick for so long in my entire life (i guess). and losing my appetite altogether, that's crazy. so from 45kg (i know i'm underweight, so what), i shed 2kg in a week and that makes me 43kg. (@_@) BUT once i recovered since 2 days ago, i gained my appetite back and now i'm back to 45kg!! extra 2kg in just 2 days?!! that's amazing!!

it has been exactly 2 weeks since my bestie friend and i had an argument. 2 weeks of silence, no sms-es, no calls, no messages, NOTHING. recovery should be done quick if we wanted this friendship to last. but i don't think she's going to take the first action, so am i. i know we're both wrong. there's this saying, "when there is an argument, no one can say whether one is right or wrong. both parties are wrong. the one who is right is the one who apologize first". however, this time, i do not want to be the one who's right. i'm tired of making the apology first everytime. being stubborn will not bring me anywhere, but i'll just stick to it and wait. sad to say, i'm having this strong instinct telling me that she's willing to let go of this friendship. hope that i'm wrong.

there are too many bad things happening lately. last month, a friend's friend past away due to cancer. 2 weeks ago, i had a huge argument with my best friend. then, another friend's friend past away. then Sam's cars were hit by a drunk driver. last week Karen was admitted to the hospital due to appendicitis. the very next day i accidently tripped and fell, had minor injuries of course. and yesterday, i accidently (don't even know how) sprain my lower back. it's aching badly and the pain causes my entire body to ache as well and i'm developing fever due to that. i hope it'll gets better as i do not want to get MC. but if it never gets any better, i think i should see the doctor soon. lets pray that August will be a start to better days.

it was supposed to be a fun night out, but in the end, it turned out to be a nightmare, a disaster. an incident that i have never ever thought that it could have happened to me, an incident that i know will haunt me forever, an incident that i wish it was just a dream. i had my first and worst argument with my best friend, a friend whom i've known for years. she used to be a part of me, and now it seems like she's slowly slipping away. we've known each other for years, we've shared our ups and downs together, sadness and laughter, we've had misunderstandings, disagreements but we've never had an argument, not until today; our first and largest one ever.

shits happened that night, lots of factors contributed to the start of the bitter argument, it's too long of a story. then i've been thinking, what triggered her emotion that causes her to lose her temper just like that, all of a sudden as i've NEVER seen her acting like that before. i tried to listen and keep my mouth shut because i do not want to make things worst, but i have my limits too. in the end, i kinda lost my patience and tolerance, that i couldn't take her shouting and blaming any longer and that's when i burst out as well. i couldn't take it already, that it's as if EVERYTIME and EVERYTHING was my fault and she's being unreasonable and ridiculous. it was HORRENDOUS.

i do wish that it is just a dream, that when i wake up from the dream, everything is back to normal again, as if nothing has happened. but as i woke up and opened my eyes, i know that everything is real and i'm still in disbelief. i have to accept the fact that it does happened. time is all i need to heal the wound. whatever it is, i know that our so-called lifetime friendship will never be the same again, and it never will. i'm losing my very one and true best friend. it's indescribable. i'll never forget 15th July 2007.

"Wong, i'm extremely sorry for getting you into this and please don't feel bad and start blaming on yourself because it's not your fault. i'm so embarrass that you and the guys have to see all these. thank you so much for the concern and words of encouragement. and Andy Wong, thanks for the call and concern. all the best to you in Beijing."

bro has left for Denmark to work yesterday evening. it was sad that i couldn't send him off. however, i'll be seeing him in August, he's coming back for his graduation. he was supposed to leave for Denmark around August but he got a call on Sunday telling him that he should be there soon. what a sudden notice. just so you know, he was supposed to be a pilot (his childhood dream) with Singapore Airlines after graduating with a degree in electrical engineering, but then he was offered a job in Denmark at the same time, that was like in November last year. "Dad" told him to take the job offer in Denmark as it is a very rare opportunity and that he shouldn't miss it. and so he chose to let go of his childhood dream.

it was indeed a very tough decision for him to make, and choosing to let go of his own childhood dream, it must be really hard for him and he must be really sad about it. and so, being a sis, i got him an aircraft model for his birthday. since he couldn't fulfil his dream to become a pilot, getting him an aircraft model is the least i can do. and i know, he loves it very much and i'm glad he does.





That Lego represents himself. cute..

[Source: pictures were taken by bro himself]

"although we've just got reunited, although i don't really know you well, you're really like a bro to me. somehow it feels like it, like you're part of the family (we really are family, in a way right?). it doesn't matter what you feel, as for me, you'll always be my notty bro, the notty Patrick and i'll always be the notty Spongebob. wishing you all the best and take care!!"

i've watched another movie, no it's not Transformers. was supposed to watch that but the tickets were all sold out. what a bummer! and so, we watched something else, and i LOVE it so much. Dead Silence that is. you scream, you DIEee...

why can't these people open their eyes widely and see clearly that I'M A FREAKING CHINESE!! i thought that it's over since i've never heard anything about this for months. but no, it will never stop, it will never come to an end. it's inevitable. huhuu....i'm so pissed that i can curse the whole world. grrrRR....

i finished work pretty late yesterday and took a cab back home. the cab driver decided to stop by the gas station to pump some fuel. since there's a drive-thru McD and i was so hungry, i decided to go grab something for myself. when i was walking out from the restaurant and heading towards the cab, a man approached me and handed me a book. i shook my head and walked away. but that man doesn't give up, he followed me and insisted that i should take the book and he said that it's FREE. to stop him from annoying me, i decided to take the book and ciao. just as i was about to take the book, that man said that i should give him some money, for donation. WTF MAN!! didn't you just mentioned that the book is for FREE?! crazy fella still asked for money, for donation. what's the point saying that it's free then, you tell me. so out of curiousity, i was wondering what's so special about the book that i was holding. had a look at it and the front page itself is written in Jawi. -_-"" felt insulted and offended, i seriously feel like throwing the book right at his face. and of course, i did not. handed it back to him and said "saya orang Cina la" (i'm a Chinese). 'pengsan' ok.

then this morning, while i was waiting for my cab to work, another stupid guy came to me just to ask, "you Melayu kah?". war lau eh...*vomit blood* i replied, "CHINESE LA, YOU STUPID!!" no offence to others, (i'm the one who got offended leh), but it's plain stupid lor. just because i was wearing kebaya at that time, that doesn't mean that i'm a Malay. it's like if you're wearing a cheongsam, it doesn't mean that you're a Chinese, and same goes to wearing a saree or punjabi salwar suit, that doesn't mean that you're an Indian. so open your eyes and see nicely people. i'm very fair and i look so Chinese ok.

time has gone by so quickly and everything seems to change. people changed and so do i. some people just couldn't accept it, neither do i. but i'm slowly accepting it. some people like the changes, some don't. some love the old Trish whom i used to be, some like the new Trish, who i am now. whatever it is, Trish will always be Trish. i've changed, i believe everyone does. so let's embrace it.

yet it's still another ordinary day. NO IT'S NOT! it's my birthday ok. but still, it's just another ordinary day, ain't it? it's not like you're going to get a day off from work just because it's your birthday. but guess what, i was off on my birthday. hah...how lucky. what? you're jealous? you don't give a damn? it doesn't matter because it's my BIRTHDAY!! well birthday is the day when you'll be pampered with gifts, free meal and yadda yadda yadda. so it's a special day right? honestly, i don't think it's special. it's just another ordinary day. bah i'm going nuts..

~Happy Belated Birthday To Me~~

food foOD FOOD..time for some pictures of food. yummy, delicious and keep craving for more..

Chopstik Noodle House

Dim sum.


And another one.


Set lunch; prawn noodle in superior soup, a hot dessert (peanut butter) and sugar cane drink.

Taipei, Taiwan

Fresh fruits from Shi Lin night market.


A closer look, the fruits are all so fresh and sweet. yum yum..


One big, juicy and sweet strawberry.


Trust me, this is really good; shaved ice with mangoes, strawberries and condensed milk. *slurp slurp*

Haagen Dazs Fondue




Uh...what a sinful treat.

it's nothing huge, yet it's something rather unbelieveable; i've watched my third movie of the year. what a WOW indeed!! seriously, i know it's not a big thing, but to my friends who know me, it is something big to them. i told jie about it and the look that he gave me was this ---> \(O.O)/ and the first thing he said was, "ARE YOU TRISH?!! YOU WATCH MOVIES?!! SINCE WHEN?!!". -_-" anyhow, back to the topic. watched Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer yesterday.



thanks to Jo, we had free tickets to catch the exclusive premiere screening at GSC, Mid Valley. the movie was ok, not too bad and not that good. but Silver Surfer is cool.

my second movie of the year; Blades of Glory.. highly recommended by Shi Han. it's a hilarious movie. was laughing my ass out the entire time. though all of us were suffering from neck pain (we were seated at the second row from the front), we had a great laugh and enjoyed it very much.

Lee San is in town again!! she's back for a month before leaving for Canada..again. so yesterday i was forced to follow her and Nikki to the airport to welcome some of her Canadian friends, who are here for internship. i was so tired because i was working till late on the day before. but i've been thinking, since we don't get to hang out together that often and she's leaving for Canada and God knows when will she be back here again, i decided why not. for Lee San, this time. see, i'm so nice to you, Lee San. ngek ngek.. oh and just so you know, Lee San has got a job offer in Canada. that's awesome.

we left home quite early yesterday, went to pick Nikki up and went for brunch before heading to the airport. then wonderful Lee San forgot to bring her Canadian flags with her, and she actually decided to go all the way home, from PJ back to Klang again, just to get the flags. CRAZEEE!!! that's what best describe us. :D Nikki and i were assigned to hold the flags and swing them when we see the Canadians coming thru the arrival hall. it's stupid and we both looked like retards yet it's hilarious.

we had a long, tiring and sweaty day. from the airport, we followed the bus fetching the Canadians to where they're staying (Lee San wanted to know where are they staying), then from there, we brought the Canadians around to Petaling Street by foot under scorching sun, to Central Market onwards to the LRT station opposite Central Market. from there, the Canadians got themselves a ticket each to KLCC and three of us adjourned to Sunway, meeting the rest for dinner.

the most embarrassing moment of the day was, travelling with two Canadian flags sticking out of the car, all the way from the airport to the Canadians' place in KL. EVERYONE WAS LOOKING AT US!! so embarrassing...

this is a random one, mainly about insects. couple of days ago, i was goin to close the sliding window in my bro's room when something caught my eyes. i saw, right in front of me, 2 flies having an intimate moment together. \(@_@)/ wasn't i amazed? i was!! it's not like i'm this one crazy maniac but i just think that it's amazing. i mean it's not easy to see one like live right in front of you and it's not like you get to see it everyday or whenever you wanna. right? so it's more like this Discovery Channel thingy about flies. so, crazy me finds it so funny and excited that i actually took a picture of them. WHAT?!! yes, i took a picture of them. so have you seen flies doin stuff? there you have it.



then a few days after that, my younger sis was goin to take her shower and she closed the window in the bathroom. after closing the window, she saw some weird stuff on the window, but she couldn't see clearly what's there because she is short-sighted and she's not wearing her glasses. being curious, she went and took her glasses and she started laughing but felt disgusted and pity. she called for me and i went to have a look at what's that. OMG!! she accidently squashed a lizard (is lizard an insect? nvm), not like totally squashed till flat but it got trapped. eeEWWW...so disgusting leh. neither of us dare to open the window and let it go because both of us are afraid of lizards, and the others were sleeping. eeeEEEE...I HATE LIZARDS!! so till the next morning, my bro saw it and when he opened the window, it was dead. a lesson to be learnt by all other lizards. don't come into my house. hahaha.... and yes, being the crazy me again, i took a picture of it.


Tadaaaa

went karaoke-ing with Tracy and Shi Han aka Sambrat at Redbox, The Curve yesterday. i've never 'cheong k' for years and never will i actually think of going because i sing like a crow. yes i can't sing, though i was in a choir when i was in primary school. and hello, i used to be a soprano. (@_@) i'm darn serious. but after the transition from childhood to maturity, my voice changed and now i sounds like a crow. ^^

so it was Shi Han's idea that we should go 'cheong k' and he was there an hour earlier because Tracy and i were stucked in the traffic. it was actually very fun, both Tracy and i were singing like crazy, more like screaming at the top of our lungs. on the other hand, Mr.Sambrat sings very very well. but most of the songs he sings, we youngsters cannot 'tahan punya'; oldies leh, like really classic kinda songs. moreover, they're in Chinese!! *faint* he's like this one old man who got trap in a young man's body. yet no doubt, he is GOOD.

after screaming for hours, we went to meet Jo who came over to have dinner with us. and after dinner, Jo left home and 3 of us went over to Mystery Pub and Cafe. the live band sucks big time. they can't sing, they can't dance. they should pack their bags and go home. Sambrat said i can sing better than them. they sing not just like crows, but like toads too. really bad. boo boo to them.

we left soon after we finished our drinks and went over to Royale Bintang Hotel. Nikki came and joined us later and we had great times chatting for hours, with only a bottle of water (my bottle of water) for the 4 of us. to quench our thirst within that few hours, a bottle is obviously not enough. so we filled the bottle with tap water for a few times. it's crazy yet fun. all in all, it was a wonderful time spent with my beloved friends.

22nd March was Rosh's birthday. we had dinner together (Sam, Andres, Rosh & myself) at Swensen's on 21st March right after work. after dinner, Andres fetched Sam home and Rosh and i headed to Sunway Pyramid. her friends, together with my bro celebrated her birthday later at night at Kim Gary. unfortunately, i wasn't there because i left for home early. it's not that i don't wanna, i just can't because i was the only one who has to work on the following day. but before i left, i got her a cake. though it's a small one (there's no bigger one there), she's happy and i know, she loves it. and as for her birthday present, Sam and i both shared and got her a lingerie with roses from La Senza. and of coz, she loves it too. that's because she's CRAZY about roses and strawberries.
~Rosh my lovely lou poh, Happy Belated Birthday!~


Rosh's birthday cake that is.

i had my hair chopped yesterday at Thomas & Guys. HE (my hair stylist) doesn't seem to understand English well i suppose. first, i told him that i wanted my hair cut till my armpit length, and i pointed it to him too, which later makes me wonder, is he blind? secondly, i told him that i wanted some layer which in the end turn out to be...i don't know what. then i'm wondering again, is he deaf as well? the end result turned out to be SO U-G-L-Y. Rosh and JuenLim were saying that i look good in my new hair, which i think it was at first. not until i washed my hair later that i notice that it's so ugly. i think it looked good at first because they blow my hair after the haircut (you know, they can really blow your hair real nice). when i had a proper look at my hair after i washed it this morning, it looks not even close to layer and it's so damn short, it's until my shoulder length. how am i suppose to tie my hair now?! i must tie my hair to work. now when i tie my hair, it looks like Tweety Bird's tail. "hi my name is Tweety, and i tawt i taw a puddy tat! i did, i did taw a puddy tat!". *faints* and when i let my hair down, it seriously looks like a broom. A BROOM!! bah, i hate my hair. i hope it'll look better when it's longer. let's give it a month or two. i think i'm not going back there again.

it has been quite some time since i last went to the cinema. the last movie i've ever watched was The Exorcism of Emily Rose and that was on 11th November 2005. \(@_@)/ that's long right? yes i know, it's crazy. unbelievable!! so on the 7th February 2007, i went for my first movie of the year with my bro. honestly i don't even know about the movie until my bro sent me the trailer. thought it was funny but it turned out to be stupid. damn L-A-M-E!! bah... Epic Movie that is. but i did have a couple of good laughs, yet i still find it stupid.

on the way back, bro's car was being a lil notty. his car stalled. guess the car 'merajuk' after he pimped his ride couple of days ago. haha...a pimp wannabe but 'tak jadi'. luckily his friend, Wong was somewhere around and he came to the rescue. i've never pushed a car before until that night, my first time. i know, i'm crazy for being all excited about it. but it's fun. i've always seen it but never done it before, but now i have. *wink*

Xian, China

i was supposed to write about this trip of mine since last year, but it turns out that yours truly here is VERY lazy that she postpone it until now. *wink* so here goes... basically, i couldn't really remember what happened or what i've done throughout the whole trip (this is what happens when you postpone everything, duh.. yours truly doesn't have a very good memory, suffering from short-term memory loss ok) but i'll try to recall them back.

so this time i went to Xian, China (16th May 2006). it's a 4 days 3 nights trip and we stayed in Hyatt Regency, Xian. our hotel is situated along the Dongda Jie, and we were told that the road is a NO SMOKING ROAD. -_-! those who were caught fagging along the road will be fined, couldn't really remember how much but i guess it's RMB100, equivalent to approximately RM50. \(@_@)/!!

we followed a tour on our 2nd day in Xian, visiting places of course. the whole tour cost us RMB328 per person, including the entrance tickets plus a lunch. it covered 4 Xian's attractions; Xian City Wall, Huaqing Pool/Hot Spring, Mausoleum of Emperor Qin Shi Huang and of course, the most important of all, Museum of Qin Terra Cotta Warriors And Horses.

on the 3rd day, we went to the Muslim Street. i got myself a name stamp there (in Chinese characters) that cost me RMB30. cheap right? we then went for a whole body massage, RMB30 for a 45 minutes massage. and since i seriously couldn't remember much, let's just let the pictures do the talking then.

Xian City Wall

Our bus.











Wicked!!




Huaqing Pool

Lady Yang.








Beautiful, aint' it?

Mausoleum of Emperor Qin Shi Huang






Museum of Qin Terra Cotta Warriors and Horses
Pit 1

It's soOO AMAZZZZING!!













Pit 3











Pit 2










There's some colour left on the armor and look at the shoe sole. So real...\(@_@)/!!

















My very own Terra Cotta Warriors and Horse. =)

look at what Tracy has got for me from Bandung, Indonesia.
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it's Patrick and Spongebob!! they're made of chocolate. aren't they adorable? i don't think i'll be eating them until....2 weeks before the expiring date?? haha...we'll see...they're too cute to be eaten.

yesterday, Tracy came all the way from Klang to Bukit Jalil to fetch me and we went back to Klang again, just for dinner. so we had porridge steamboat with Amy, the birthday gal and later Tracia (Tracy's cousin) joined us. we ate like nobody's business. or should i said i ate like nobody's business. yeah, i ate hell a lot. Tracy and Amy were done eating when Tracia came, but i continued eating with her until the end. after dinner, Amy wanted us to go to Velvet Underground with her, as her friends will be there to celebrate her birthday. and again, it was a last minute plan for me and Tracy and since Tracia wanted to go, we decided to go ahead with it, with a condition, i gotta go back by 1:30am because i need to sleep, i gotta work on Sunday morning.

everyone went home to change except for me. and thanks to Tracia for driving that night. she's so nice to drop me at my place in Bukit Jalil, i had a quick change and there, we're ready to party. i text bro and told him that i'll be hitting Velvet that night and coincidently, he's going there too.

shits happened that night and Tracia, Tracy and i were so pissed. when it was 1:30am, we were already out from Velvet but after some discussion with the gals, we decided to stay because we were mad and discontented (not because we need to go back early, but because of that certain shits that happened). and because of that, i sacrificed my sleeping time willingly and it's definitely worth doing so. besides the whole shitty thing, it was a fun night. bro introduced me to his friends, unfortunately i couldn't remember most of their names, except for this gal, Cristty, a hot babe who won the FHM Girl Next Door contest.

went home and Rosh was awake. we talked for a while before i finally crashed on my bed. had only 4 hours sleep and i gotta wake up and got myself ready for work. was tired but it was all good. and now, it's time to sleep again..nites.