I almost got myself killed...

i couldn't remember what time it was, but it was late at night on 26th Feb. i was sleeping at my place in Bukit Jalil and felt like peeing, so i woke up and dragged myself to the door. i unlocked the doorknob, opened and closed the door and went to the loo. when i was about the enter my room again, there it was...i couldn't opened the door. i tried twisting the doorknob again, to my horror, the door was locked. i must have accidently locked the doorknob after unlocking it just now. I WAS SO FUCKED!!

suddenly i was wide awake, eyes wide opened, heart was beating like crazy and i told myself, "I'M SO DEAD!!". no one's at home, my phone was in the room, we don't have a house phone, my keys were in the room too. there's nothing i can do. it's around midnight and neighbours must have been sleeping. even if they're awake, i couldn't call for help because i did not have the key to the main door. and all i knew was, i need to get in to the room.

there were times when i went nuts. i knew. thank God. twice, i actually went over to the balcony and decided to climb over and enter my room through the window. crazy, i know. but i was lucky because my conscious hit me at the right time. otherwise, i'll be one of the main highlights in the paper the next day. no, i'm not joking. i looked at the window, then looked down, climbed on the chair in the balcony and i tried to figure a way, a strategy to climb over. fyi, i live on the 19th floor. during that two times, i heard voices telling me that i'm not a super hero, i can't fly, i'll definitely fall and die. i stepped down from the chair and thank God for not doing so. no, it's not funny.

i finally managed to find a screwdriver. without hesitation and thinking about the after consequences, with all my might, i tried anything i could to open the door. i kicked, i thumped, i pricked, everything... i was soaking wet, like totally wet with sweat. it took me hours and i finally managed to get myself in. THANK GOD!! i wasn't happy, i wasn't relieved, i felt nothing, i totally felt numb.

grabbed my towel, took a shower. came out, decided to give Him a call, but then i knew, i shouldn't. took two panadols and went to bed. i knew my body will ache the following day and it's true. when i woke up the following day, my body ached like crazy. when i showered, i noticed bruises all over my body. then i took a look at the door, i knew i'm in deep shit. my friend's mom is so going to kill me. fyi, she already dislikes me, i'm in her blacklist. but i must let her know, so i called her and told her about everything. told her that i'll pay for the new door too. and yeah, my friend told me that her parents were pretty mad at me. but i guess all that matters now is, i'm still alive.