i think she feels a lil left out. i think she feels neglected. i think i've hurt her in a way which i don't mean to. i think she doesn't know that she has hurt me in a way that she doesn't mean to. i think i've made her change her thought about me. and i think she likes me less. now that we're both working and we're on a different path, we tend to fall apart and see each other less. we don't seem to be as close as how we used to be. we don't seem to know each other as well as we used to know. we've not seen each other for weeks and we sms/call each other less. "why must these happen to us?! is it me who has changed, or is it you who has become so different?" but i think it's the both of us. i've been asking her out quite often and everytime it's a failure. when she's free, i'm not and when i'm free, she's not. and usually when i'm free, Rosh is free too and we'll both be going out together, very often. when she knows that i'm out, she knows that i'm out with Rosh. is she jealous? will she be jealous? will she thinks that i'm leaving her out? it seems like, i'm the one who always put an effort to ask her out, and always it doesn't work. sometimes when i wanted to ask her out, i tend to have a second thought because i'm afraid that she might find me being irritating for asking her out so often. and sometimes i decided to do nothing and wait for her to ask me out. yet, for the past few weeks, she didn't text nor call. i don't wish that we'll end up like strangers. i don't wish that our friendship will end. and i don't wish that we'll be like this forever. just to let you know, you're always a friend whom i treasure the most.

well you see, maybe i'm just being over sensitive.