whee...yours truly got a new phone already. bought it on the 1st November and i bought the Samsung SGH-D900, one of the 3 Ultra Edition phones. wanted to get the E900 at first, but after listening to what bro's said, i finally decided to get the D900. it has better features (of course, it's later than E900) and they only differ by RM200. so why not, right? so happy but i'm poorer by a thousand plus now. poor as a church mouse. =( i still have so many things to buy. hopefully i'll be able to get maybe not all, but most of them by the end of the year. so what am i getting?

1 - a new wallet (must have, current wallet looks so horrible, seriously horrible. perhaps i should take a pic of it just to prove how bad it is)
2 - a new pair of spectacles
3 - facial products; cleanser, toner and moisturizer finishing soon


Look at my wallet..

recently, i've done something that's terribly wrong. so wrong that i don't know why am i still doing it. it's something that i used to advise a friend not to fall for it, not to step into it, not to do it. but now, i myself am falling for it, stepping into it, doing it. that friend is going to think that i'm evil, she might think that i'm doing everything for my own good. she's so gonna kill me and hates me. how can she likes a friend who plays fast and loose? but it's always easier to advise people and it's always harder for ourselves to follow it. don't you agree?

i don't know if i should hate myself for what i've done, but i must say that i'm not proud either. i realize that my action might hurt someone else's heart, but at times it doesn't really bothers me. yes i know, i'm mean. all these while, i always thought that my willpower is strong enough. until yesterday, i found out that i'm wrong. i've lost my willpower, my self-control. i've gone further, i've crossed the line; the line that i always tell myself not to cross, as a single step over the line may ruin not only other people's life, but also mine. i'm jeopardizing my own life, how terrible can it sound?! i do know that my action might cause people to hate me, talking behind my back, labeling me with names..i should have known; those are the few consequences that i must be ready to take. but will i be strong enough to take them all?? do i regret for the things i've done? do i feel stupid for my action? wouldn't i feel shy when meeting them, the people who have seen and heard about me? gosh...i really don't know. but to be honest, deep down inside, i do feel a lil happy bout it. omg...what the HELL am i thinking!!!

Trey said that i'm old enough to take care of myself. i'm old enough to make my own judgement. i'm old enough to know what i want and what i'm doing. but i think i disappoint her, i just proved to her that she's wrong. regret or not, guess it doesn't matter now, for everything has happened...already.

the other day i noticed that my place in Bukit Jalil is infested with hundreds and thousands of six-legged crawling insects; ANTS!! i F**CKING hate ants!! God knows where does this creature come from. it's like all of a sudden, everywhere i look i'll see them. they're really driving me crazy and soon i'll go insane. they're like...EVERYWHERE! first, i spotted some on the table in my room. as i was looking for more of them (i believe there'll be more), i saw an army of them happily feeding on a granola bar that Rosh brought. i wanted to kill them all but i do not have Shieldtox. so guess what i did. i took the whole bar and threw it out the window. whee...there goes all the ants, flying like a superman, i mean superants. haha... sorry la, i'm left with no choice but to throw them out the window. i started looking for the trail of the ants, see where they came from. but i still don't know where they're from. arghh...driving me crazy. they're like everywhere, even in my bag which i left on the floor where there's nothing sweet in the bag at all. i even spotted a couple of them on the bed. MY BED!! darn, i tell you they're so gonna die. no wonder lately i spotted some tiny red dots on my body and they itch. i bet it's those ants that bit me. i'm so gonna kill all of them. but how? burn all of them to hell?? i can't burn the house down. i wish that there's this poisonous smoke grenade that is harmless to us, the human and is so toxic to the ants. all i need to do is to throw one in the house - fire in the hole and close all the doors and windows and send all the ants straight to hell. but is there such thing?? i'm thinking too much again. gotta get an aerosol spray quick.

Kit Kat from Japan

From top to bottom: Fruit Parfait Kit Kat, Almond Kit Kat, The Universal Studios Japan 5 Years Anniversary Kit Kat (i guess it's just plain milk and white chocolate Kit Kat).





Fruit Parfait Kit Kat (yummy...)


Almond Kit Kat (tasted like cough medicine. no good..)


The Universal Studios Japan 5 Years Anniversary Kit Kat.

p/s: sorry for the crappy pictures. no skills la..

yours truly decided to get a new phone. not that i don't appreciate the new casing from HC, but i think it's time for me to change a new one, since almost everyone i know got a new phone lately. and besides, i think Mum needed a phone too, so i think this is a good opportunity and a good excuse for me to get a new phone for myself, and my old phone will be handed over to Mum. haha..so much for being a good daughter. hey, my phone is still new ok, currently am using Nokia 6610 (though it's a lil outdated la). so what phone am i getting, you asked? i'm looking at Samsung SGH-E900 now. i know, you must be wondering why Samsung? and i'll say, why not?! when i told jie that i might be getting a Samsung, he went like, "WHAT?!!!" wateva it is, it's up to me la, i like it so what. so i saw the E900 when i was in New Castle and the design is so sleek and nice. i fell in love with it right then and there and i told myself that i'll be getting that phone soon. however, my bro told me that i might wanna consider getting SGH-D900, which is not out in Malaysia yet. so if i'm to get D900, then i need to wait. war lau eh, money flowing out again. DIEEE.....

there are still many things that i wanted to get, but due to my current condition, i try to postpone as many as i can. to name a few, i wanted to get a pair of new glasses (postpone it for months already, the one i'm currently wearing, very old already leh, since 2003 ok), a new phone (still considering), a pair of new sneakers (my Adidas also very long already, since 2003 too). omg...where is my "Choy San Yeh" la???


SGH-E900


SGH-D900

[Source: http://www.samsungmobile.co.uk]

weeks ago, i was talking about trust and being unfaithful in a relationship, as in gf and bf. but now, i've been thinking (yes i think a lot), what about those who are already committed in a relationship, as in married couple? if one is married and committed, shouldn't he/she be loyal and faithful to his/her wife/husband? till death do us part?? yeah my a**. how can some come out and find someone else still?! that's like ber-scandaling. don't they feel sorry and guilty? don't they think about their wife and kids? sad to say, i've seen and know a lot of "this kind" of people.

but for now, who are we to blame? the husband/wife or the new gal/guy (third party)? most of the time, people tends to blame on the third party, for being a family ruiner. but is it like totally the third party's fault? i mean somehow he or she is wrong also la, since you know that fella is married, why do you still wanna get involve in something like that? i know, sometimes we just can't help it. feelings just came like THAT!! then how? blame on that fella for having such feelings?? dunno la. but then, sometimes it's not like totally the third party's fault. the husband/wife should be responsible too, don't you think? alright, i know what you're thinking now. so stop wondering. i sounded like i'm talking bout me right now, don't i? what if i'm to tell you that i'm in this situation now?? you're going to think that i'm a horrible person, don't you? but what if i tell you that i'm not in the situation. will you still believe me? i believe not, right? so WHATEVA..

New Castle Baybeh

so i'm in New Castle now and i must say that i hate all the memories that keep flashing back to me once i've step my foot into Heathrow Airport. it makes me wonder if i should be happy or sad to be back here again. all the feelings turn upside down, they're making me crazy. i think i'm thinking and feeling too much. these should stop.

so from Heathrow, we (Mum, Dad and i) headed straight to Victoria Coach Station to catch a coach to New Castle. i tell you, 13hours flight + 6 hours coach ride killed us all. already my bum is flat, after more than 20 hours sitting (19 hours + a couple of hours sitting at the station), i swear my bum is getting flatter by 2 inches now. serious shit!! we'll be spending most of our time in New Castle. we'll only be back to London on the 24th noon. at least we still have the whole evening and the whole noon on the 25th to spend before catching our flight back to Malaysia.

sighh..and once again, i don't know if i should be glad to be back here. being here again, it brought back many many things. things that i shouldn't remember but i'm remembering them still. i can never tell how much i miss London, how much i miss every little single moment that i've been thru, be it alone or with my friends. sometimes i just wished that i'm never here at the first place. at least i wouldn't be so nostalgic like now. whatever it is, we can never deny the fact that, i was here before...

alright, i'm going to Hong Kong or Taiwan no more. instead, i'm going to London bay beh... so office approved my leave application and the thought of going to Hong Kong or Taiwan has been changed to London. we've got our tickets already; Mum, Dad and i will be leaving for London on the 19th and be back on the 25th. so why changed to London all of a sudden?? i mean good la, i always wanted to go back there and now it's the time. well we're going to New Castle first, Mum and Dad wanted to visit bro first. we'll be there for a couple of days and then back to London for another couple of days before coming back here again. can't wait to go back to London.

~~LoNdOn BaY bEh...HeRe I cOmE...~~

p/s: i'm gonna be so FARKIN' broke man...darn.. but luckily Daddy will sponsor some money. hahaha...

June's Baby

You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around (really??). You love to make new friends and be outgoing (quite true). You are a great flirt (you've gotta be kiddin' me) and more than likely have a very attractive partner (where is he then?). A wicked hottie (rofl). It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! (this is really funny) In the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.

[Source: from a forwarded mail]

dinner at SOULed OUT with jie and Nikki yesterday evening (to celebrate jie's birthday which was on the 8th August). fish and chips for me, chicken chop for Nikki and curry laksa and dunno what beef stew for jie, and 3 of us shared an 8 inch pizza. 4 other friends came later and they had 3 jugs of beer while me, i had a glass of ice lemon tea (don't really like beer). after dinner, jie, Nikki, Beh and i headed to Matrix at Phileo Damansara for pool. it's been quite some time since we, the "Sam Chi Mui" hung out together. "ah ne, although you're not one of the "Sam Chi Mui" but you're always with us, but you la, balik Segamat dunno for what. dinner's on you when you're back. hehe..." =P

::~*HaPpY bElAtEd BiRtHdAy, JiE!!*~::

check this video out, super hilarious. *roflmao* saw it from xes' blog.

Japanese's English

i don't understand, how can a human be so unfaithful in a relationship? how can he/she be so disloyal and cheats behind his/her partner's back? being in a relationship, i believe TRUST is very very important. however, some of them do not understand the meaning of the word "TRUST". how can some betrayed the trust and go having fun with someone else and acted as if it's a very normal thing?! wouldn't they feel guilty? if they are SINGLE, i wouldn't even care if they go flirt around 24/7. but when you're attached, that i really don't understand.

last Sunday, a friend asked me and Rosh out for a drink at Cafe Flam. he brought two of his friends (a gal and a guy) along and one of them (the gal) turns out to be someone i knew. my impression of her was good until that night, the whole good impression was gone. all went down the drain. she has a bf but she can still go all around touchy with my friend and the other guy. it's normal if you dance with guys but she was too over; dirty dancing with both of them (this i don't really mind), but she went hugging this one guy, went all over him then changed to my friend and did the same thing. omg...i just couldn't stand looking at her. there's this time when Rosh told me that she saw that gal kissing the other guy. OMG!! best thing is she's staying with her bf. so that night, we don't know whether she went back to her bf or went home with the other guy coz Rosh and i left quite early. i mean if she's single, i wouldn't give a damn, but she's in a RELATIONSHIP. doesn't she feels guilty?

ok i've been talking too much that it makes me wonder, will i be doing the same thing like her? go flirting around even when i'm attached? i mean i know it's wrong (for now), but what if i'm to do the same thing one day, when i'm attached? gosh...too much thinking. better stop now..

i've never felt this way towards a guy his age before. i don't know what's wrong with me. i think i'm going crazy. i know this is not real. i know the feelings that i'm having now won't last long; it's just an infatuation. i know. guess it all happens just because of the way he treated me; very very sweet, he made me feels like a princess. of course he's not the only one, many have been treating me really nice, but somehow, he's different. the whole thing lasted for more than a week already, i hope it'll be gone soon.

life in Bukit Jalil = no internet + no astro = mental suicide...

whee..Fukuoka was fun though i did nothing much there except spending lotsa money on food (i spent more than ¥10000 just on food \(O_O)/). oh and please bare in mind that food in Japan is NOT cheap at all. bah...

i managed to contact Ami and we did met. she stole some time from work to come to my place in the evening. Japanese are real crazy hardworking homo sapiens. in another word, they're WORKAHOLIC. according to her, she works from 9:30am till 10pm and sometimes till midnight. WTF!! and you know, they don't have specific time for lunch unlike Malaysians, lunch time is probably 12noon-1pm or 1pm-2pm. for them, they'll eat when they're free. *faint* since she's so busy with her work, she only managed to drop by for 30 minutes and then back to her office again. i walked her to her office though it's raining outside. i lied to her that i wanted to get something from 7-11 instead. *wink* when i came back, my jeans, shoes and socks were soaking wet BUT it's all worth. =)

off to Fukuoka again, STD 0050 tomorrow morning. can't wait to meet Ami again. sent her an email but sad to say, there's no reply from her. guess she must be extremely busy. am going to call her when i'm there, hopefully she did not change her number. otherwise, what's the point for me to be there??

just sent my leave application to the office. applied for a week leave next month. don't really know why i applied it and not sure if they'll approve my application. if they approve it, probably i'll go for a holiday with parents. Mum said we could either go to Hong Kong or Taiwan. my bro, Kenneth has to eat Maggi and bread because he just got a new phone, Sony Ericsson W810i. while i have to eat Maggi and bread for spending too much money traveling.

Sam and i went to Mid Valley yesterday and we indulged ourselves with one of the most sinful treats ever; ice cream. first, we had the McDonald's sundae cone and continued walking around when suddenly we saw this banner saying that there's a newly open Haagen-Dazs. so is it newly open or what? we don't know coz it's been ages since the last time we went to Mid Valley. then and there, we know that we must have it and so we went for it, ice cream time again. Sam had the ... can't remember what and i had the waffle set. however, i was very disappointed with the Belgian waffle. *sucks* the best Belgian waffle i had was from the Haagen-Dazs in London. sweet and super yummy. *saliva drooling* ah..miss the waffle so much.

so birthday was on the 19th and it was supposed to be my off day too. but office called me on the 18th and told me to work on 18th evening till 19th. what a bummer i must say. so i thought i'll be going back home on the 19th morning or perhaps noon, at least i still have the time to celebrate my birthday, BUT NO, my working hour was till late. sigh..

on the way back to my place in Bukit Jalil, a friend called (around 11:25pm)and chatted with me till i reached home. he was asking me if i've cut a cake on my birthday this year and i said no. he said that he'll get a cake for me and told me to wait for him. he was asking me bout cakes and stuff, what kind of cakes i like and bla bla bla. when i reached my place, i told him that i gotta hang up coz i need to take stuff, couldn't talk on the phone. when i reached my place, it was dark and everything looked normal. proceeded to our room (Rosh and i share the same room), but it's lock. knocked on the door and Rosh came to unlock the door, but she did not open it for me. when i opened the door i noticed...aiks, there were candles everywhere and OMG....a cake in the middle of the room. and before i knew it, everyone was right behind me. SURPRISE!!! yay...it was a surprise for my birthday. so happy...i've never had a surprised birthday celebration before. Thanks guys. indeed, it will be one of the most memorable birthdays in my life. Thanks Rosh for the surprise you've plan. Thanks QX for the call and the yummy cake (tiramisu from alexis. *yum yum*). Thanks to others for being there; hc, jie, Andres, Eric and blur blur.

birthday is here again and this time we celebrated earlier. since my birthday is on the 19th which is on Monday, frens and i decided to celebrate it on the 17th which was Saturday. just thinking of where to go gave me a terrible headache. some like the place some dislike. so, from Maison to Loft to Zouk to Flam to Velvet, in the end we ended up at Poppy Garden. it was like the best night ever. first time ever in my life there were so many people celebrating my birthday with me. very happy i must say. and i can never deny that i'm getting old. last time i can party like crazy, lotsa stamina and energy to party all night. but yesterday, i was exhausted and was tired after a few dance. what a bummer...

i'm very happy with my birthday celebration this year. 2006's birthday is like the best one ever. received lotsa gifts from humanz. Thanks people. i've never received so many wonderful gifts in my entire life before. this year is the first time ever. i still remember how misery my previous birthdays' presents were, especially during my childhood and high school period. THEY'RE ALL VERY PATHETIC!! "hate you people who treated me like a junk. just because you people treated me like a junk doesn't mean that you people should give me junks."

anyhow thanks again everyone for the pressie. thanks SueZen for the top (it's very nice and most importantly it's BLACK), thanks Nikki for the beautiful handmade earrings, thanks hc for the new phone casing (finally you got one for me, hehe), thanks Andres and jie for the notty notty stuff (>.<), and last but not least, thanks Rosh, Sam and my bro, Kenneth for the Momoe bag (thought of buying it months ago, almost bought it and luckily did not get it in the end). and to others, thanks for the enjoyable moment and thanks for all the wonderful wishes. luv you guys so much...

falling in love is like a dream for every gal in the world. to be in love is like a fantasy to everyone of us. but that is if the love turns out to be a beautiful one. when it turns ugly, one get hurts and some might get over it and find another new love again, while some will keep love a distance, afraid to be hurt and to be disappointed again. sometimes i wish to be in love again. the feeling of being loved and pampered, being taken care of, being the special one; it's simply wonderful. but it seems a lil hard for me to be in a relationship now. not that i've got hurt real badly in my previous relationship, i guess i'm just not ready and am still waiting for mr.right to appear at the right time. or perhaps i'm just not bless with one now. i guess i'll just stay idle until someone perfect has eyes on me.