don't you just hate it when someone borrowed money from you and then pretended or acted as if there's nothing happening?! it's like they're taking money from you for FREE and then spent it and acted as if that's their own money that they are spending. gosh!! people like them are so IRRESPONSIBLE and UNRELIABLE. they did not intend to pay and they didn't even anticipate to pay you back. best of all, they must be hoping that you'll be too shy to ask from them, hoping that you'll be quiet forever, hoping that you'll forget about it soon, and let them enjoy the bonus they've got from you, and then make fun of you for being so STUPID! indeed this is how i'm feeling right now, i'm feeling so STUPID!!

you see, two of my colleagues borrowed money from me few days ago and yup, the stupid me who's trying to be nice, lent them some money and until now, i've never heard anything from them nor have i receive a penny from them. well there's no one else to blame except for me. i'm always this stupid!! that's not like the first time it happened to me. even some of my very own friends who borrowed money from me did not return me back even a penny, and when we were out together, they could just ignore and pretend as if they didn't owe me anything. i'm just trying to be nice and kind and help whenever i can, but it ended up that i'm the stupid one. well i'm not going to wait any longer, i'm going to ask for my money back from that two colleagues of mine who actually disgraced themselves.

i bought another insurance for myself yesterday. i'm going to suffer every month, going to struggle to pay for my premiums every month. man, i'm going to be SO DAMN BROKE!!

bro is leaving for UK next month. he's going to New Castle to study. he was supposed to go to Australia to study but he suddenly changed his mind. i have no idea why. maybe it's because of his friends, most of them are going to New Castle. well it's all up to him. i don't know what's going to happen to my parents by then.

i don't get it. i don't know what is so wrong with me wearing PINK instead of BLACK. yes i know that i'm this funky gal who loves black, but that doesn't mean that i can't wear pink, right? i might be this tough looking gal or should i say i'm like a tomboy, but that doesn't mean that i can't be feminine, right? i love wearing pants especially jeans and sneakers but that doesn't mean that i can't wear skirts and heels, right? stop teasing me if i look different to you guys, ok?? just give me a break, will ya?? after all, i'm still a FREAKING FEMALE!