i've already booked my seat on the 19th, so will be going back to Malaysia on that day with my friend Nikki. gonna miss London so much.

that "friend" of mine in the house is seriously getting on my nerves. yesterday was her birthday and she went to her friends' house coz they baked her a cake. well of course Nikki and i did celebrate with her too. anyway, when she came back, i opened the door for her and i noticed that she has a black face on. knew something wasn't right. after a while, i went to the lounge and sat with Nikki. she told me that that "friend" of ours wanna have a talk with us. ouch...suddenly both of us were so tensed. wonder what she wanna say..

finally all of us sat down and the talk began. that friend, ok ok it's Ashley, she said that she received a call from the landlady, saying that the people downstairs were complaining about us again for the second time, for being too noisy. people downstairs said that we've been making noises every single day, and the worst was on Tuesday. lots of noises and screaming were heard especially from the lounge and from Nikki's room. Ashley told the landlady that yes she has told us to lower down our voices before, but we didn't listen to her. she even dare to say that she believes that she is the one who makes the less noise among us. and the best part of all, she said something which i believe was directed to me. she said, "you knew yourself who made the most noise, who scream the most, the loudest". i reckon that's me she's talking about. well she said that she's very angry and mad, but hey as if Nikki and i were not. i was so pissed at her when she said all those. it's so unreasonable, so unfair and so untrue. end of the conversation.

about screaming..well thanks to her of course or else Nikki and i will never scream. what..do you think that Nikki and i were from the zoo, we'll go screaming for no reason or are we like the insane people that go screaming around?? of course no. it's definitely a great thanks to Ashley for making ME screamed. she's one hell of a sick person. she'll come and molest me and Nikki, almost every single day. no wonder the people downstairs said that we make noises every single day. she's extremely sick. who will not scream, you tell me. so i don't think it's totally our fault. if she is to leave us alone, then there will be no screaming. no noises, no complains.

later, Nikki and i had a talk in the balcony. she said that what Ashley said just now were so unfair. i knew..i agree. that's why i did not say sorry to her at all. coz i knew it's not totally my fault. what happened on Tuesday, Ashley said that she couldn't remember what we did..i don't know if she has really forgotten about it, or she knew that it's sort of her fault so she said she couldn't remember, i really have no idea. but it's fine as long as Nikki and i remembered. on Tuesday, we were watching movie in Nikki's room. whose idea was that? Ashley. she suggested that we watched movie in Nikki's room. she's so smart. usually when we wanna watch movie, she'll suggest that we watch it in Nikki's room. isn't she smart? if anything happens, she can escape from the blame. brilliant, ain't it?

went to the room just now(Nikki's room) and i saw her sitting on the floor, leaning against the bedside. noticed her hands were holding some tissues, and when i looked at her, her eyes were red: she's crying. oh my God!! what should i do? what can i do? comfort her? i tried to, but she's talking to her Dad online. i don't know what to do, how to react. if i stay, i'll kinda disturb her talking to her Dad, i wanna give them some privacy. in the end, i chose to leave the room. she might think that i'm such a useless friend. well i guess i am. i really have no idea what to do. i feel so useless.

she's always been a very strong and tough person. that was the first time i seen her crying. of course i know how she feels. she's a very ambitious gal. she loves London so much and is desperate to get a working permit so that she can work and stay here longer. she's been doing so much stuff for the company she has been working for and suddenly they just fired her. all her plans and dreams were crushed, crushed by those stupid idiots who do not know how to appreciate her. now she has to start all over again, and it's not that easy. that's life, full with obstacles and unexpected future.

i don't know what is waiting for me in the future, i don't know what will i be doing and i don't know how would my future be. i wanted to stay in London and work here too, but things are never that easy, especially for a person like me, so useless and lazy.

Mum called me just now, she's worried, afraid that something might had happened to me. she hasn't seen me online for the past few days. it's not me who doesn't wanna go online, i just can't. Nikki stops going to work after she got the termination letter and now that she's at home, she'll be using the laptop more often. all i can do is to sit and wait for my turn. i've been sitting in the lounge from noon till evening, looking around the lounge, listening to some musics and i even fell asleep. there's nothing nice showing on tv in the noon and there's nothing else i can do. dead boring..

this is life. i'm enjoying my life here as a living parasite. not working, not earning money and am enjoying life like i'm some sort of rich people. the weather here is getting a lot better. it started to get sunny again last week and it's predicted to be the same throughout this whole week. i was writing this in a piece of paper yesterday while sitting at the balcony, listening to some musics, enjoying the weather, no nice scene but it's good, get to see the lovely sky, rooftop of some buildings and trees, and was enjoying my iced lemon tea. what i'm lacking of is the internet connection. something is really wrong with the connection since Sunday. i'm not quite sure what's wrong but i have the feeling that it's one of my friends who actually did something to it so that the laptop which uses the external wireless network card can't go online. laptop belongs to Nikki and i uses that all these while. now i'm sure you know whom i'm talking about. ya it's Ashely. sometimes she'll unplug the router's cable when she faces low connection rate so that she gets to use the connection all by herself. sometimes when Nikki and i were downloading stuff, she'll come to us and asked us to stop the downloading coz that interfere her online activities. don't you think that she's selfish? i did, i think she is.

yesterday Nikki came back with a very bad news. she's fired, she lost her job. her boss just gave her a termination letter yesterday right before she left the office. the reason given? she's not suitable for the work even after they gave her second chance. what the hell. she's a workaholic and she's very hard working. she did almost everything for them, from administration to accounting. they're just doing it on purpose, couldn't find a better reason for her, so "not suitable" is the reason they could find. lame.. so now she need to get a job asap, or she'll need to go back to apply for the working holidaymaker. if she's going back then i'll be following her too. even if she's not going back, i'll be going back as well, probably next week or 2 weeks time.

i am so gonna explode soon. i'm still holding on, holding on real tough. someone has been threatening my limits of tolerance and patience, and i really don't know until when can i be patient with her. sometimes i really wanted to punch her real hard on the face. staying with someone like this friend of mine is a real torture, a real disaster, unless you have an extremely extremely extremely high level of patience and tolerance. i'm wondering how can my other friend stays with her? i must say that yes she's a nice person, but only at times. not all the time. when she started to be the 'real' her, it just made me sick. and i'm talking about Ashley.

alien vs predator..I WANT TO WATCH THAT MOVIE. i've been waiting for it for a year, since last year when i knew that the movie is to be released on summer this year, i just couldn't wait for it. alright i admit that i really have this great obsession about aliens and predators. the movie was said to be released on June this year but they postponed it to August. it's already been released in US on the 13th August, and 26th in Malaysia. in London..you will not believe it, it's said to be released on the 22nd October. OCTOBER!! yes..that's so slow. well that's what you can expect when you are in London. the cinemas here are still showing Shrek 2 and coming soon, The Punisher which will be released here on the 24th September. hey The Punisher was shown in Malaysia on May. imagine how slow is that.

talking about the obsession, i once dreamt that i was leading a team to rescue kids from a kindergarten against aliens attack. it was really fun and exciting. i like playing CounterStrike too and M4A1 Colt Carbine is my favourite weapon. in that dream i was holding that gun and that was so cool. then few days ago i dreamt that i was given a mission to kill mad dogs. mad dogs as in virus infected dogs like the one in Resident Evil, and i was holding a MP5 Navy. i know it sounds crazy but i really like this kind of dream. it's so adventurous, fun and exciting.

yesterday's picnic was good, but if the weather is sunny and hot, it will be wonderful. when we found the best place to sit, it started to drizzle. and that's so SHIT. thank God it only lasted for few minutes but the weather was still horrible. it was very cold, we were shivering. imagine having a picnic in the park, holding your food, shivering..that's so pathetic. but overall we had fun, fooling around, making noises at the park. nice nice...met really nice people there, they are so friendly, and got to see some really nice dogs. oh and i found out the name of the park, it's called Broomfield Park.

went to the park nearby for a walk with Nikki yesterday. it's quite nice but of course it's not as nice as Hyde Park or Green Park. i don't know what's that park called anyway. we were sitting on a bench when 2 teenage boys approached us. talked to us and they thought i'm only 19 years old. wahahaha... one of them is 17 and the other one is 18. when i told them that i'm 22, they were quite surprised but they said age doesn't matter. haha... they thought that Nikki and i are from The States. when we told them that we are from Malaysia, they don't know where is that. one of them asked for my number, but i'm not so dumb to give it to him. but i gave him my e-mail address which i've created especially for junk mails. so guess that will not do any harm huh..

we had tom yam steamboat for dinner yesterday. wohoo... well of course we do not have the best ingredients but what we had were good enough. we can't expect much especially when we are in London, where some ingredients are hard to get and please do not forget about the price as well. so we only had chopped shrimps, fishballs, seafood sticks, chicken fillets, kangkung, and rice noodles. it might sound very pathetic, but i'm very happy with it.



yesterday's weather forecast predicted that today will be cloudy and a bit sunny. so we've planned to have a picnic at the park. we've bought all the stuff we needed yesterday and we bought a bottle of Malibu as well, just for the picnic. the weather now is quite sunny but it's cold, the wind is blowing, cold wind. but no matter what, we'll still be having our picnic coz we already had the food prepared, almost prepared. almost done and we'll be going for the picnic soon. wohoo...

i had dinner with my friends yesterday at this Chinese restaurant down the road. Daniel is leaving for New Castle so it's sort of a farewell dinner. we had buffet there and it's quite reasonable. £13 per person. starters are served at the counter and we get to order the main dishes as many as we like. we ordered almost 15 dishes; king prawns, fish, mussels, pork, beef, chicken, duck, veggie..and there were only 5 of us. hmm..call us big eater.

after dinner we went back to the flat and started playing poker. took a break later and went chilling at the balcony. Daniel spat out a mouth full of water on me. isn't that disgusting?! he did the same thing to Nikki as well. gosh..what a notty fella. we then continued the poker game and 2 friends suggested that we have this drinking session, whoever lose will have to take a shot of vodka or red wine. i will definitely choose vodka as i dislike red wine. i must say that i'm quite lousy, or should i say unlucky, coz i drank the most. i remembered there was once when i have to down 6 shots of vodka straight. what a sad case. but thank God i'm not drunk. not to say that i'm good in drinking, but at least i'm better compare to Daniel. trying to make me drunk huh? we'll see about it. maybe i should challenge him one day, one on one, and i'm sure he'll hug the toilet bowl first. hehe...

anyhow Daniel, all the best in life!!

finally the internet connection in Nikki's room is back in action. we went to the computer centre again on Monday and they sent a man to fix it today.

Nikki asked me to move in with them this weekend. her friend, Daniel will be staying in her room in the hall then. that's fast. gonna miss Ted Lewis Hall again..

the server is still down, only in Nikki's room. i wonder why. it's been down since 3 weeks ago. guess there's some problem with the port. been listening to the same old songs again and again every single day. been playing the same old game everyday, and it's the best game ever, 'Solitaire'. how pathetic. used to have a tv in her room, but now it's in her new place. she shifted to her new place in Palmers Green on the 23rd July with Ashley. it's a nice flat, a cosy place. however, i find the environment and the people in that area quite dodgy, quite dangerous. i'll only be moving in with them end of next month. currently i'm staying in Nikki's room in the hall of residence.

went clubbing last Saturday, 31st July. will never ever step into this club called "333". it's the worst of the worst club i've ever been. terrible music, terrible dance floor, terrible environment and terrible crowd. overall it's HORRIBLE. sucky place, sucks to the max. and the worst part of all, we have to pay fucking £10 to get in, which is totally not worth it. we can get to better clubs with £10, some even less than £10. on the way back home, we got to see something very interesting. there's this fountain near Tottenham Court Road and we saw 2 guys naked, and i mean totally naked, swimming in there. they even posed for pictures and doing really crazy stuff. unfortunately we don't have any camera with us, so no pictures.

when we reached home (Nikki's and Ashley's new place), we noticed that there was some sort of bees attack in the house. at first there were 2 to 3 of them but then it's getting more and more. Ashley was really tired, went to bed and she switched off the light. eventually, the bees in her room were gone. but the bees in Nikki's room were getting more and more, coz she has the light switched on. scary... just wished that they will not come and sting us, but Nikki got stung by one. luckily she's fine, just felt itchy. then i remembered that bees don't like smoke. you know, from the documentary, when the people wanna collect honey from the bee hives, they use the smoke to make the bees dizzy. well i don't know what smoke is that but that gave me an idea. Nikki's friend who smokes was with us that night. so told him about my idea and he lighted 3 ciggies and put them in Nikki's room. it does worked, the bees started to get dizzy and soon it was all gone.

so tired lately, been out all day, bringing parents around London and spending time with them. they are leaving today, night flight. time flies..seems like they're just here for 2 or 3 days. gonna miss them. will be going out soon to meet parents, so in the meantime, here i am, trying to blog. finally i managed to post the picture of my new hair. LOOK...what do you think? as for me, i still prefer the black, original one. actually it's not black, it's more to brownish and people don't believe that that's my original hair colour. duh..


The before and the after..

'jie' is damn sad today. something's really bothering him. i do not know how to help as i'm not very good in giving advice. i can listen but giving advice, i'm not really good in that.

6 July - first of all, congratulations to Nikki, she graduated today. went to the airport to pick my parents up and then checked into the hotel. what a coincidence, a friend of mine and his Mum are staying there too. later we, as in me and my parents had dinner with Nikki and her parents. dinner was great, Thanks.

7 July - it's my turn to graduate. went to the Wembley Conference Centre and thank God i managed to get myself a robe. and i rented it for £35. wasn't very excited about it though, but that's until i stepped into the auditorium. when the ceremony started, things started to flash in my head. been thinking a lot and i wished i had a paper and pen there, so that i can just wrote everything down. now i can't really recall what was i thinking at that time. gosh...talking about short-term memory lost. well see, first of all, i would really love to thank my parents, especially my Dad for sending me over to London to study. all the money that he earned, all gone because of me. thinking about it, i feel so bad and guilty and sorry. then i started to think about the past, the sweet memories and the hard time i had when i was here in London. arghh...i don't know how to put everything in a proper sentence. fine that's it.

had my pictures taken and i spent £42.95 for it. isn't that costly?! anyhow i'm stuck now, don't know what to write.

8 July - went to the wax museum, Madame Tussaud's. entrance ticket, £19.99 per person. there's nothing cheap here, ain't it? talking about art, isn't it amazing how people can actually made something (the wax) that looks so incredibly alike the real person that they're making? shit..do you understand what i'm actually talking about? alright sorry if you can't understand coz i have really bad vocab. later in the evening, had dinner with Nikki, my 'jie' and parents at Belgo. all of us had lobster meal, LOBSTER. yummy..but when the bill came, goodness gracious, £113++. and thanks to my Dad again, for the great dinner. he must be extremely broke now. how can he survive with a daughter like me?

guess what, i'm already in London. woohooo...i really miss this place, and now here i am. so happy and it's nice to be back here again. what a wonderful day. but the journey sucks. can't really sleep, don't eat much, headache, backpain, neckpain...but no jetlag. nice to meet Nikki again. it's so much fun.

talking bout that new look, i don't know what to say. at first, i find it quite fascinating. but later on that day itself, i found it damn 'ah lian'. the hair stylist suggested me to do this new technique of colouring, it's called two-toned, if i'm not mistaken. but it ended up with three tones: red, gold/blonde, brown. he said that this is the latest technique and i'm his fourth customer to do that. so i've been thinking, why not give it a try. well..now..i kinda regret it. will try to post a picture of the before and after the hairdo. there's nothing i can do now, but to learn to like it. would like to thank Karen, for fetching me there and waited for me for 2 1/2 hours. and pity Tracy, waited for us for an hour.

"i had a great time with you guys that night before i leave. Thanks and take care."

an hour later, i'll be taking the challenge to give myself a brand new look. i'll have my hair cut and coloured. i've never had my hair coloured professionally. so this is it. i have no idea what colour should i pick, so i'll just ask them to match one for me. hopefully it will not turned out to be very 'ah lian'.

i wanted to book my graduation robe on-line few days ago but there's something i'm unclear about and the bank hold my solo card. finally, when i've decided to book my robe by using my Dad's visa card, they don't allow me to book on-line any longer. i was too late. i called them then. the lady said it's just too late. i'm required to get the robe on the graduation day itself. and best of all, they can't guarantee that there'll be a robe for me on that day. isn't that great?!

went to Nikki's house last Saturday. her Mum invited me and jie for asam laksa. thanks Aunty. we gave Nikki a call (for your info, she's still in London) from her house and told her that we're at her house, having asam laksa. she's so jealous.

i'll be flying off to London on the 4th July. graduation ceremony is on the 7th. Mum and Dad will be going on the 6th. i haven't book my robe yet. hope it's not too late. can't wait to go back. so excited..

my birthday night was ok, not too good, not too bad. i had fun though, thanks guys. we went to this club called RUSH. A was pissing everyone off. she first told my friend that she's not going to drink and she's not going to pay even a penny. but instead, she drank and drank and drank..and finally she reached the level. sitting MOST of the time, stoned, blur. asked if she's ok, stubborn and still wanted to pretend as if she's ok. in the end, she went to the washroom and puked. well done.

my friends had planned for an outing for tonight for my birthday. however i'm still sitting here, in front of the pc and am able to blog. a friend told me that she'll pick me up at 9:30pm. now it's already 10pm and i just sms one of them. turned out that her cousin's car is having a problem and they are waiting for the tow truck. my friend who's suppose to pick me up, ended having a problem too. so i'm not sure if tonight's plan is working. i'm dressed with the MNG top i bought (lotsa hard work been put just to get this top), and i'm wearing my mini skirt which i bought from Milan. hmm...i really do hope that tonight's plan is working.
ok i just received a text from my friend, she's coming to pick me up first. so i guess the plan is on again. hopefully it's gonna be fun.

::~Happy Birthday to ME!!~::

got to know that one of my friends in UK is going back to Korea for summer. sigh.. we will not be able to see each other when i'm going back to London then.