CNY is just around the corner and i notice that i haven't got any new clothes yet. this is the ONE thing i dislike about CNY - getting new clothes. for most gals, shopping seem to be their favourite but not for me. maybe i'm weird but i call myself different. i can't say that i dislike shopping, i love it but i'm not a shopaholic, i'm more like a window-shopper. i have the least clothes among all the gal friends i know. i have the least clothes among all my flatmates (6 guys and 1 gal) when i was in London. even shoes, gals tend to have at least 10 pairs of shoes, but i only have 2 pairs of high heels which i seldom wear them and 2 pairs of sneakers. what about skirts? i only have 2 dresses, a knee length skirt and a miniskirt. i prefer wearing pants especially jeans because it's so comfy and i can just jump around without worrying about...you know. a more funky and casual type of gal rather than elegant and girlish.

so why do i love shopping but dislike buying clothes? let me see...
1. maybe it's because i'm not working yet so i do not have the money to buy clothes, let it be cheap or expensive, no money means nothing..
2. i'm very very choosy with the designs and colours. i'm not trying to say that i have a high taste in fashion. i don't, i know i don't. that's why i always ended up with nothing when i go shopping and just look at the amount of clothes i have for now.
3. it's hard to find clothes that fit me. i don't think i'm too thin but it's hard to find clothes that fit me. sometimes even size "S" and "XS" couldn't fit me. what the heck?! "XS", isn't that extra small?? how can that be too big for me?!
4. adding the first, second and the third point frustrates me a lot and i got fed up. i don't think it's necessary to have so many clothes when people can never finish wearing all the clothes they have, and that sometimes people don't wear them and chuck them aside (what a waste of money).

ok i might be saying all the bad stuff now but maybe i'll be like most gals that shop till they drop in the future. maybe i'll turn to be a shopaholic once i started working and earning money. who knows.. but no matter what, i still need to shop for new clothes for CNY. it's a MUST according to parents. i'm force to do it so i have to do it.

itchy hands i have. i cut my own hair today and now i look like an 'aunty'. couldn't believe that i actually cut my hair that short this time. ok obviously when i said "this time" it shows that this is not the first time i cut my own hair. believe it my friend, i actually cut my own hair several times before. how silly...

finally i'm going to say a little about the Penang trip. i'll make it really short because i'm soooo lazy. the trip to Penang was great, but the weather was so hot, i felt like a burning pig under the hot sun. there's nothing much to do in Penang except going to temples and temples and temples (besides eating of course). so we went to the Burmese Temple, Thai Buddhist Temple and Kek Lok Si Temple. i can actually feel the holiness in me after visiting 3 temples in a day. amazing...
a visit to Batu Ferringhi made the trip worthwhile. that’s my favourite place to be. we were in Grand Plaza Parkroyal and everything there is incredibly beautiful. it was so nice that we went back to the same place again the next day before leaving back to Klang. we were staying in Lee San’s uncle’s house. nice garden he has, with a slight touch of Balinese concept. thanks for the hospitality, Uncle.

some pictures...


Penang bridge


Burmese Temple


Thai Buddhist Temple


Sacred turtle pond


Lanterns....lots of them


Kek Lok Si Temple - The Pagoda


Bronze statue of Goddess of Mercy/Kuan Yin














Grand Plaza Parkroyal





Batu Ferringhi


We found this, don't know what's that




















Uncle's nice garden

"cause you're leaving on a jet plane, don't know when you'll be back again..."
Lee San is going back to Canada soon, real soon, as in few hours time. so fast...she's back for like 3 weeks but it's as if she's back for only a week. oh i'm going to miss her again. and now that she's leaving, i'll be going back to my same old, boring, pathetic life again.

everyone is working now except for me. me, myself and i. Nikki found a job already, some advertising job i think, and she's going to work in ACP Asia Pte Ltd, the company that publishes Cleo and Women's Weekly. that's so nice. Hong Chiang is working too, as an IT Trainee. 3 of us were jobless last year, and now i'm the only one left, holding the title "Jobless" all by myself. lazy lazy lazy me. hopeless, useless, worthless me.

*Lee San, have a safe journey, enjoy your flight and take care. hope to see you again soon*

it's sad to know that i'm not one of the shortlisted candidates for job A, and it's even sadder to know that there is still no news or call regarding job B. for God sake, i couldn't just sit at home and wait for them for the whole year. so i went for another interview just now, which was recommended by a friend. i do not think that i did well just now, but according to my friend, she said that the chances for me to be taken is quite high. let's hope that it's true.

surprisingly, Mum did not mention anything about yesterday. i don't know why. it's good though but somehow it feels weird. guess she thinks that i'm old enough to do whatever i want. phew...

yesterday was Karolina's last night in Malaysia, so we went to Bar Flam in Bangsar. it started out pretty well, the bartender was very nice, Nikki and i called him as Mr.Muscular. good songs, good crowd, when suddenly Lee San and her friends were out of sight, missing in action. they were sitting outside, having an emergency talk. then i was tipsy and it started to be a bad night. i puked for freaking 3 times. man i'm such a terrible drinker. the last time i puked was at home. and how lucky i was, my Mum heard me puking. i know i'll be getting some scolding from her later when she's back, well she's out when i woke up. gosh..


Mr.Muscular - Nice fella

i'm getting lazier and lazier these days. so lazy to blog but i'm trying to force myself to write something here. Lee San's back and that's why i'm always out. her friend from Poland came to Malaysia for holiday and we've been out to places. just got back from Penang yesterday and i'm going to Genting tomorrow till Sunday, and to Malacca on Monday. it is indeed a busy week. i'm tired and exhausted and freaking broke, but i'm happy and it's nice to be out with friends.

i wanted to talk about my trip but i'm just too lazy. going out again soon, so i'm here just to blog a little. anyway i'll just stop right here. might blog about my trip next time, when i'm free.

yesterday was a terribly exhausting day. was walking around KL the whole day, as if i'm a tourist myself. went to the US Embassy, KLCC, KL Tower, Bintang Walk and China Town. can't talk much about it now coz i still have some packing to do; i'm going to Penang. leaving very soon and i'm not done with my packing yet. so why am i here?? no idea.. ok going to continue my packing now.. i hope i have a lot to say when i'm back from the trip.

here are some pics taken..





Petronas Twin Towers


KLCC/Petronas Twin Towers


The view from KL Tower


Nice rooftop


KL Tower

oh it's already a brand new year. Happy New Year. hello 2005, bye 2004. couldn't believe that it's already 2005. time flies... New Year resolutions? none..coz i'm too lazy to make one and i knew that i'll break all the resolutions i'm going to make. so better don't make any.

so restless and exhausted lately. i've been out almost every single day since Lee San was back from Canada. this means, i'm spending more and more while i'm earning nothing. my balance in my account is reaching negative. Mum is going to kill me if she finds out.

i can't remember what i wanted to say. my brain is stuck, still sleeping. there are a lot of things i wanted to say but i couldn't remember. so i'll just stop here then.

Happy New Year to everyone!!

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Merry Christmas!!!

it's Christmas Eve today and sad to say, i'm not going out. spending my time with no one, all alone. it is indeed a lonely Christmas for me. sigh...

yesterday was a terribly exhausting day. i went for the interview and it's the longest interview i've ever had. there were so many people and most of them looked so qualified for that job. i was like a tiny ant around them. there were times when i wanted to leave that place and just go home. but since i was already there and i've waited for so long, it's going to be a waste if i didn't stick around and give it a try. surprisingly i managed to pass through all the phases, and most of the candidates whom i thought were qualified weren't selected. so it's actually worth waiting for so freaking long. however, i do not know will i be getting that job or not yet. there's another test for all the selected candidates and later we still need to wait for the result. somehow i have this feeling telling me that i'll fail the test.

i'm not going to stay up late today. i'm going to sleep after this. need to get up early in the morning because there's a job interview. it's for job B. but i don't think i can sleep soundly later. coz i knew i'll be thinking about the interview all night. that's just me, i think too much, way too much. i hate this thing about me. sucks.. i tend to think too much, either it's a small matter or big. i will think and think and think and think and think....ah anyhow i hope everything will be fine. i hope that i can answer them well. no nervous breakdown please. ah God bless me please and wish me luck..

life is so sickening. i've decided to apply for both of the jobs few days ago. i sent my application for job A and there is an interview for job B this Saturday. should i go or should i not go? i wanted to give it a try because the chances for me to get job A is kinda low. couldn't made up my mind and it's messing in my head, disturing me all the time. i toss upon my sleepless bed almost every night. once i'm asleep, i'll start dreaming about it. i'm so sick with this. my head is going to explode soon. give me a break, will ya..

life has been pretty fucked up lately. i'm stuck with these 2 choices; should i apply for job A or job B? both are good, but i can only choose one. however, someone told me to try both. i've been told that trying means i just got the chance but doesn't mean that i'll be in. that's so true. so now i'm telling myself to try both but somehow, something inside me keeps telling me to choose only one. headache...headache..

guess what? i shaped my own eyebrows just now. turned out to be so shitty. look so weird and imbalance. thanks to my own itchy hand. i'm going to look like an alien with funny eyebrows. so stupid of me.

these are the list of things that i wanted to do/get:
1. a pair of black pants
2. few working tops
3. colour my hair to black
4. trim my hair, if possible might straighten or perm
5. contact lens (using the last pair that can last me for 2 more weeks)
6. new shoes, a pair or two
7. shape my eyebrows, they are so bushy and untidy
8. a watch
9. invest in some makeup and facial products

i think that's enough, not going to "10". guess how much do i need for all that? 1K? maybe more. sign... i'm jobless and there's an extremely big hole in my pocket. yet i still need money to do and buy all the things listed. maybe not all but most of it.

Mum went to Penang with sis and bro just now. they left around 11am, right after i woke up. i was having trouble sleeping and that's why i woke up so "early". Mum wanted to go to Penang for some prayers reason, as well as visiting her sis (my aunt) and some other relatives. now there are only me, my younger sis, Dad and our lovely Hailie at home. all the house chores are directed to me of course. hate it. well i can avoid all those house chores, that is IF i'm going to Penang with them. but i chose not to go. not in the mood.

we (Nikki, jie and i) went to Malacca yesterday, finally...after 3 weeks of planning and cancelling the trip. however, we did nothing much there. we went to Malacca just to send jie's cousin home. had lots of food there, 'Chicken Rice Ball' for lunch and for dinner we had the 'Satay Celup'. it was good. we then went to the famous Jonker Walk and had 'Cendol'. my friend told me that the cendol there is so damn good. the best cendol ever. but i was quite disappointed when i tried it. it wasn't as good as what she had said. tasted the same as the normal, common cendol. well the 'gula melaka' was great, very thick unlike the one they have in Klang Valley. that's the only nice thing about the cendol.


Satay Celup


Yummy Doraemon Pancakes

attended my very first interview today morning. position applied for: admin assistant. company's profile: it's a company that deals with Proton & Toyota automobiles. the lady who interviewed me is nice. however, she thinks that my qualification is way too high and was curious why do i choose this job. she seems to be quite happy and satisfied with me though. one good thing about this job is that we get to do some roadshows once a while besides all those paper works and get stuck in the office forever. that's what i wanted, a job that does not require me to stay in the office, in my cubicle, facing the same people all year long. the bad thing is that they are looking for someone who is interested to work for a long term and not a person who comes to gain experiences and leave after a few months. well she told me that and wanted me to consider about it. "please be honest" is what she's trying to tell me, indirectly. honestly, i'm only interested to work for 1 month. yes 1 month. Lee San is coming back in 3 weeks time and i need money to go out with her. ok 1 month's pay isn't enough but at least it does help a little. i need a job, a part-time job will do. anyone who's willing to hire me for a month? anyone?

Mum kinda dragged me to Klang yesterday. we went to the job agency to get some help, to help me to get a job. a friend told me to look for this Chinese lady but she wasn't around, so an Indian lady helped me with everything. i told her i wanted something connected to IT or events. she couldn't find anything related to events and for IT, i need to have programming knowledge which i don't. so i ended up with 1 job on customer service and 3 on admin clerk/asst/exec. customer service is out because it's way too far from my place. so i got no other choices besides the admin jobs. i'm sure you know how much does an admin asst usually get paid. sometimes it could be less than 1K. that's so freaking sad. but what can i say, i'm just too choosy. so this is what i get. darn..