parents been pestering me to look for a job. well i wanted to but am just too lazy. WHY AM I SO LAZY?! HOW CAN I BE SO FUCKING LAZY?!! gee..think i need some motivation man.

This picture was taken from the other end of the tunnel entrance at Island Gardens. Imagine how far we've walked, from opposite to where I was standing while taking this picture.


Cutty Sark - the most famous tea clipper

i'm back, back to this boring, hot and humid country of mine, Malaysia. gosh i miss London so much. i was back on the 20th September, touched down at KLIA at around 5:14pm. i had a very good sleep in the plane, though the seat is still terrible. first time ever, after traveling to and fro for 6 times from KL to London, this was the first time i had the best sleep and felt that the journey was so short. was very very tired and exhausted on the day i left. i only had around 8 hours sleep on Saturday and a 30minutes nap on Sunday. that was why i could sleep so well in the plane.

17 Sept - Nikki and i went to Greenwich. it's a very nice place; quiet and peaceful but there's nothing much to see and do there. we went to the Tourist Information Centre, took a map and started walking around Greenwich. we saw this building that looks quite interesting and we went in, turned out that it's the entrance to a tunnel: the Greenwich Foot Tunnel. the tunnel runs under a river called River Thames. we walked from one end, where the Cutty Sark is to the other end which is the Island Gardens and i have no idea how far is that. it doesn't seem far though. when we came out from the other end, we were shocked because it looks pretty far. we then went to the Royal Observatory Greenwich, the home of the world's Prime Meridian - Longitude 0° - and of Greenwich Mean Time. we also stopped by at the Greenwich Market but it's quite empty because it's Friday and not weekends. since there's nothing left to see, we decided to head home.

since Nikki and i will be going back to Malaysia for good on the 19th, i've asked our Korean friend, will he be coming to see us for the last time, and will he be sending us off? he asked me if i want him to come. well of cource i do want him to come, but still it's all up to him. he said that he'll give us a call the next morning and see how thing goes.

18 Sept - slept at around 5am and our friend called at around 11:50am. so only had around 7 hours sleep. friend called to tell us that he's going to play golf with his friends first and later will be going to the coach station to get the ticket to London. he'll call again when he got the ticket. took a short nap in the noon, woke up and cooked dinner, our last dinner in London.

didn't received any call from our friend later in the evening, so i suppose he's not coming. a lil disappointed i must say. then suddenly, he called and told me that he missed the last coach and he'll be taking the earliest coach to London the very next morning. so, he's actually coming. his coach will depart from Bournemouth at 3:15am and he's reaching at 6:15am. and so, Nikki and i have to go to the station to pick him up early in the morning. ah isn't that great? he chooses the RIGHT time. Nikki and i stayed awake the whole night till the next morning, and that's Sunday morning.

19 Sept - Nikki and i took the night bus from our place to Central London at around 4:30am. that's classic. it's totally dark and people think that we're crazy. we couldn't take the tube because tube services start at 6am, some 6:30am. so thank God the buses here runs almost 24hours everyday. met up with him at the Victoria Coach Station and then we went home. all of us were so tired, we decided to get a short nap. couldn't sleep much, i only slept for 30minutes and Nikki slept for 1 1/2 hours. our friend slept the most coz he conquered the whole bed. we then went for lunch and came back, continued packing and then it's time to leave.

he came, he actually came. i told him that it was a surprise and he said that he doesn't want to disappoint me. felt so sorry because we didn't bring him out at all, just stayed at home and sleep and even helped us with all the heavy luggage.

"Thanks for the sweet memories. will be missing you always.."

20 Sept - our 'jie' came to the airport to pick us up. well basically none of our parents knew that we're back, neither Nikki's nor mine. no one in Malaysia knew except for our 'jie'. once we touched down at the airport, i called Tracy. gave her a surprise and she was surprised. haha... she's now in Malacca and have no idea when will she be back. so 'jie' fetched me back first, and when my family saw me, i think they were quite surprised. Mum told me that yesterday, that was 19th Sept, she dreamt that i came back on the next day and my friend fetched me back home. well turned out that the dream was real. coincidence? i don't know. but it's cool..

i've already booked my seat on the 19th, so will be going back to Malaysia on that day with my friend Nikki. gonna miss London so much.

that "friend" of mine in the house is seriously getting on my nerves. yesterday was her birthday and she went to her friends' house coz they baked her a cake. well of course Nikki and i did celebrate with her too. anyway, when she came back, i opened the door for her and i noticed that she has a black face on. knew something wasn't right. after a while, i went to the lounge and sat with Nikki. she told me that that "friend" of ours wanna have a talk with us. ouch...suddenly both of us were so tensed. wonder what she wanna say..

finally all of us sat down and the talk began. that friend, ok ok it's Ashley, she said that she received a call from the landlady, saying that the people downstairs were complaining about us again for the second time, for being too noisy. people downstairs said that we've been making noises every single day, and the worst was on Tuesday. lots of noises and screaming were heard especially from the lounge and from Nikki's room. Ashley told the landlady that yes she has told us to lower down our voices before, but we didn't listen to her. she even dare to say that she believes that she is the one who makes the less noise among us. and the best part of all, she said something which i believe was directed to me. she said, "you knew yourself who made the most noise, who scream the most, the loudest". i reckon that's me she's talking about. well she said that she's very angry and mad, but hey as if Nikki and i were not. i was so pissed at her when she said all those. it's so unreasonable, so unfair and so untrue. end of the conversation.

about screaming..well thanks to her of course or else Nikki and i will never scream. what..do you think that Nikki and i were from the zoo, we'll go screaming for no reason or are we like the insane people that go screaming around?? of course no. it's definitely a great thanks to Ashley for making ME screamed. she's one hell of a sick person. she'll come and molest me and Nikki, almost every single day. no wonder the people downstairs said that we make noises every single day. she's extremely sick. who will not scream, you tell me. so i don't think it's totally our fault. if she is to leave us alone, then there will be no screaming. no noises, no complains.

later, Nikki and i had a talk in the balcony. she said that what Ashley said just now were so unfair. i knew..i agree. that's why i did not say sorry to her at all. coz i knew it's not totally my fault. what happened on Tuesday, Ashley said that she couldn't remember what we did..i don't know if she has really forgotten about it, or she knew that it's sort of her fault so she said she couldn't remember, i really have no idea. but it's fine as long as Nikki and i remembered. on Tuesday, we were watching movie in Nikki's room. whose idea was that? Ashley. she suggested that we watched movie in Nikki's room. she's so smart. usually when we wanna watch movie, she'll suggest that we watch it in Nikki's room. isn't she smart? if anything happens, she can escape from the blame. brilliant, ain't it?

went to the room just now(Nikki's room) and i saw her sitting on the floor, leaning against the bedside. noticed her hands were holding some tissues, and when i looked at her, her eyes were red: she's crying. oh my God!! what should i do? what can i do? comfort her? i tried to, but she's talking to her Dad online. i don't know what to do, how to react. if i stay, i'll kinda disturb her talking to her Dad, i wanna give them some privacy. in the end, i chose to leave the room. she might think that i'm such a useless friend. well i guess i am. i really have no idea what to do. i feel so useless.

she's always been a very strong and tough person. that was the first time i seen her crying. of course i know how she feels. she's a very ambitious gal. she loves London so much and is desperate to get a working permit so that she can work and stay here longer. she's been doing so much stuff for the company she has been working for and suddenly they just fired her. all her plans and dreams were crushed, crushed by those stupid idiots who do not know how to appreciate her. now she has to start all over again, and it's not that easy. that's life, full with obstacles and unexpected future.

i don't know what is waiting for me in the future, i don't know what will i be doing and i don't know how would my future be. i wanted to stay in London and work here too, but things are never that easy, especially for a person like me, so useless and lazy.

Mum called me just now, she's worried, afraid that something might had happened to me. she hasn't seen me online for the past few days. it's not me who doesn't wanna go online, i just can't. Nikki stops going to work after she got the termination letter and now that she's at home, she'll be using the laptop more often. all i can do is to sit and wait for my turn. i've been sitting in the lounge from noon till evening, looking around the lounge, listening to some musics and i even fell asleep. there's nothing nice showing on tv in the noon and there's nothing else i can do. dead boring..

this is life. i'm enjoying my life here as a living parasite. not working, not earning money and am enjoying life like i'm some sort of rich people. the weather here is getting a lot better. it started to get sunny again last week and it's predicted to be the same throughout this whole week. i was writing this in a piece of paper yesterday while sitting at the balcony, listening to some musics, enjoying the weather, no nice scene but it's good, get to see the lovely sky, rooftop of some buildings and trees, and was enjoying my iced lemon tea. what i'm lacking of is the internet connection. something is really wrong with the connection since Sunday. i'm not quite sure what's wrong but i have the feeling that it's one of my friends who actually did something to it so that the laptop which uses the external wireless network card can't go online. laptop belongs to Nikki and i uses that all these while. now i'm sure you know whom i'm talking about. ya it's Ashely. sometimes she'll unplug the router's cable when she faces low connection rate so that she gets to use the connection all by herself. sometimes when Nikki and i were downloading stuff, she'll come to us and asked us to stop the downloading coz that interfere her online activities. don't you think that she's selfish? i did, i think she is.

yesterday Nikki came back with a very bad news. she's fired, she lost her job. her boss just gave her a termination letter yesterday right before she left the office. the reason given? she's not suitable for the work even after they gave her second chance. what the hell. she's a workaholic and she's very hard working. she did almost everything for them, from administration to accounting. they're just doing it on purpose, couldn't find a better reason for her, so "not suitable" is the reason they could find. lame.. so now she need to get a job asap, or she'll need to go back to apply for the working holidaymaker. if she's going back then i'll be following her too. even if she's not going back, i'll be going back as well, probably next week or 2 weeks time.

i am so gonna explode soon. i'm still holding on, holding on real tough. someone has been threatening my limits of tolerance and patience, and i really don't know until when can i be patient with her. sometimes i really wanted to punch her real hard on the face. staying with someone like this friend of mine is a real torture, a real disaster, unless you have an extremely extremely extremely high level of patience and tolerance. i'm wondering how can my other friend stays with her? i must say that yes she's a nice person, but only at times. not all the time. when she started to be the 'real' her, it just made me sick. and i'm talking about Ashley.